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ray: that's the question babe
alejandra: no & for GOOD reason
alejandra: there are only certain risks i am willing to take
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outgoing ; ray of sunshine
ray: but do u EVER test it out ??
ray: that's the question babe
alejandra: no & for GOOD reason
alejandra: there are only certain risks i am willing to take
outgoing ; ray of sunshine
ray: technically this isn't my fault
ray: u can't suggest smth like that and expect me not to do it
alejandra: you're blaming me ???
alejandra: just bc i read a lot of outrageous stuff doesn't mean i always test it out
alejandra: boundaries ray
EVGENIA:
『 ✘ — evgenia can see alejandra’s eyes becoming more distant and dreamlike as she speaks, perhaps reflecting on where her own life has taken her, and where it could go. flecks of deep brown married with lighter hues, seeming to twinkle in thought. resting her chin on her palm, the blonde’s mind wanders. what was the other girl’s story? where was she born? does she think fondly on her childhood? evgenia smiles wistfully. she doesn’t think she’d ever shared her story with anybody apart from winnie; it was locked down in her journals and she and her brother’s memories. talking about it seemed to do both good and bad. it was sort of relieving, when she spoke to the therapist back in russia, but also dragged a whole lot of unpleasant shit back up. “ yeah, you’re right, ” evie softly bites down on her bottom lip. “ it’s so strange. i never thought i’d live in las vegas, that’s for sure. maybe in time i’ll be somewhere else i’d never picture myself in. ” she laughs halfheartedly. she hopes it isn’t somewhere new, but home, back in chechnya. “ options… hm, to open a cute café or bakery, or not? maybe jack can be our picasso, and it can be his little painting space. god, this is too adorable. but yes! the baking slumber party is a great idea— i’m sure winnie would adore it. plus there’s a new vegan cookie recipe i’ve been dying to try out. this sounds perfect. ” the icy blueness of evgenia’s irises grows warmer at the prospect of being in the company of her two favorite friends. despite the division of being on opposing teams, there were few people she cherished more. alejandra and evgenia hadn’t been friends for a long time; but in all corniness, it felt like they had. not including the leap in a friendship making out could bring, of course.
╚ ❀ — alejandra smiles warmly at evgenia, finding pieces of herself in the shape of the blonde. the unspoken words about their past incites alejandra’s curiosity. the brunette feels an UNEXPLAINABLE pull towards the other, a gut feeling that maybe evgenia & her share similar pasts, or perhaps pain. she wonders if they will ever reach a point where darker secrets escape, light shed on why the two are the way they are. alejandra hopes their relationship grows towards that deeper connection, even though she already feels an internal bond with evgenia. grabbing ahold of her curiosity to keep it at bay, alejandra nods encouragingly, “ i feel the S A M E way, i just hope it’s a place i want to be in -- a place i get a chance to pick. don’t get me wrong, though, while sin city may not have been my first choice, it & the people i’ve met have grown on me. las vegas will now always be mi hogar. ” alejandra shrugs as she swallows down another sip of her drink, “ the choice is yours. isn’t that a beautiful thing to possess ? ” her smile widens, cheeks bunching as she exclaims, “ jack would be so pleased ! to paint exclusively for your café or bakery -- a true honor. i’m glad you think so -- i think it’s something we can all use ! & that sounds amazing, i never say no to a good vegan anything. ” her laugh tinkles through the air, mocha hues twinkling with excitement. “ i can bring a bottle of my F A V O R I T E mascato too ! we could even play fun games like truth or dare & twister. but, perhaps not seven minutes in heaven because kissing winnie would feel a luttle like cheating on our first connection. ” alejandra says with a giggle as faint blush stains her cheeks.
