the butterflies in my stomach make me puke

^-^ hi i’m ALE...! weird vent blog for me and basically me only. sometimes my friends i suppose. xe/xem.

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tw: sh, horny bs, evil stuff, i suck, dont go here, get

GET OUT OF HERE!!!

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Kms

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h

right now shouldnt have any attention on me

why does he care

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I (love me) WANT (love me) TO (love me) MAKE (love me) YOU (love me) MISERABLE

(please fucking love me)

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“today i met who im gonna be from now on, and hes a piece of shit”

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im always wrong. im always guilty. i just need to die

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fuck and video call me while you fuck? boyfriend porn? 👀👀👀👀 a woman can dream

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I thjnk i can only have two meaningful connections nowadays

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its just boyfriend time forwver. and thats ok. i guess. because even when i do try its like nobody gaf. and thats ok thats just how iit is .... its ok... its ok

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I thjnk i can only have two meaningful connections nowadays

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ALL OF YOY DIE FOREVER

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i need to go home forever

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i hate love. i hate loving. i hate loving the people that care about me. i hate caring about my friends it all makes me so fuckin depressed because none of it ,, fuckin, none of it matters in the end, not to any of them i dont think

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kill me

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sometimes i think of someone as a pretty close friend, and then it really kicks in how little i actually matter to them. i wish i had friendssss man holy shit kill me

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LIKE SERIOUSLY YOU COULD AT LEAST SAY HI. I STILL THINK YOURE REALLY COOL MAN I MJSS YOU I THINK YOURE AWESOME WHHAT DID I DO. I THOUGHT,,WE WERE CHILL,ITHOUGHT you thought i was cool:c

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i dont think its really coming along. im so hollow

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see that ship sail off

with its sails aloft

and see me dry my eyes

and see more

salty tears flow

as my house is blown wide

see me watch the waves roll in from somewhere

see me squint my eyes

see me learn to live without my loved ones

see me scan the skies

and see the flock of birds goodbye

and turn to go inside

but i feel you

on my neck

you are a ball

of

fire

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cool, i feel so, epiccc sauce, i greened out, my friends dont even respnd to me when i say hi, my boyfriend is scting like he doesnt care about me, i ,, fuck my stupid baka life