Alexandria Swan

Just a girl who's surrounded by death... ||17|| ||The Little Dove||

[hilaryxlane-deactivated20150122]

alexandria-swan:

I’d say.. So what do you guys do here all day?

[alexandria-swan]

I walk around... Explore I guess. Its pretty boring, but I can show you around if you want.

[hilaryxlane-deactivated20150122]

What do you mean we’re stuck here? 

[alexandria-swan]

The mansion doesn't let anyone leave. Its creepy as hell.

[harvey-mitchell-blog]

alexandria-swan:

"Saw things.. Moving on their own."

[alexandria-swan]

"You did? What happened?" She asked curiously. "This place honestly feels so creepy. I wouldn't be surprised."

[tobyxbates]

"Sorry to bother you. Just checking up on everyone in the house, making sure everything's ship shape."

[alexandria-swan]

Alex looked up at the boy with a shrug. "As fine as anyone can be who is stuck inside a creepy mansion. You?"

[harvey-mitchell-blog]

"Losing my mind here.."

[alexandria-swan]

"We all are... Whats wrong?"

[dyoziness-blog]

The Arrival of the Wallflower

[dyoziness-blog]

alexandria-swan:

It was rather lovely to hear her repeat his sentence to him. He was very glad she felt the same. It was pretty strange though, they only just met. Only moments before, they had exchanged their names, only moments before, they had laid their eyes upon each other. And now he had heard her story, he had seen just a part of her heart and now all he wanted to do was hold her close and see her smile. 

As he sat on  the bed and his hand had curled into the fabric of her bed sheets, he looked at her. His eyes traveled from her cheeks to her neck to follow the perfect blush that tickled these places the darkest. It had his breath caught for a moment, it looked absolutely stunning on her. But, he already knew that from the first time she blushed around him. When she spoke about him being the reason she was nervous, he smiled. A good kind of nervous? Never did he make a girl feel that before, at least not that he noticed. 

Her eyes had met his and just the sight of those grass green orbs had him curl his fingers a bit tighter into the soft sheets as his heart picked up pace. Eyes always had effect on him, it were the windows of the soul after all. But then his eyes had flickered to the her smile and there went his heart, he really started to get rather fond of that smile. Her perfect lips shaped into something that exclaimed being happy with those dimples that made her more special. Aleks waited till she had been done talking, her question ringing in his ears like a beautiful melody. I want to lay next to you… Do you want to lay next to me.. With absolutely no hesitation he firstly gave her a smile and then lowered himself to the soft bedsheets, turning his head towards her. “Alexandria.. Come.. Come lay with.. me..”

[alexandria-swan]

Alexandria never imagined that her and a guy could share so much and get close in such a short amount of time. But she already told him about her past, that nobody else knows and they are already making each other blush nonstop. Her eyes couldn't leave his as they crinkled slightly as he smiled. It was so relaxing to just stare into them and they made her heart beat so fast. The blush, seemed to never disappear as he laid down and told her to lay with him. Letting out a deep breath she nodded her head with a smile, slowly sliding down and laying on her side so she was facing him. Her hands were curled together in front of her, unsure what to do. They were only half a foot apart and she could feel the body head emitting from his body as she watched him with her emerald eyes. “I… Uh, hi.” She said, biting her lip as the blush deepened if that was even possible.

If they moved even an inch closer their noses would be almost touching. She slowly breathed through her nose as a smile turned up her lips, her dimples fully showing as she looked into his eyes once again. Alex could hear the pitter patter of the rain against the large window across from them, and she could hear the thunder pounding through the sky, but with him she didn't seem to notice anymore. She felt so safe with this boy she just met… Safer than she ever felt with any of her actual friends or family members. The bed was quite large, but they chose to be close as they laid in the middle of the soft bed. Her long, blonde hair draped over her shoulder like a blanket, the light glinting off and seemingly brightening her green eyes that held his so contently.

[alexandria-swan]

Damn you're pretty

"Oh... Um- I don't... Thank you anon..."

