I'm His beloved -- saved by God's grace

"There's nothing good about me.. if there is one thing, it's the Lord Jesus Christ in my life". Sinful yet forgiven, unloving yet loved, believes she's not worthy yet is fillled with the Father's love. *Not a typical blog, just a free space to shout my silent cries.*

[alabasterjaaar]

Happy looks good on you, my dear!

[alabasterjaaar]

I had a hard time trying to look for the answers to the questions that adds up in my mind every time I recall how you have handled the situation about us but I cannot emphasize it enough that the easiest thing to do is to let things be. The aftermath of your actions made me see a perspective I didn't see before - that actions and words, no matter how they compliment each other, true intentions in the purest form will be revealed in time. Consistency is the clear indication of sincerity. It's so painful that I'm now afraid to trust other people and moreso, I don't know when I'll be able to trust myself again but I can't thank God enough for the protection, He must have seen what will happen in the long run.

Today, my heart is at peace and I'm living each day with a grateful heart that I get to know a side of me that existed in the shadows. My security is in God and in His love alone, no amount of pain or disappointment can turn me into someone that I'm not if I cling on to the Source of true love.

As I write this down, I only have two words for you - "thank you". Your intentions in the beginning might be true and sincere with all the kind words, plans, promises and prayers but you were caught up with too much emotions and with the world's standards that you ended up just choosing the other route when it gets difficult- the easier and the more fun part (I guess) which is to stop pursuing and just leave it all behind - sad part is incuding the friendship. I have nothing against pursuing self-love but too much of it will not lead us to His will and plans. His word clearly states that we must love Him first and we love others as we love ourselves. Unless we are filled with love from the Source, we will always run out of it.

For what it's worth, thank you for coming and thank you for leaving. 🤍

[taking-care-of-you]

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[alabasterjaaar]

AMEN! ❤️

[p96al]

self care is also being honest with yourself about your negative habits and mistakes. it’s also taking ownership of your faults and growing from them. self care is diverting from a negative space to a positive one. creating light and balance. blooming. watering your own flowers. being gentle but honest with yourself.

so take care.

[alabasterjaaar]

🎈

[positiveautistic-deactivated202]

What they did to you wasn’t your fault

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

you are loved. on quiet days that feel meaningless, during long nights when loneliness consumes you, when you’re reminiscing and grieving the past, on good days that feel like warmth and light, always remember that you are loved. 

[alabasterjaaar]

😭 Cried myself to sleep again last night. I thought I'm over it but every time I open my social media accounts - the recent heartbreak is still remembered. I hope for a day when finally I won't be able to rememeber anything about him - specially the pain and all the memories. Here at tumblr again to freely express what I feel without explaining it to anyone. ❤️

[worshipgifs]

[alabasterjaaar]

No, never again. ❤️

[worshipgifs]

[rachelmellema]

“Meditating on the goodness of God is a strong motivation for obedience.”

—

[jesustureinas]

[alabasterjaaar]

❤️❤️❤️

[biblesandbutterflies]

[alabasterjaaar]

😭 Thank You, Lord! 🙌🏽🤍

[alabasterjaaar]

Missing the beach so bad. ❤️ Happy Thursday!

[amargedom]

[alabasterjaaar]

[rachelmellema]

[alabasterjaaar]

YES AND AMEN! 😭❤️🙏🏽

[worshipgifs]

He's not ignoring those of us waiting either. God loves us too much to answer our prayers at any other time than the right time. - Lysa Terkeurst

[alabasterjaaar]

❤️

[rachelmellema]

“God is never in a hurry. He knows what He’s doing, and His timing is never off.”

—

[bubblysuggestion]

if something upsets you, it upsets you. you’re allowed to feel emotions. you don’t have to suppress your feelings for the sake of being the “bigger person”