An update on life
This post is really for myself, since I’m sure nobody I know (or used to know here) uses tumblr anymore.
I’ve grown so much since I started using this site over twelve years ago. I guess that only makes sense; if I was the same as I was when I was 18 I’d be a pretty shitty person.
Looking through all of my old posts has made me really appreciate the growth, and all of the things I’ve been through - during that time and during the past few years that I haven’t really been here. I don’t plan on staying here but I felt like writing this still.
To make a long point short, I went through a lot during my teens and twenties. Most of it seems trivial now, and I didn’t even remember most of it before looking back at my Archive. I lost both of my parents last year, and that was the hardest thing I’ve ever been through, and hopefully will ever be through. It’s something I’ll never get over, and not getting to say goodbye to either of them is something I’ll regret and be angry about for the rest of my life despite not having any control over it.
But through all of that, I’m pushing forward. Life is what you make it, and spending >70% of my life being angry and insecure and helpless and hopeless was just not cutting it. I still have bad days, nothing is perfect. But I want to live the rest of my life improving myself, and trying to enjoy everything - especially the little things. I’ve already begun this journey, and I’m keeping myself motivated and I’m really happy about my progress so far.
Anyways, if you’re reading this and you remember me, I hope you’re doing well and thanks for the memories.
