putting up distance between me & the both of them.
can’t keep doing this all the fucking time.
i sit here & watch them both disregard all my feelings & boundaries all the time & then they both call me crazy when i say i don’t feel any love from them at all. i keep repeating the same shit over and over and over and over again for it go ignored & unheard.
just gonna put up a wall. and look for something else outside them. not even a new partner. just smth or someone or anything that keeps me emotionally distant from the two of them. i hate being with them as much i love being with them, but only just barely. the hate is starting to grow and i truly never feel love from either of them i just fucking don’t.
gonna be silent around them.
actually fuck that. i’m not even gonna be around. ik just watch shit on my own tv in the room, smoke my shit to myself & go to bed as early as possible since i have to be up dumb early for work anyway. i won’t ask to spend time together and on the off chance either of them do ill be silent throughout the whole thing. i rly am just fucking done giving everything to get nothing back.














