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[aliasadmin]

Gone. But not forgotten~

Alrighty. So looks like a slightly tough decision has been made.

I've decided to scrap this blog. BUT NOT ENTIRELY! There's a catch.

Although this blog seems pretty useless, I've decided to create a new one for artistic as well as personal purposes. Of course I'm still a little stumped on what username/url to go by entirely... But that doesn't matter as of now. Somethings sorta' dawned on me.

Of course the career path of my selection might not entirely reflect on this, but I can't keep hoarding all my art to myself in fear of it getting stolen. I can't sit back and watch all these awesome artists build connections and put themselves out there while I'm just sitting safely on the sidelines. I have to get myself out there, build a name for myself artistically, and make some new friends + connections along the way. That's how artists gain recognition. Not by sitting around keeping piled up .psd files on their harddrive, but by showing their work to the world and putting themselves out there.

That being mentioned, I've always tried to keep a low profile for myself as to not attract any trouble nor negative attention whatsoever. But of course that's not always fun now is it? I've created this tumblog in order to keep in touch with my friends as well as give tumblr a chance and browse for my own pleasure. Collecting beautiful pieces to share with others that just happen to traverse my blog. Kind of like a scrapbook of some kind.

As of lately, I've been pretty bummed out letting my fear of having my art stolen get me to this point. The fact that I've been so worried on having my art stolen in any matter that it's stopped me from sharing my artistic abilities with others. Building friendships, learning to communicate, and the understanding of art itself even has provided me with the tools I've ever needed to grow in this world.

Of course there are blatant thieves out there who're ready to snag a hot juicy fresh piece of work, but there are cautionary measures that can be taken in order to prevent such a heinous act. I won't let that stop me any longer. Yes, I am scared, and I doubt that I'll keep another blog/piece of social media for no more than a month. But I AM confident enough to push through that feeling of doubt and continue to grow as an artist. To show people out there my work and what I have to offer in the art industries. To strive in becoming better in skill as well as talent.

There will be days that I may regret, making an art/personal blog. But with all these wonderful artists coursing through tumblr, showing off their talents, building connections, gaining the recognition they deserve, that's given me the courage to take a shot at it.

So as for this blog? I'll leave it up for the viewing pleasures of tumblr users. Who doesn't wanna find some random blog with inspirational pretty pictures??

To all the followers I've gained, (and lost), thanks so much for joining me on this mini-journey.

Catch you guys on the flip-side. ;DD

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**A Message For My Friends: As soon as I get my new blog up and running, I'll contact you guys. I just gotta' come up with a suitable username/URL and get some priorities straightened out IRL.

[viivus]

inktober day 12!

[danarune]

already have some catching up to do on inktober so this isn’t too exciting lol oops. mostly been lookin through my giant folder of fashion ref for inspiration

pentel brush pen + photoshop color

[fashion-runways]

ZUHAIR MURAD Spring/Summer RTW 2015

[newblogisjacindaelena]

 Atle Rønningen

[hahafish]

and then i thought ‘Panty and Stocking with short hair’ and i said "YES" click for better quality 

[joy-ang]

I couldn’t get these doors out of my head, so I painted them. Accompanying music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9hwjQBQFIo .

[aliasadmin]

Okie dokie tumblr, looks like my interview for Job Corp has gone WAAAAY better than expected.

Of course that doesn't mean I won't still be keeping a realistic view of what Job Corp could turn out like once I arrive on center. I'll WILL be expecting some bad things/information to surface up about the facility eventually (not to sound so pessimistic about it).

Better to be paranoid about something good than nonchalant about something that could turn out horrible. Hopefully the medical portion of the commitment forms I had to sign and provide details with doesn't decrease my chances of getting in. ;n;

I'll call the admissions counselor and ask next friday as instructed. The wait to get in might be long (6 months at best), so in the mean time, I'll be jumbling up a good resume for that potential job my uncle was notifying me about back in August. (Turns out when he handed in my application, the woman he was speaking with stated that she'd like to see my resume before she can begin processing my information.)

So if things go according to plan, I'll be working and saving up some money until I get my pre-arrival acceptance call from the admissions counselor. To put it bluntly, make some well deserved profit in my spare time while playing the waiting game instead of sitting back staring at a screen hopelessly. lol

With all that mentioned, I'll be going on a semi-slight hiatus trying to get my stuff together. xDD Of course there will be some light updates here and there. Don't think I've forgotten about tumblr completely (or any of my wonderful friends ;w;).

