!!!!! um... I don't know if you want to write about new ones or not... but I also can't think of any new ideas since I'm freakin out a bit but I'll do some more thinking so.... um... a short little drabble or maybe a snippet of their lives in spring leaves after they confessed, how life is fr them now....?
i had a really fun time with this one, thank you to my designated spring leaves fan for requesting :) I hope it's up to your standards!!
There is a quiet peace in marriage that youâre still coming to terms to.
It goes beyond learning each otherâs habits, or making time for each other, or even whispered words of love. It is more the realization that you are lovedâ the knowledge that you can take care of yourself, but now, you are creating a space where you can take care of each other. That you could be trying to open a particularly difficult pickle jar and Jimin could take it and say âLet me help you,â that in it, there exists a prayer for which no words are said: You could do it yourself, but why should I let you, when I am here, and you are loved?
That being loved in this way is a choice, one that you both continue to choose.
Jimin chooses this, still, as he runs in tune with your pace, when you both know he could leave you in the dust.
(That morning, a gentle arm tries its best to slip out from under your head without waking you. When you groggily come to, even in your haze you can see the guilt on Jiminâs face.Â
âSorry,â He says, pulling his arm out the rest of the way to run a hand through your hair.
âSâokay,â you croak, cupping the back of his head to pull him back down to bed. Heâs smiling as he complies, lets himself be pulled, be held, and when you wrap your arms around his neck, he wraps his arms around you, too.
Just as youâre trying to gather your thoughts into one coherent sentence, Jimin pipes up from where his nose is pressed into your shoulder, body twisted into an awkward angle as he leans into you, âGotta go.â
âWhere?â You say, then, âOh. Running? Donât go. Letâs cuddle instead.â
You feel his lips move before the words are even formed, feel the way they curve into a smile. âI canât. And we cuddled all night already.â
âSo what? Are you tired of me? Am I not appealing to you anymore?â
âSo dramatic.â He laughs quietly. âYou could always go running with me.â
You think for a second. Itâs not like you donât want to keep him company, moreso that if you were to try and get up, youâre pretty sure your legs would turn to jelly. You would barely walk, let alone run, given that itâsâyou squint at the clock(oh my god, is that a seven?)â well. Very early.
âIâll run with you.â
Jimin blinks. âWhat?â
âYeah. Cuddle for thirty minutes and Iâll run with you.â He gives you a dubious look. âIâm serious! Set an alarm. Thirty minutes.â)
As he stops you from snoozing the alarm for a third time and practically puts your shoes on for you, youâd already accepted the fact that heâs well built. Jimin stretches, and jogs, and lifts, and itâs not like you canât run, rather that youâd prefer to be doing, well, anything else.
Still, he works to match your pace, a gentle rhythm on the pavement as you make your way around the house, through the garden, past the greenhouse. Not through the forest like he usually does, since itâs dry around this time of the year, and the fungi would rather be left alone.
Well. A water break would be nice.
âWeâre almost at our bench,â Heâs saying, and youâre struggling to understand him past the need to lie down on the dirt and die. âWe could rest up a bit and continue, yeah?â
You practically collapse on the bench. Youâve sat here plenty of times, what with the way it sits neatly between the garden, the hydrangeas and the back of the house, but never have you felt so relieved to have leftover humidity and dried up dirt on your butt. You pat the bench in thanks. Good bench.
Your head lolls against his shoulder. âI donât like you.â
âYou offered to come! We made a fair transaction!â He laughs, his skin sun-kissed and sweaty and pretty. He leans his head over yours, âCâmon, itâs just a mile left, back the way we came.â
âItâll be quick! We can walk the rest of the way.â
Your voice is muffled from how your cheek is pressed to his shoulder, âDoesnât that defeat the purpose of going on a run?â
âIf you can be a smartass that means you donât have to sit anymore,â He feigns getting up long enough to draw a whine from you, and heâs laughing when he leans back. You move to glare up at him indignantly, and take the opportunity to stare. Heâs so bright. The sun rose twice this morning.
You bump your forehead back against his shoulder, and he seems to take that as an opportunity to kiss the crown of your head, hands working their way over your arms and down to your hips. âStill donât like you,â You grumble.
Another kiss. âWhat was it you said to me yesterday? Something like...'Youâre weird and thatâs why I like you?ââ Jimin presses a trail of them up to your jaw, letting them linger.
âA lapse of judgement.â You say, but youâre melting into him anyway, and when he laughs, it rumbles through his chest and down your throat all the way to the tips of his hands where they now touch your bare skin, the very edge of where hip meets belly.
âBrat,â He smiles against your neck, half-whispered. His hand trails down further until it reaches your fingers, playing with your wedding ring. Something fond flutters in your chest. âDo you ever think about our wedding?â
âAll the time,â You say, voice embarrassingly breathy, but youâre too scraped raw to come up with excuses for it. âStill dream about it sometimes, too.â
âYeah?â He says, soft, but thereâs a trepidation, there. Like heâs still trying to find the best way to words his thoughts. You love that about him, so you hold his hand back, letting both your rings tap together delightfully, giving him the space to think. After a while, he continues, âI still regret those first few months. How I treated you.â You open your mouth to reply, take a breath and everything, but he pinches the skin of your hand to stop you, âI know you say I shouldnât, but I do.â
Because thatâs the thing about Jimin: he gives too much of himself away, loves too openly, too eagerly. Never asks to be more comfortable, as long as the other person is. His heart stretches to make room until it bleeds, like a motherâs womb, and youâre worried about what will happen if it ever were to stretch too thin.
(Youâd told him, onceâ you donât have to please anyone, you knowâ and, please, put yourself first sometimes, Jimin smiled, a little sad, said: I donât know how, anymore.)
âI never blamed you for it.â Youâre so close you can feel each time he draws a breath. Itâs soothing. âThere was nothing to forgive.â
âYou say that, but. But.â He makes a soft noise. âI didnât make it any easier.â
I am very much in love. Itâs not new, nor a belated sort of realization. It was a belated realization at one point, surely, but not now. Now, itâs as worn through a fact as any other you know, something else to tuck away for safe-keeping.
You are in love, and so is he, and so even if the beginning was rough and unfair, everything that happened in your life that led up to it has been worth it.
You hold him a little tighter. âNot everything can be easy.â
For a moment you both sit there, listening to the gentle breeze, the distant sounds of the waking world. Thereâs a far-off chirp, like that of a baby bird learning to sing, and overhead, the early morning dew is giving way to a foggy sky. Spring is on its way again. Each one is getting easier than the last.
After what feels like a long time, Jimin raises his head. You stare. Not everything can be easy, but this is. Loving Jimin is the easiest thing in the world.
âDo you want to get married again?â
For a moment, you feel the worldâs axis start to tilt towards the sun.
He smiles, something slow and tentative. âWll you marry me?â
Inexplicably, you laugh. âAgain?â
âJimin.â You feel Jimin grow in happiness. You feel like youâre growing, too. âIf this is because you feel badââ
âNo. I want this.â He draws circles over your fingers, tightens his hold. âI want this very much.â
Never has the world felt so vibrant, and so, so lived in.
âI think.â You breathe. âI want that, too.â
(âCan we celebrate both anniversaries?â
âBrat.â Jimin laughs, all curled up around you. Has he always been this warm? âIâll make sure to schedule the wedding on the same date as before.â
Heâs still laughing as he kisses you, both hands cupping your neck, and thereâs no hesitance in how he loves you.
You think, for a moment, about how every question you had about loving Jimin has been answered: He smiles into his kisses. He rolls his head back when he laughs. Andâ
