Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Heās forgotten again, how many times heās come here, how many times theyāve had this conversation. This was not like the first time, though. Sheās not the same as she was when she first saw him so long ago. ā I⦠ā sheās not sure what to say to him anymore. She knows how this will end. Thereās no changing him, heās different every time. Heās worse every time. Still, she can never give up on him. She refuses to let him go without having said what she has to. ā I will not give up on you. ā she says, hands balling up into fists as she says so.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā No matter how many times we will have this conversation, I will never give up on youā¦andā ā No, she canāt falter now. Not with something like this. She has to be firm. ā If you will feel some sort of peace..then please. Kill me. ā silence, but then she reiterates.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā If it helps you feel at ease, if it keeps you hereā¦if with my death, you will stay in this city and feel something then please. ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā [ ē·“ ] The way she speaks is much more bold and distinct than before, even if he did once praise her for her determination and strength, and even if it surprises him in the slightest, it shows none on his unshakable expression; of course, heād never again show such a vulnerability to a person, especially to the one standing before him. She details having shared these words with him before, and although heās not the forgetful kind, he canāt even admit to himself that he has even the slightest knowledge of dealing with this before.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Though, it really doesnāt bother him, so long as heās the only one of him in this city. Her next words are what push him over the metaphorical edge, the one heād been leaning over in his own mind during this conversation: she offers something heād sought in their own world before, but he has no words to begin to explain his stupor.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Is life for her here that terrible?
Ā Ā Ā Ā āI wouldnāt suppose this is a convenient excuse for you to try and act as some martyr? What makes you think Iāll even have the slightest chance of leaving again -- is this some sort of taunt? Are you only saying this to remind me? I have no choice but to be kept here like cattle, and youāve got nothing but empty words to try and get something out of me?ā She is stupid. Beyond it, even, and he was almost absolute she had some pitiful influence pushing idiocy to her, making her say these--
Ā Ā Ā Ā really, he was more in denial that sheād offer her own head, and her genuine belief her self-sacrifice would change him somehow...
Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhat makes you think your death would have any influence to begin with?ā