30s woman in Saigon
I lived in Seoul for the last 7 years. And just simply like that, someone broke my heart, if we want to mention it in a more romantic way then "he made me hate that city". I remembered one scene from Begin again. In that scene, the guy asked the girl "why do you decide to leave the city?, Because only people with a broken heart leave New York". For me, I left Seoul with a broken heart.
Decided to move back home, to my little loving Saigon to have a start over. Being 30, being single and learning how to be single, how to enjoy the lonliness. Don't get me wrong, I can be indepent, I can be strong and deal with problems, but being single is something I still need to learn and practice. The need to have someone to keep you company to avoid being awkward in public, or just because men are warmer than women and I just need them for the heat.
During 7 months in Saigon, putting myself out there, in the sea full of fish, not good fish but many bad fishes. I never have my heart borken agan since it never heals. I have to admitt that I was, am being a bad girl playng with people feeling, but I got played too. Today is one of that days. Days that I realize that I really like someone and he just wants to play with me. Or i am being insecure and doubtful? I don't know. I lose my ability to give people the benefit of the doubt. SO many times, trying to give people the second chance, giving them excuses, I realize what I really give them is the chance to hurt me. I learnt my lesson and always foret how it actually feels when I find out I am just "one of them" but "the right one".
So if you are interested in this sensitive, dramatic, 30 years old girl, you can follow my journey. And hopefully one day, not so far away, I can find my true happiness.