[dyoziness-blog]

The Arrival of the Wallflower

[dyoziness-blog]

alexandria-swan:

Aleks couldn’t help but let a tiny smile creep up over lips when she talked. He couldn’t help it, her words made him weak to the knees. Every sentence that left that rose bud mouth spun inside his head till the other entered his eardrums. The safe part made him loosen his grip on her waist only because he couldn’t be able to think about his body for a moment, he did however return his somewhat tighter grip quickly as he didn’t want to let her go. Not now. Not until this night was over and the light of the sun tickled over her visage and he knew she was real. Real like the emotions she exclaimed just  a few moments ago. His teeth slid over his bottom lip momentarily, for only a split second running back to his shy self again but quickly went out of it when he saw those dimples form lightly with her lips curling into a smile. She was still close so she could probably feel his heartbeat quickening by the sight, she looked breath taking when the smiled. “It’s.. strange.. but you making me rather fond of you rather quick.” He whispered honestly.

He had her hands and she told him she didn’t want him to go, he let his smile grow wider but not into a grin. More into a soft smile that brushed over his lips only because of her. With his thumbs he ran over the back of her hands before one escaped his grasp and she lead him to her room. 

The travel to her room was a blush worthy one, seeing as he was going to lay with her. He would be holding her waist just like he did just a few moments ago, but now he would be able to hold her closer and that made a rosy blush fall over his cheeks. It was nerve-racking when they arrived to the door and she turned the handle, revealing the beautiful room styled in old furniture like it froze time in the 19th century. His lips parted in amazement, almost forgetting to walk before she had pulled him inside. His head turned to her when she stuttered, it sounded cute leaving her lips instead of his owns stutters. They only sounded annoying to himself. “Your… Your room is lovely..” Aleks whispered, loud enough to hear. His cheeks turned a deep red when she led him to the bed and he sat next to her. The red didn’t happen because sexual thoughts entered his mind, oh god no. Alexandria was.. attractive.. extremely attractive to say the least but he respected her too much to have any sexual tinted thought enter his mind. No, he wanted to hold her. That’s why the red fell over his cheeks. The need to hold her, touch her neck, hold her waist , brush her tears away, talk to her till it was eight am in the morning. The need was there. The warmth of her slender hand disappeared from his hand again and he almost frowned, he liked her hand. But then again, he liked her everything. His head turned to her and watched her nervous expression, only placing his hand behind her on the bed to be able to get somewhat closer. “You know.. I like your smile.. It suits you more than this.. nervous complexion.. I won’t do anything you d-don’t want me to do.. I’m a guest in your room.. You d-decide what happens here..”

[alexandria-swan]

Alexandria couldn't help but let her eyes brush over his features. They were so soft and smooth that they just seemed to flow into each other like butter. Her eyes then went up to his gorgeous eyes, they were such a beautiful blue… She wanted to stare into them forever. His heart started to pick up pace as hers did too, seemingly to beat together as one. As he spoke, a small breath left her lips.  Aleks words were so kind and true that it simply left her breathless. “I'm… I'm growing rather fond of you too.” She replied to him, biting her lips as they ended up in her room. Once they sat down, he was so close to her. Their body heat mixed together in the chill of the mansion that never seemed to go away. Her heartbeat only seemed to increase with each word he spoke to her as the blush deepened at such a fast pace it was almost concerning.

When he spoke again, she looked down, feeling him get closer as he leaned over to her.  The blush traveled down her neck and her fingers fiddled together. With a little smile she looked up at him through her long eyelashes. “Y-You make me nervous… I-Its a good kind of nervous though.” She spoke up, biting her lip a bit as she looked into his deep blue’s. He is one of the only people that has ever made her feel like this. Of course there was the typical cute guy that made her blush if he looked at her, but she never felt her heart flutter like this… It was nice, and made her happy. Alex smiled, finally letting her dimples show deeply at his kind words. “I know… I know you would never do anything like that.” She said softly, her eyes widening slightly. What did she want? To hear his warm voice right against her ear. To feel his warm breath on her neck. To feel his body pressed against hers. “I…” Alexandria bit her lip again, thinking on how to word it without sounding weird or crazy. “I want to lay next to you… I want to lay with you.” She spoke, feeling the blush heat up her cheeks. “Do… Do you want to lay with me, Aleksandr?” Her voice was soft and innocent, only wanting to stare into his eyes as they both grew tired and fell asleep.