NOW, TIME TO MAKE THAT RESUME!!!

See ya soon.

[mischievousdog]

"My heart has joined the Thousand, for my brother stopped running today."

Hazel and Fiver from the Watership Down.

[aliasadmin]

Welp, another interview yet again.

Pffft, this isn't going to go well. Anyways, wish me luck. UnU

[verticalart]

This is a little comic about something that happened years and years ago

[verticalart]

putting the name of the thing on the thing is like the height of comedy 

[aliasadmin]

Okay...

Well, today didn't exactly go as expected. But at least there's a good side to it. I've learned something about my situation throughout all this.

I'm not cut out for regular retail work (or 9 to 5's as they call it). Overall, I'm not cut out for a regular part-time job because it seems like I don't meet any requirements for simple positions.

Now of course many of you have every right to judge and state that I'm just a lazy spoiled good-for-nothing-brat who needs to get up off her tush and work for a living. It's completely understandable why you'd all feel that way, and it's okay. But believe me when I say I've worked so hard looking for a job and applied to just about every joint in this town, with very little luck of even scoring just one interview.

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Getting a job around here is nearly impossible since I live in such a small town and just about everyone and their mother is scrambling for that position at that fast food restaurant or grocery store. Gaining employment will provide so much happiness since it carries stability and security, and NO one should ever have to tread through life without those.

I really do want to work and get out there making good money supporting myself. Independence is something I crave more than anything in the world and right now, it's not going to be coming my way for a loooong time it seems. When I try so hard to explain my situation to others, their answers either revolved around college, a simple "get a job", or jokingly stripping. :/

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Being jobless has caused me to consider whether or not I should be living and breathing since I can't seem to make any good use out of my life anymore. I've even gone as far as to question if my life is even worth living since it serves no purpose. Someone with a terminal illness could make better use out of my life before they die than I ever could in a lifetime.

College isn't even considerable since I can't provide myself with the necessary transportation nor funds to start my education. Getting a job around here is more than likely not geared towards people of my "background" since most of the major cities around my area usually don't carry people like me that often. And most of all, I usually don't even meet the minimal requirements for just about anything in life that's provided. Welfare, school criteria, job requirements, the list is neverending.

It's like being stuck in the middle and you can't wiggle yourself free. While also trying to build myself up to meet those measurements is a struggle I can't seem to overcome due to things that are far beyond my control. It's an endless circle of disappointment and obstacle. It's not that I don't want to get over that brick wall, I just don't have the tools to do so. And finding those tools isn't even half the battle. UnU

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Some say this is just pessimism at it's worst. But what would you do when you have no money, job, car, or college diploma while good ol' google and craigslist was your only hope? And worst of all, nothing is all you have to your name..

Maybe I would thrive better if I were self employed or started my own business. The world is too much of a big scary place, but although I REFUSE to quit, it's gonna be a long challenging road ahead. With little experience, not much of a high school diploma at that, and college being out of the question, maybe it's best I do quit and just let life carry me as I am. For good or bad.

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Overall, I'm done getting my hopes up about anything. Job Corp hasn't even called back since the orientation in August. Yes, they do have a waiting period, but the admissions counselor stated to expect a call on 19/Sept. and she never contacted me after that. Of course I called her many times, only to be met with the lifeless tone of her voicemail.

Everything's just so disappointing that I sometimes wonder if there's a such thing as life donating? Kinda' like organ donations accept you give your life to someone who needs it more than you do. I would be more than happy to give my life to someone who deserves it since, well, there's not much to live for...

Sorry if any of this all came off as suicidal in any way. I've just been thinking whether or not life is really worth the struggle anymore. Maybe this is my peaking point and I can't go any farther than where I am now...

[aliasadmin]

Job Interview In the Morning

Surprisingly enough, I'm actually not ridden with stress crippling anxiety?

Huh. This may just be a good night after all

Welp, let's see how this goes. Wish me luck! OAO

[crandoii]

There’s this really cool chick, ok? She’s standing around being all chill, like cool chicks are known to do sometimes. Busy being totally sweet. In the water.

[crandoii]

I queued this because so you can view it at an appropriate time because??? right now it’s like 3 am in france??????

This chick beLONGS TO ZDOU!! Bluugsuab her art is really free I hghgafff also her sketches are really great too hahhh„„

[llightbeast-deactivated20181209]

[galoupop]

August in Paris.