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RAFAEL:
the rush he feels is merely a placebo at this point; the influence of the pulsating bass, alejandra’s warm breath GLIDING over his lips, their body heat intermingling in a crude dance that mocks anything innocent. the real high will flourish in about twenty minutes– sped up if alejandra decides she wants to put his black amex to the test at the expansive bar– starting slowly over his outermost nerve endings, sending s p a r k s through his fingertips that will dance up his arms and settle high at the base of his neck, quickening his pulse and sending every thought that plagues his mind into a dream-like realm. as surreptitious as his movements might have been, it wouldn’t take more than the slightest shift of her tongue for alejandra to notice what his own had left behind in its wake– just a little k i c k to get the night going, neither too potent nor overbearing. his own tablet dissolves rapidly under the heat of his tongue, accelerated by the slow, heady swipe rafael makes over his lower lip, reveling in the last bit of castillo left on his skin. it’s a RECKLESS decision made by a stupidly brave girl to entertain a night with the devil, but it’d be shameful if rafael just let her leave without showing her the greatest reaches of hell. “we can call it curiosity.” kiss-slick lips catch in the club’s flashing lights just at the right time to reveal their spread into a slow, tempting smirk sweeter than honey and twice as dark. “what do you like to drink?”
╚ ❀ — parts of her stomach are still tied tightly, knots that H E I G H T E N her awareness -- one last plea of sanity. it serves as a reminder that no matter how much of herself she hands over to the brunet, a piece of alejandra remains skeptical. the aftertaste of rafael lingers on her tongue, sweeter than she recalled. it’s still foreign to her, igniting a craving for M O R E to satiate her curiosity. her heart still races, a tongue poking out to lick at her swollen lips once again. alejandra nods, carmine lips quirking upwards as she prompts, “ & what did you learn from your observations ? anything noteworthy ? ” she debates, carefully thinking over his question rather than rashly deciding. no matter how much control she attempts to let go, her fists seem to tighten on her wit. alejandra refuses to let rationale go, breaking skin & shedding blood to A V O I D impulsive decisions that leave regret in their wake. with a shrug, alejandra replies, “ i guess we can do shots ? more fun than a cocktail, but just as potent in numerous doses. this doesn’t seem like a beer scenario either. ” reaching out for his hand, alejandra tugs the brunet towards the bar as her heels click against the floor, the sound buried beneath the heavy bass. “ & maybe if you’re lucky... ” alejandra trails off as she glances behind her shoulder at her taller companion, “ or just nice because G O O D behavior goes a long way, i’ll let you do a body shot. the point is to try new things right ? ” the brunette prompts as she leans against the bar top, mind feeling fuzzier than it had minutes ago.
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CAMERON:
CAMERON: yr really missing out ale CAMERON: it gets closer to summer everyday so it’s close enough
ALEJANDRA: i find that VERY hard to belieb ... ALEJANDRA: perhaps it’s global warming aided by the fossil footprint of factories that make mcribs :)
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CAMERON:
CAMERON: when will the mcrib return from war CAMERON: @ mcdonalds it’s close enough to summer just release it
ALEJANDRA: while i appreciate steps mcdonald’s has taken to become more eco friendly ALEJANDRA: a mcrib will NEVER end up in this stomach ... plus it’s february
No, I’m not. I want to be. I thought I could be. But it’s too much, too fast.
EVGENIA:
『 ✘ — evgenia emulates alejandra’s golden smile. her beam was always infectious, as was her general happy, effervescent aura. it was very difficult not to feel quite at ease in her company, and feeling at ease was not something that came to evgenia easily, so being around ale was a pleasant respite and an all-around wonderful time. evie was thankful she knew somebody like her, a person that you came away from feeling more sunny than you did before. “ a future in matchmaking, hm? i certainly never thought my life would go down that path. ” evie gives a twinkly chuckle, tucking a tuft of her short hair behind her ear. “ perhaps when they’re married in twenty years they’ll thank me and my incredible matchmaking talents. ” the blonde shrugs one shoulder, wearing a jesting smile as she sips at her tea. still admiring the pink flower, evgenia feels as though her face is probably blushing as pink as the rose— she inclines her head in slight embarrassment. “ you say it well! and don’t worry, me and winnie don’t do much else other than baking. there’s literally almost always a surplus of baked goods at our apartment. we should be like, opening a bakery or something. so it’s definitely no problem! ” baking was always something therapeutic for evie. she had many recipes stored up in her head given to her from her adoptive mother in moscow; everything from russian tea cakes to chechen chepalgash. but the more traditionally american pecan pie mainly starred in the two’s baking, which evgenia certainly had no issue with.