[masterpieceofyourownlife]

[dyoziness-blog]

The Arrival of the Wallflower

[dyoziness-blog]

alexandria-swan:

As he kept brushing the tears that slid over her cheeks away, he looked deeply into those shining emeralds that left his breath stop every few seconds. Even though they were filled with sorrow, they looked beautiful. Like every detail of her visage. Like every detail of.. her really. When she spoke the gentle touch on her waist changed the his fingers curling into the fabric of her shirt, still his touch never faded from gentle and lovely. It touched him when she said he was the only one she ever told her story too, especially since it is so heart breaking to hear. He haltered his fingers on her cheek, to only cup her cheek fully and let his thumb run over the incredibly soft skin that laid beneath his fingertips. “Honour like this… I.. I never experienced before.. Your.. Your story will be nothing but safe with me.. And.. And I’ll try to understand every single bit of it.. Which I could never but I want to try.. for you…” Aleks let his hand slide through her beautiful blonde hair before resting to her neck, right where her ear is connected to her jawline and neck. “For you.. I.. I will tell you my story and even if its so different from yours.. one thing they have in common..” He leaned to her ear just slightly having to lean down seeing as she was shorter than he was, only to whisper “We are both worthless without being worthless.. You think your father will look upon you and think of you like a worthless child… My mother has said it to me in the most harsh tones… but how are we worthless.. You have meaning in my life already.. I.. I feel strange for saying it but.. I hope I have meaning in your life as well..” Aleks then leaned back and she pressed her face to his chest, the boy having nothing to do but letting his hand rest onto the back of her head, slowly running his fingers through her hair. 

At the hearing of her birthday, he sighed softly. July 21st.. that’s.. soon.. He heard ghosting in his head, but he will be prepared. He will make her smile even if that would be the last thing he would do. He wouldn’t want her to forget the past, but he wanted her to remember them with fond memories. He could see his plan already coming together in his head and that was special, seeing as he never really had a plan but.. with her.. he felt like he should be prepared not to break her. With a kiss planted on the top of his head, he answered the girl without words. He wanted for her to understand he heard the date, but he didn’t want to mention it. 

Perfect. She.. she called him perfect. And with the eyes that could give a man like him easily a heart attack, his breath hitched. He held her waist just a bit tighter but not that she would feel discomfort. With one slow breath his eyes flickered to her lips to find a small smile there, making him actually smile lightly as well. He returned rather quickly to the big green orbs that left him weak to the knees “You are..” Aleks whispered, finally getting a pink hue fall over his cheeks. She was magnificent, how her lips had curled into a smile even with this all happening to her. Yet her emotion, her sadness, her sorrow, the tears streaming down her cheeks made her beautiful too. It made her real. With his hand still in her hair he listened to her words, watched her turning shy and felt his own blush grow when she asked him to lay with her. It took him no moments to step away lightly and take both of her hands in his as he whispered “I’m… I’m not leaving you alone tonight..”

[alexandria-swan]

His thumbs caressing her cheeks were so calming, rough but gentle at the same time. His hands on her small waist sent shivers down her spine at the affectionate gesture, never before experiencing something so beautiful like this. “And i am glad it was you. I know that you only want the best, and that brings me so much happiness. You are so kind and gentle and i love that so much… I could never not feel safe around you, ever.” Her words were soft and gentle, holding such truth and value in them. A soft sigh broke through her lips as his fingers ran through her long, soft hair. As a child, this always helped her feel better or fall asleep. Sometimes her father came in at night and just laid with her, running his hands through her hair until she fell asleep. Alex felt special that he would tell her his story to her, even if she did tell him he didn't expect him to tell her but was happy that he was willing. “That means a lot Aleks, it really does… I've never had someone like this to talk to.” Her smile got a little bigger, her dimples only showing slightly. “You have so much meaning in my life and i feel like you always will. Ive never felt so drawn to a boy before… You are different. And i like it, very much.”

