The thing I hate the most about this rotation (aside from the million of other reasons) is that no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to satisfy any of my preceptors. They all think I'm an idiot and that I'm incompetent, but they don't see how I lose sleep, lose my appetite, and basically spend my waking hours outside of the hospital, which is an hour away, working and trying to learn. I barely have a social life, I don't even have time or energy to work out, I'm brain dead by the time I get home, and even though I live at home, I barely see my family. All they see is some dumb student who knows nothing and I know this because they tell me what I'm doing wrong every single day. Feeling inadequate and not good enough is one of the worst feelings in the world, and it hurts even more that they can't see the effort I put into this rotation.