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❝— you chug a fifth of alcohol by yourself & everyone around you is too busy cheering to wonder how empty you had to be in order to do it.❞ ♔ ALEXIS JAY BLACK ♔ ☑ CINEMATOGRAPH . ☑ SOPHOMORE. ☑ VIP of the Women's Basketball Team. MESS with me and I'll make sure you'll B E G for death.

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the most wonderful time of the year 🎄 brexis

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selfrestrainedamage:

Alexis is better with words than she is clearly, as Brooke flounders for her words and allows herself to be absorbed in how overwhelmed she feels. With Alexis’ hands, and lips and arms and words and brain and soul and body - she’s speechless in their usual game of cat and mouse. She’s allowing herself to FEEL. She’s feeling despite how feeling could hurt and has hurt in the past and she’s feeling even though she hasn’t in a long time. She wants to savour feeling.  A nod of understanding at Alexis’ first statement follows, watching the flicker of the lights illuminate the walls. Their faint glow transcending the walls into their room. A warm light against their warm bodies and warm hearts and warmth. Against how good they feel. She has a mind to keep them up all year long as a reminder of their WARMTH. Because she’s been cold for so long.  Alexis’ romanticism thrills and surprises and enlivens her. Different layers, versions of the girl she loves, and she’ll keep uncovering them with renewed vigour everyday. Her gaze is drawn away from observing the warm, flickering lights to her girlfriend’s face. Her breath hitches when Alexis’ breath pans over her face, over her lips. Stationary in her anticipation. “I’ll love you. I’ll climb up ten flights of stairs at 3AM to love you.” She melts into the kiss, and it shows. She hasn’t been this happy in a long time. “Thank you for letting me. And your project is beautiful.”

Walls crumble as layers continue being peeled one by one which solidifies her growing feelings towards Brooke. This was it. She was taking a step, terrified beyond any imaginable state she might be in, her doubts washes away with one glance of those amber orbs staring at her that carries so much love. It was then she understood and felt what it feels for someone to love you with one look. She will no longer let pain guide her and stop her from expressing how much Brooke means to her. She will no longer be afraid.

The memory seeps in at their first encounter causing her shoulders to shake as corner of her lips raises to a smile. It might have not been story book perfect, but it was a memory she could never forget. “I feel like this is a dream and someone is bound to slap me soon to wake me up.” Voicing out her thoughts words come out slowly, she holds Brooke tighter at the thought that this was a fragment of her imagination. Because it wouldn’t be the first time. Emerald hues seldom disappear into reality to picture out and make her own happiness in her mind and they always involve Brooke.

“You’re just saying its beautiful because it was mostly you in it. Narcissist.” Stifling a laugh proves harder than anticipated. Alexis was overjoyed that she slips her hands lower and lifts Brooke up in the air and turns her around with glee. Because she’s happy. Because she’s with Brooke. Because she’s in love. Because she’s infatuated and madly in love with the most amazing human being she has encountered; Brooke James. “This might not be the best time to tell you...I still think Christmas is annoying.” Her voice carries a tone of sympathy but she’s grinning, still. To the point where it hurts, but its the good kind of pain. “I fucking love you, Brooke James.” She screams out for anyone and everyone to hear because she’s no longer afraid.

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carrie-schnee:

“No,I never make any because I know that I would end up breaking it an hour into the new year. Hoping it would be better than last year but going to my older sisters wedding in April,I can’t wait for that”

“But if you ever think of one something you wish you could fulfill, what would it be?” She asked. “Congrats on your sister, by the way. If you don’t mind, any particular thing you wished didn’t happen last year ‘sides Trump being President?”

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justarunawaypoet:

Lionel looked up from his journal briefly finding it hard to keep in a laugh. “ Amazing.. I don’t know why I didn’t think of that. “ he teased, shaking his head. 

“It’s okay. Not everyone can be that smart. We’re pretty rare these days.” Alexis drags a chair and sat beside the blonde headed boy, leaning over to whatever he was writing. “What’s that?”

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ericaeller:

“No, I don’t think it’s wrong to be upset. Hell, I’m upset, too. But when am I not?” Erica laughed. Of course, it wasn’t exactly FUNNY, but in the last four decades, Erica had learned that if she didn’t poke fun at her current state and situation, she’d never survive. “Brooke? Yeah, I know Brooke. She introduced me to the world of Netflix one day in the library.” Erica laughed at the memory. “She’s cute, you guys are both lucky. PLEASE, she’s not dealing with you. She clearly adores you.”