When she called him perfect she felt the way he slightly tensed up, and his breath hitched. Was she effecting him as much as he was effecting her? He was so perfect, beautiful in a way and it had her heartbeat race a mile a minute. A blush, once again deepened against her cheeks. It seemed as if it was going to stay permanently. When he stood back, she lightly frowned but it quickly disappeared once he took her small hands in his. “Good. I don't want you to.” Alex said softly, keeping hold of one of his hands as she slowly brought him over to the stairs and up as she made the way to her room. All of the rooms were so glorious, and hers had such a beautiful view. Slowly, she turned the doorknob and opened it, leading him into her room as she shut it once he got inside. The blush deepened once more as she stood there, one hand rubbing against the back of her neck nervously, and the other was holding onto his. “T-This is my room.” She stuttered, biting her lip as she looked up at him. Never has she done anything at all with a boy, they weren't going to do anything of course but it still brought a blush to her cheeks that they would be sharing the same bed. She hasn't even kissed anyone because of her crazy protective father. With a deep breath she led him over to the bed as she softly sat down on the edge, bringing him to sit down next to her as she took her hand away from his and held both in her lap, her fingers nervously fiddling together.

[youjustenduprunningintoyourself]

[dyoziness-blog]

The Arrival of the Wallflower

[dyoziness-blog]

alexandria-swan:

Aleks was still holding her against his chest when suddenly her story left her lips what made him curl his arm a bit more around her. She started with I used to have a twin sister. ‘I used to’ already sounded bad, it was all the reason he had curled his arm more around her in a way of protection and care. As she kept talking his eyes went wider. Her father died? Oh, he couldn’t imagine what he would do if his father died, even though he left him and his brothers life for good and there was no real way of telling if he was still okay but he liked to image he was. Alive and well with a new life.. a new family.. His head tilted when she mentioned he died on their birthday, an odd feeling of sadness falling over him. With a birthday you should be celebrating and happy, not get drunk to drink your sorrows away. He wanted to know when her birthday would be, so he could stay close by and maybe help her smile like she had been doing during this very night. They haven’t known each other for long but a thing he already knew he liked to see were the dimples that decorated her cheeks when she smiled brightly and the hue of red falling over it, matching beautifully with her sun kissed skin. With one motion he let his fingers move in between hers with the hand that had been tangled together with her slender one, he wanted for her to understand he was listening and was caring for her.

As he heard about the bullet wounds, he squeezed her hand in a gentle manner. With every number she let slip between her beautiful lips, he squeezed. One.. Two.. Three.. Four.. Eleven times..Her dad was shot.. Eleven times. He let out a shaky breath when he heard that as his thumb ran over the side of her index finger. Aleks wished for her still have her father, for her to hear his voice again or have him do a signature thing he did. With the mention of the eleven she had stood up, her hand falling out of his grasp and the warmth of her body leaving his side only to have her walk over to the window. His body turned to watch her, even though he did not see her face anymore, he noted for body language. From a shiver running down her spine to her hands nervously fiddling together, he paid attention to everything. With her slam to the window he stood up, letting the blanket that she had draped over his shoulders with all care fall on the chair. Even though he stood up, he did not move. Not until he would think she had enough of space and he could touch her again. Touch her hand, touch her waist, touch her shoulders, touch her.. The places that could signify affection and care but nothing more and nothing less. 