╚ ❀ — “ that’s the funny, terrific thing about life, ” alejandra begins, ready to share her insight with evgenia. “ you just N E V E R know where it will take you. the path you are starting on may not be the one you end up on. ” she reflects on her past, time spent under the mexican sun with painted toes hiding beneath the warm sand. her life had started off simple -- charmed due to her family, but charmless when it came to finances. her innocence was ripped from her as she shed light on acts committed in the S A F E T Y of the dark. her involvement with la familia was eye - opening, a path she never expected to find her intellectual self upon. yet, here she was, living an entirely different life in a new country with a new friend. life always seems to S H O CK alejandra, but she has learned to adapt quickly & to embrace the changes. “ i mean, it was merely a suggestion, an option. options are blessings. i could never imagine living a life where there weren’t any. ” alejandra says as she takes a sip of her london fog. alejandra’s laugh tinkles through the air, mocha hues afire with mirth. “ i mean, what better pastime is there besides baking ? let’s compromise. what if i came over & helped you guys bake ? we could turn it into a slumber party -- a girls night in like the march sisters. i haven’t had one in A G E S. ” she smiles brightly as she agrees with the blonde, “ or, you could open a bakery -- that is definitely another great option ! it would be so cute -- you could invest in a small space, & decorate it. i would be a regular of course, perhaps it could be my els quartre gats. i mean, picasso did spend his whole time there working on his art, & look where he is now -- he helped that café rise to fame. ”
RAFAEL:
a dark place where morality meet its fate, the nightclub aptly finds its name in the neon twist of glass, chemicals, and fluorescence, dubbing the elite graveyard as REVELATIONS. it’s not old, nor is it new, but the secretive yet obstreperous atmosphere of the unique mix of grifters and socialites rivals that of a prohibition-era speakeasy. it’s a place where one can escape to a realm far beyond the safety net of responsible decisions. the bathrooms weren’t for relieving oneself, nor did clasped, sweaty palms and hushed whispers sneak off into the clandestine vip sections to make c o n v e r s a t i o n. even with the strength of her striking beauty, sharp intelligence, and the unforgiving cut of her six inch heels, apprehension bleeds from her mind and lips. in their proximity, daring fingertips ghost over the dip of her spine, the tension that paralyzes her body and her desires practically tattooed onto unblemished skin with the way alejandra lets it control her. despite her reservations, the soft lips speak a different story against his skin, and perhaps if he were a better man, he’d give her a full-disclosure warning of what’s to come. but neither of them showed up tonight to play it safe, and they both knew that. the question sounds like the the last drop of drying ink of a soul-binding contract, prompting fingertips burn a trail from his pocket to his bottom lip, and this time when he leans in, his mouth betrays no ounce of innocence. ‘trust me.’ the slightest shift backward, and honey eyes meet irises blacker than the night to convey exactly what he means– not tomorrow, not even any time past that, just TONIGHT. it’s both the closest thing to a warning from him she’ll ever receive and a reassurance, because in the next moment, like icarus gravitating faster and faster toward his fate with reckless abandon, rafael ducks his head to slot their lips together. the dangeorus path his tongue takes is too pointed for it to be a genuine kiss, glancing over the sharp ridge of teeth to slip under her own, leaving a promise of the first rule in its wake.
╚ ❀ — the atmosphere is beginning to grow on alejandra. she reminds herself that she A S K E D for this -- a peak into a life unlike her own. she wanted this -- a break from being alejandra luciana castillo, the optimistic, usual good girl with goals bigger than herself. she forces herself to breathe slower, inhaling for three counts & then exhaling. the music reverberates through her body, adding to the vibrations her nerves already cause. TRUST ME. the words are loaded like a gun, both an asset & a death sentence. giving away her trust away always feels bigger than the moment she gave up her virginity. yet, in T H I S moment, alejandra chooses to hand it over for the night. in the back of her mind she knows tomorrow will yield consequence after consequence, but she pushes that aside. she puts her brain on autopilot, living in the moment rather than analyzing every decision. maintaining their proximity, alejandra murmurs softly, “ i do. ” & the words feel more like an act of submission, ones she may grow to regret. but now, the admission feels F R E E I N G. his lips against her own are unexpected, a soft gasp emitting from them. she returns the kiss that tastes rougher & dirtier than others she’s had. there’s no promise behind it as alejandra allows herself to be pliant, wrapping her arms around his broad shoulders. & she is the first to tear them apart, pulling back just slightly so their lips no longer touch. her breathing’s ragged, tongue poking out to lick at her reddened lips. “ was that rule number three ? or, were you trying to curb some curiosity about what T H A T would be like ? ‘cause sometimes i wonder if all our little arguments had an underlying sexual tension. ” alejandra jokes, a small smile tugging at her plush lips as she already feels more relaxed.