She laughs along,held tilting back. “Yeah, I can tell. You have that upset face again. I know its s’ppose to be intimidating but I find it funny.” The other’s mood was relatetable because it was how she was before Brooke came to her life. Now, seeing someone who easily gets tick off is nothing less amusing, that and she thinks her smile is cute. She would never admit that out loud though. “She’s obsessed with Netflix, it’s unbelievable how one tiny person can watch that much movies.”Her head shakes at the memory of how many times she was forced to watch any movie with Brooke’s reasons being ‘its the best movie ever made’. “She is. Wouldn’t say that though. I’ll give her a few weeks before she leaves my ass,” she forces a laugh though her voice wavers slightly, “You must think I’m awful for already thinking she would leave me, don’t you?”

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jacquelinexalexander:

Jac grinned happily at the compliment.  “You’re probably right.  My New Year was pretty good!  Partied late, slept late.  What about you!”

“Of course, I am. I’m always right. T’was good. Y’know? Same old, same old. Got myself a girlfriend and a New Year’s kiss so that was cool, I guess.”

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phantasm-link:

“You’re probably a lot better at it than I am,” Link laughed, sitting down next to her.  “I’m into both, thanks for remembering,” He gave her a soft smile.  “Not… really.  There’s a girl I like, but.  I’m not really… sure what’s going on there.  I’m not entirely convinced she won’t just up and leave, even though she says she won’t.  Especially with everything that’s been happening, I just… don’t trust that she won’t.  Maybe that makes me a shitty person, but.  I’m a pessimist.  What about you?”

Using her shoulders, she pushes him slightly, making him stumble back as he sat down. “I’m better than everything.” Confident shoulders shrugs as she leans back. “I’m sorry, okay? I’v’e got prioritize.” Raising her hands defensively but her smile gave away that she was kidding. Upon the mention of a girl of his liking, this peeked the noisy brunette’s interest, sitting up straighter and forced Link’s body to turn around and face her. “That doesn’t make you a shitty person, shut up,” she slaps the back of his head as she shifts into another sitting position legs crossed. “I get it. You’re scared.I think that’s normal but are you going to let that ruin the chance of being happy? I know I won’t let you do that. What’s her name? Do I know her?”

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frannyxmichaels:

“Well, I do have eyes, after all.”  the wicked grin spread a little more over Franny’s face.  She liked the energy that was rolling off Alexis, it was a pity that she wouldn’t get to sap any of it.  “I am off the market, surprisingly.  I’m just around a lot of people that are in relationships or need advice.  I’m basically an expert at this point.”

“I can see that. They’re not pretty, but they work perfectly.” Lips smirking, her head motions to the said part, sending her a playful wink. “Off the market?” Playfully, she gasp, shaking her head as if she couldn’t believe it. “Expert, you say? So what exactly are your expertise behind giving advice to couples? Ever thought of Therapist as a career?”

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frannyxmichaels:

“Well, if they liked you to be your unofficial girlfriend, I’m sure as long as you keep it in your pants, you’ll manage.  It is a shame, though,” she winked playfully at the dark haired girl.  “Relationships aren’t that hard, you just shouldn’t overthink them.”

“Please. Do finish that sentence. I’d like to finish the rest of it.” Smiling smugly, she chucks both her hands in the pocket of her jeans. “I could never cheat but who knows, really. I’ve never lasted long enough to be in a relationship to find out.” She laughed nervously. “You sound like an expert. Are you in one? Who am I kidding? It’d be stupid to not keep you off the market.”

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the most wonderful time of the year 🎄 brexis

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selfrestrainedamage

Her self-worth is still being restored, pieced back together by the girl holding her to her body. Chest to chest, hand to hand, lips to lips. She’s spent years disregarding notions of how unloveable she thinks she is. And there are still lingering concerns in her subconscious, prodding at her anxiety to provoke it. But she TRUSTS Alexis. And it’s almost more significant than loving her - because she knows she can love. She loved a lot before Sarah. She still loves people. But trusting people always took longer. She used to love people before she trusted them in fact. And with Alexis - she feels everything. Her heart floods with love and affection when the other girl clarifies their status, hands on her cheeks, lips on her lips. When she’s pulled into another abrupt kiss, she hopes that her breathy gasp against her girlfriend’s lips and her hands wandering to pull her closer is a suitable answer. A suitable confirmation.  When the kiss ends, and she feels her lips part to chase Alexis’ lips once more because why would they ever want to be apart now - her ears ring with the sound of her voice. And her eyes open. Alexis LOVES. Alexis LOVES her. Her throat closes for a few seconds, and she forces air into it where it hitches. Alexis LOVES her. “I love you too. Love you too.” She traces the line of Alexis’ jaw with her thumb, and her kiss red. As she takes her in - the words circulate the air. Bearing their sincerity and honesty. She LOVES. She and Alexis LOVE. A chuckle is drawn from her throat, and it opens again. “I had to get you into the festive mood.” Alexis is just so BEAUTIFUL. Beautiful in her mannerisms, and her arms, and her kisses, and the way she holds her. Beautiful in how she loves. They’ve been falling all this time.