And he stepped closer now when she told about the image of her sister, not even looking like her sister anymore. Aleks moved closer to her with slow steps because he did not want to invade her personal space in one quick blow, he wanted to note on signs for him to back off but… she didn’t give them. She kept talking, saying that she sometimes hated her.. that she blamed herself for this. Her sisters death. It made the boy with the icy blue eyes frown ever so slightly. He understood the concept of blaming, God he had been doing ever since his mother snapped. He understood the concept of getting blamed… He… He understood the concept of being worthless. And being called worthless. That sentence escaping her lips made him finally take the final step to her and gently, extremely gently, laid his hand on her waist. He stepped out of his natural shy demeanor to break her sentence with a whisper. If she noticed it or not it didn’t matter. He could only whisper as tears rolled over his own cheeks for her “You aren’t worthless.. You would never be worthless.. That word is for people who have no meaning in life and from the second I met you I could feel you had meaning in my life..” No stutter coated his voice, not now. He was not shy. He was not a wallflower at this moment. He was a boy of nineteen who was trying to make a beautiful girl smile again. She spoke about having everything she loved die around her and all he could whisper was “It doesn’t… have to be that way..” When she turned around to meet his eyes again, he carefully hoisted his other hand up to gently wipe the tears from her cheeks. He was so gentle with her, not wanting to startle her with any action he did. But his hand was still on her waist and his thumb rubbed away the tears as his ice blue eyed looked into her sorrow filled green ones, whispering his sentence again. “It doesn’t have to be that way.. I.. I am so sorry you lost everything.. Your father.. Your sister.. Your mother in a way.. and.. and I feel honoured.. You shared this story with me.. A.. A boy you just met… But.. every person has something to love.. and one.. one thing in your life will not haunt you with sorrow but will give you nothing but happiness..  You… you will find that.. or maybe you already have.. The sorrow will never leave your eyes.. That is a fact.. You will always morn the loss of your father and your sister.. You will always be remembered by it because it both happened on your birthday.. But… Please tell me the date.. I would rather much want to be one of the persons who tries.. at least tries his hardest to have a smile decorate your lips again..” At this moment, how strange it might have been. He wished her sister and father alive. He wished it more than he wished his mother to return sane again. Aleks loved family. He couldn’t be able to live without them. It’s how he says I love you to his mother even though she  had beat him till he had bruises decorate all over his pale skin. It’s how he says I love you to the wind for his dad who just left and never bothered to go back again. It’s how he says I love you to his brother when he falls out on him again. Family meant the world to him. And with her not having anybody. He wanted her to have it back. 

"We will stay awake together.. I wan’t to be here for you.."

Aleksandr wanted for her to have a family…

[alexandria-swan]

After Alex finished telling Aleks about everything, she honestly felt so emotionally drained. Tears spilled over her eyes as he began to speak. Each word burrowing itself deep in the center of her heart. When his hand met her waist, she closed her eyes. If only he knew how much this was effecting her… Ever since her father and sister died, nothing has felt right. All she got was looks of pity and honestly, she hated it. His eyes though held such sincerity as he spoke the gentle words that affected her so deeply. “You are the first person i ever told this…” She shook her head, leaning into his touch as he brought his hand up to wipe away her tears that seemed to be never ending. When he asked her the date of her birthday she sighed, slowly moving closed so she leaned into him, her head resting against his chest as her hand balled up the soft material of his shirt. “My birthday… Its July 21st.” She said softly, not wanting to think about it. Her birthday was the worst day of the year and she hated it. Bad things always happened that day and she just wanted to crawl into a hole and wish the world away. His words didn't change the fact that she believed it was her fault, but it did calm her down from the recent episode.

Alexandria looked up at him with her large eyes as she slowly shook her head. “You… Are so perfect.” She whispered, the corner of her lips only turning up slightly but not enough to show her dimples. “I would really like that. I like spending time with you.” A small blush ran down her cheeks and covered her thin neck as her eyes fell to the ground between them. She noted the way their feet touched, and how they looked like they were meant to be together. “Maybe…. Maybe we should lay down. I-I don't want to wake anyone up. Everyone is probably sleeping.” She said slowly, not wanting to sound awkward or like she is trying to pull anything as her blush deepened when she looked up at him. “Would….. Would you like to lay down? W-With me…?” Oh shit, that sounded a little weird… She honestly thought it would be a good idea to lay down for a while. They were both probably really tired and drained.