AURORA:
alejandra’s comforting touch enveloped her in a sense of stability. ‘ i’m OKAY, i’m just being a drama queen, ale’, ’ she hums, her sunken eyes fluttering shut as she wraps her arms around the brunette. ‘ i’m not even that worried about the scar, i just don’t wanna’ be reminded of how stupid i was ?? i honestly can’t believe i just straight out punched her just because she was tryna’ piss me off by flirting with zeke ?? ’ she recounts the night & despite being soaked with the scent of tequila that night, it haunts her that she would repeat her mistakes even without the presence of liquid courage in her system. ‘ yeah, what a GREAT game, ale’, ’ she replies with a faint beam as she rolls her eyes, ‘ but go for it, it’ll probably take that entire concealer bottle to cover this mess up. ’ despite the optimism infused with her works, she couldn’t suppress the formidable swirling in her stomach as she recounts the events of the night before. ‘ just do me a favour and don’t let me drink tequila around her anymore, it’ll probably do everyone a favour. ’
╚ ❀ — “ you have a right to be, though, ‘rora. ” alejandra murmurs soothling, running a hand gently through the blonde’s silky tresses. she nods in understanding, a sober expression on her porcelain features. “ i can’t deny your judgement was extremely misguided, but how could you expect your frontal lobe to N O T make decisions on the fly when you hindered it with liquor ? ” alejandra asks rhetorically. “ zeke is your romeo, your mr. darcy -- i get it. if i was intoxicated, and someone was flirting with josh, i’d consider doing the same, even though i know we’re not exclusive. ” alejandra giggles, pleased with the faint smile on aurora’s face. “ alright, you don’t need to tell me, it’s awful. i was just trying to cheer you up -- you’re my girl you know. ” snorting, the brunette shakes her head fondly. “ doubt it. here, i’ll prove it to you. ” she squeezes the product onto her fingertips, delicately applying it to the scar before picking up a beauty blender. “ if tequila’s something you L I K E, i can’t take that away from you. but, i suppose i can keep you away from it when we’re in certain environments. or, we just have to find you a new poison of choice. ”
EZEKIEL:
✘。— the scratched jacket embracing his features cozies a layer of WARMTH around his body, protecting the driver from the season’s BRUTALITIES. yet still, ezekiel can’t seem to escape the frigidness that comes with the brooding thoughts between the two. “ of course i’m sure, ” he says a bit offendedly, brows drawing inward, “ i’ve known rora my whole life. i’ve seen her through a bunch of shit. ” his foot drags on the gravel under them, kicking a pebble a few feet away in contemplation. “ but i see what you’re trying to say. you can’t go through life worrying about all of that though. it’s not practical. you do what you gotta’ do in the moment. that’s IT. ” a minute shrug can be seen wave throughout zeke’s shoulders as he brushes off the deep pondering, finding a certain comfort in the saltiness of the fries in his lap. “ no, i was there. everything’s a bit fuzzy, but i was there talking to them pretty much until it happened, i think. so, yeah . . ” colour-drained lips purse under fallen lashes, “ doesn’t really help. ” however, a promise of nicotine-filled lungs and an EASED aura tickles at ezekiel’s urges, a sense that never failed to help in times like these. or any time, really. his mouth pouts as the cigarette is snatched from his possession, gaze turning to the girl next to him. “ hey, if you’re so against it, i’m not making you do anything here, ” he retorts, slipping a black lighter from his pocket and dangling it from his fingers before alejandra asks for a light, “ alright then. ” zeke’s hand brings the induced flame up to the stick in the brunette’s mouth, swiftly igniting it.