The act of kissing someone is amazing. But when you’re kissing the person that you love - the person that makes your heart STOP with one word, or makes it beat TEN TIMES faster just being in the same room with them, the person that makes your world stop spinning for a few second because of the complements being thrown at you, KISSING the person that feels like H O M E is something not even any word in the dictionary could ever define. It was how she felt whenever their lips touched. And explosion of some type of sensation that does not feel humanly possible but it is.

“I don’t think I’ll ever get used to that.” Hearing the person that she gave her heart to ( and knowing that person will do everything in that will power to protect it ) say that she loves you, and the thought of being wanted, not just by what she has or can give, but for you she is, is something Alexis might never get used to. But she’s willing to try. Because Brooke makes her WANT to take a leap faith. She’s willing to take a bullet from a loaded gun called being in love straight to her head if it means she gets to experience this with Brooke.

She watches as the lights dance along as if they could sense the happiness the room bares. She couldn’t remember the last time she felt an overpower feeling of joy during this time of the year. But, of course, that was made possible by the girl standing beside her. With her finger tucked under her girlfriend’s chin, motions the younger brunette’s head to the side, wanting to stare at those amber irises. “I promise,” lips ghosting whispers, pale fingers brushing the soft skin of her cheeks, “To love you with ever love I can give. Give you the love you deserve.” She ends it with a kiss, accompanied by a hum, she pulls away, “Thank you for making me happy.”

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vxlance:

As the blonde drew at a rapid pace, she looked up at the other so she’d be able to get the details just right. “I don’t normally give out rewards.” She stated. And when she did, it was usually for being her walking blood bag or foot soldier. “Normally I keep my drawings, but I think I can make an exception this once.”

Every time the blonde would look up. she would send a wink on her way just to fool around. Being an artist herself, she was well aware of how long it took and how an honor it is to be part of someone’s drawing, art or to simply put, be their muse. “But..” She trailed off, waiting for the blonde to fill in her contradiction. “I’m a great exception.” She flaunted, craning her neck to take a peek of her artwork. “Dinner sounds good too.” She suggested, “Do you want to at least know my name?”

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fiannacasey:

“Ok,ok,just calm down and breathe”She said in a soft tone. “Nobody knows what they are doing in a relationship,especially if it’s a first one. All you have to do is make sure both of you are happy,small romantic gestures show that you care,like a dinner or flowers. I know it can be pretty scary,my first one was a complete mess,that’s because I let him walk all over me,make sure that doesn’t happen”

The nerves was getting to her and she took a deep breath, just as instructed which ultimately calmed her down a bit. “It’s not...It’s not my first one.” She admitted softly. “But...But t-this..this feels different.” Clearing her throat, she exhales. “This feels...This feels a lot real.” She grew silent as she silent, nervously playing with her fingers as she listened to a much needed advice. “I do care about her...a lot.” She spoke after a beat, “But I’m not...not sure it’d be good enough, y’know?” She added, hating the feeling of vulnerability seeping it. “I’m not sure...I’m good enough for her.”

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carrie-schnee:

“No,don’t think it should be. Yeah it was a freaking crazy year last year for everybody.I’m sure it won’t be the same in about a month,I mean we’re only in the first week of the new year”

“You think?” She pondered. “Do you have any New Year’s resolution and all that?” She asked curiously, looking over to her right. “Are you looking forwards about something this year too?”

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carrie-schnee:

“You know what,I’m really happy about that,there will always be just one of me”

“Should I keep calling you Little Red hobbit or do you have a name that goes by that fun attitude of yours?”

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charlottebanks:

“I’m fine.” She said softly with a nod. “Sorry.” She repeated as she tucked some hair behind her ear and bit on her lower lip. “I should’ve been paying more attention”

“Y’sure?” She asked, growing concern. “It’s fine. No harm, no foul lil bird.” She flashed a toothy smile. “Y’shoud but you seem to have a lot on your mind. Penny for your thoughts, lil lady?”

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phantasm-link:

“Only sometimes,” he gave her a soft smile.  Link was actually a lot softer than he ever really let on.  “Fancy pick pocketer, eh?”  He snorted.  “Cooking is overrated  Besides, do you really want to learn how to take the time to make sushi?  I’d rather just order it and know they’re doing it right.”

“Fancy because one I wear provocative clothes and two because I have to flirt my way for food. Works like a charms.” She said with a toothy grin. “On second thought, ordering in sounds good to me.” Plopping on the couch she grabs the remote and turns the TV on, getting into a comfortable position. “So, what’s up with you? Any new girlfriend I didn’t know about?” She asked, tossing the device to the side, “Or, were you into dudes? I’m not sure.”

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phantasm-link:

Link: DAMMIT YOU’VE FOILED MY PLAN

Link: if she knows you well enough, me

Alexis; Surprise, I’m actually smart.

Alexis; I’ve got skills you never knew existed. You wont win over me.