[llicci]

#hotbody #transformers4

[jroc78]

[alexandria-swan]

Katerina kept her green grass colored eyes wide open and couldn’t believe the horrid words that were coming out of her mouth. She couldn’t think of why this terrible situation happened to this obviously sweet girl. The red head didn’t know that kind of sadness, only her parents arguing constantly on a day to day basis; which had no comparison to the hardships Alex had been through. Not really sure of what to say, she stayed silent and wrapped her slender arms around the girl’s petite frame.

[alexandria-swan]

Alex let out a long sigh, gladly wrapping her arms around the girls frame. Hugs were always a weakness, they always made her feel better no matter who she was getting it from. "Im sorry... I must sound so whiny right now." She mumbled.

[dyoziness-blog]

The Arrival of the Wallflower

[dyoziness-blog]

alexandria-swan:

He liked how she calmed down so quickly, he liked to believe it was his doing other than the storm silencing in the night sky. Only when the song ended he felt her head moving and he leaned away slightly to give her some room but they were still rather close. His blush only intensified when she called his voice beautiful but nothing got his cheeks redder than when her smile turned softer and the dimples fell back to her cheeks. “I-I.. t-thank you..W-whatever made you not like thunder s-so much.. I’m glad y-you calmed down..” With her fingers still playing with his shirt and then slightly brushing against his stomach made him lean away just slightly and have his hand who caressed her arm stop for just a split second before returning to the calm movement. 

When she noted he must be tired, he just gently shake his head. “O-only.. O-only a bit. I-I don’t think I would be able t-to fall asleep anyway..” 

[alexandria-swan]

The blush on his cheeks only seemed to make her’s turn a darker shade as she moved her her hand away from his shirt and started to play with her hair. At the question she sighed, leaning her head back on his shoulder. It was good to talk about the past, right? “I use to have a sister… Twin sister, Ella. Well, we were fraternal not identical, but so much alike…” The storm now turned to a soft whisper of rain as it hit the windows, forming a song to calm her nerves. “We went out to a party on our birthday… My f-father, he died exactly a year before on our birthday so we wanted to get drunk, you know…?” She choked back a few tears before starting up again. “I was so fucking stupid… I shouldn't have let her drive but she insisted. So i let her, and it wasn't like me to question Ella so i didn't.” Her eyes drifted over to the window with a sigh. “So we drove… Ella is a angry drunk… Memories pop into her head, and she just goes crazy. She started to talk about our father and how when we saw his body, it was covered in bullet holes and deep cuts… And that made her angry.” Alex sniffled some, but didn't cry… Yet. “Her foot pressed harder on the gas, each thunder and lightning strike only edging her on. By the way, it was storming when a few military guys walked up to our door to tell us about our dad.” Very slowly, one tear slid down her cheek as a sarcastic laugh broke through her lips. “I told her to stop. I told her to calm down and pull over so i could drive… But all she did was yell at me to shut up… And then she started listing everything that was wrong with our dads body when we saw him. She even started to count out the bullet wounds… One, Two, Three, Four.” Alex stopped, suddenly standing up as she walked over to the window. “He got shot 11 times… 11 seconds is all it took for her to hit 100 mph.” She slammed her hand on the glass, watching the raindrops slide down. “The light turned red. She sped up more. We got hit by a truck and the car flipped… All i saw was flying glass. I got really cut up, but my sister… She didn't even look like Ella anymore. The truck hit her side, and every bone was shattered on the left side of her body.” A shaky breath passed through her lips as the image of her broken sister popped up and the tears started to fall. “Sometimes i hate her… I hate her so much it makes me sick to my stomach… But i know it was my fault. I know that i could have stopped her if i tried hard enough and that my mom would still be the loving mother she use to be… But she blames me. My family blames me. Ella blamed me. I bet my father is looking down right now… Shaking his head at his worthless daughter.” Alex’s nails dug into the palms of her hands. “I'm surrounded by death, Aleks. And so will you if you hang around me. Everyone i love ends up dying.” Finally she turned around to meet his eyes with her sorrow filled, Emerald green ones. “Yeah, i don't think i will be able to sleep either.” She whispered, leaning her head back against the cold window.

[nicolapetlz]