╚ ❀ — alejandra remains silent, letting the lack of words fill in the conversation’s blanks. while internally she knew aurora would be just fine, her brain wanders down darkened pathways. “ guess i have no choice but to T R U S T you then, considering you two have more history. ” alejandra concedes, despite the worst case scenarios she keeps conjuring. shrugging, she turns her head to face ezekiel as she murmurs, “ perhaps it comes with the territory of being a writer. i can’t help but imagine the good & the bad -- i usually choose to latch onto the G O O D. i guess it becomes a bit more difficult to be suzy sunshine when the tragedy hits home. ” she turns to her food, picking at it with a newfound disinterest, listening to the other’s somber tone. “ ah. too blissed out to do anything yeah ? it’s why i don’t do drugs. i’m more of a pug person. ” she murmurs, trying to keep her judgement to a minimum. yet, seeing the desperation of a user is an image that never seems to F A D E. the brunette smirks with the cigarette between her lips, eyebrow arched to nonverbally answer his complaint. her mocha hues flit to the object, watching ezekiel ignite it. her cheeks hollow has she inhales the nicotine, letting the smoke burn her lungs before exhaling. she fits the cylinder between her fingers as the cigarette sits idle for a second. “ i forgot that smoking actually lets me feel my lungs deteriorate. ” despite her words, she takes another drag because she F E E L S something other than anxiety for the future.
EVGENIA:
『 ✘ — despite being sufficiently intoxicated the night their lips pressed up against one another’s, evie could’ve sworn something warm and fiery ignited in her chest the moment it happened. but in all likelihood it was just the tequila and the marijuana coalescing inside her, creating that feeling of pleasure— the feeling that she never wanted to tear her lips away. “ they certainly do; i can never be in a bad mood at work for very long. ” the blonde inclines her head as a delicate smile decorates her features. evgenia’s eyes briefly brush over alejandra’s rosebud lips before she directs her ardent gaze downwards, taking another dainty sip of the aromatic brew clasped between her hands. “ right? i was a little worried. thankfully he didn’t seem too put out about it, and the other little boy definitely appreciated it. ” she replies with a chuckle. as the other began to fish a beautiful pink rose from her bag and handed it in evgenia’s direction, her cerulean eyes widen in sudden surprise. for a moment or two, words don’t come to her. after realising she’s staring with a silly expression of elation, she shakes her head quickly and beams at alejandra. “ really—? that’s so nice! ah, it’s absolutely beautiful! ” evgenia holds the rose in place of her mug, inhaling its pleasant floral scent. “ barkal! that’s, i mean— thank you! ” evgenia giggles lightly, holding the flower beneath her nose. “ hm, i’ll think on how to… how do they say it? return the favour. what kind of cake is your favorite? or pie? winnie and i are good at pies. ”
╚ ❀ — her smile is B R I G H T, body entirely relaxed around the other except for the knots in her stomach. they are always present when alejandra finds herself in evgenia’s company, unsure why when she’s supposed to feel entirely at ease. the brunette struggles to pinpoint the nature of them, nerves seeming unlikely now that she has hung out with evgenia far more than she thought she would have. alejandra laughs as she nods in agreement, “ & i’m sure you N E V E R have a dull day on the job. ” her teeth sink delicately onto her bottom lip as she maintains eye contact with her companion. her fingers toy with the handle of her mug, listening carefully to the blonde’s melodious tone. “ i’m glad. looks as if you have a future in matchmaking. perhaps you could be the next big thing -- forget tindr and bumble. ” alejandra says jovially. for a moment, doubt manages to dig at her roots of confidence, eager to plant its seed. that all fades when evgenia smiles, emitting an aura brighter than the sun. she releases a sigh of relief, glancing down in the blonde’s overwhelming gratitude. “ i thought so too. ” her cheeks feel slightly warmer as she murmurs a soft, “ you’re welcome. ” she revels in the pieces of evgenia’s culture & native tongue that the blonde chooses to reveal. she repeats the word, tasting it on her tongue. “ OH ! ” alejandra exclaims in surprise, “ that is very sweet, but you don’t have to do that. it really wasn’t a big deal, i just say it & thought of you. i’m sure you & winnie have better things to do. ”