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Shame resilience
I am working on my shame resilience. I went for my first run today after being out of the game for about 3 months. Dr. approved I can workout again. That's great, but what isn't great is the all the pressure I put on myself to perform to an"certain" level. I know I do this to myself, but holy crap was I aware of it today! So, logic
I'm doing it! Here she is! My first lady (mother) is growing. I'm namin' her Lucille. She's definitely a redhead, she's a unique beauty, she likes to dance, and when she's all grown up she is going to pack a punch and be full of pizazz! I am excited to see her mature. This is fun. But why am I still the daughter when I'm raising her? Any suggestions for good recipes????
Driving it in...to ease
I am back in the “real world.” Wear, rinse, wash, repeat. That is what I feel like when I am at work. When I am on my way home I notice that I am tense. I breathe, say affirmations, and I channel all my spiritual guides help me and lead me. It helps... a lot! I feel more centered, calm, and at peace. I know that I am changing and growing, but I also know it is still a struggle. There is only so much time when I get home from work, and so much that I want to do. My tendency is to still “want” to do the things I used to do when I would get home from work. But those things made me bored, unhappy, unsatisfied, unfulfilled. However, they were comfortable. So, essentially habit is trying to make decisions in my life.
It is crazy how hard a habit is to break. Think about this. Because I have repetitively done certain things so many times in the past, my body and mind actually crave behaviors that do not make me happy or fulfilled. My neural-pathways are like trenches! I actually have to force myself to do things that I know will make me feel good and fulfilled, because these actions still feel like chores to start doing. Once I begin, none of it feels like a chore. It feels nice, comforting, uplifting,... right. The key is to make these things become the trenches in my life.
I have to push on, drive forward, make myself act to grow into the peace and the ease. Interesting if you think about it!
I truly believe that everything that we do and everyone that we meet is put in our path for a purpose. There are no accidents; we’re all teachers - if we’re willing to pay attention to the lessons we learn, trust our positive instincts and not be afraid to take risks or wait for some miracle to come knocking at our door.
Marla Gibbs (via karmasama-com)
You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestation of your own blessings.
Beautiful
"Dreams" Now here you go again You say you want your freedom Well who am I to keep you down It's only right that you should Play the way you feel it But listen carefully to the sound Of your loneliness Like a heartbeat.. drives you mad In the stillness of remembering what you had And what you lost... And what you had... And what you lost Thunder only happens when it's raining Players only love you when they're playing Say... Women... they will come and they will go When the rain washes you clean... you'll know Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions I keep my visions to myself It's only me Who wants to wrap around your dreams and... Have you any dreams you'd like to sell? Dreams of loneliness... Like a heartbeat... drives you mad... In the stillness of remembering what you had... And what you lost... And what you had... And what you lost Thunder only happens when it's raining Players only love you when they're playing Say... Women... they will come and they will go When the rain washes you clean... you'll know
Fleetwood Mac
It’s important to keep your feelings and your self worth in different places, because when feelings get hurt it shouldn’t change how you view yourself.
Wow. I have never thought of it like this but that is so true!
MY GOAL IS TO CREATE A LIFE THAT I DON'T NEED A VACATION FROM
YES!! What does this look like for me?
Am I drunk? I can't tell.
Michal Meyer "master drinker"
Chewin' on the twist and turny branches put in her path! Love my Lil pup!
My poppin' bottles pup!
Where the pressure resides
I am feeling pressure. I am feeling pressure to be healthy, and “all better.” Before I would have thought the pressure was being put on me from outside sources. Outside sources being things such as work, or people in my life. Now, I realize it is me putting on the pressure. I need to let go of the heady expectations I am putting on myself.
Prior to this journey I would think that work would be upset, frustrated, irritated, and disappointed in me for not being able to be back at work the day after break. The day I thought I would be back. I also would have thought that I needed to prove to them that I am really still sick. I wouldn’t want them to think that I was milking my situation, or being a “baby.” I would have felt like society would expect me to be strong, push through, make it happen, and if I didn’t or could that would mean that I was weak. That is so much pressure! I now recognize that I have succumb to my own demise. I have all these expectations of what I should do and how I should be because I think that these are the things that other people want from me, but I actually do not know that to be true. I just have made that my truth.
I have realized, and am still catching myself to change the pattern, that I just need to be the best version of myself that I can be and that is enough. Therefore, if I am sick, I am sick and there does not need to be a qualifier or guilt to go along with that to make it ok. It simply is just ok. My heart may want something different but that is a longing in my heart. I need to acknowledge those feelings, and then realize my heart wants the best for me, but what is best for me is to take care of myself.
Therefore, this mornings pressure to get better (so I don’t miss work tomorrow) is coming from a desire to be a good team member at my job, a want to feel healthy, and a desire to please. Two of these reasons come from a place of compassion and are inherently good, but the desire to please needs to left to the side. Now, I need to realize: “I am a good team member, and going to work when I cannot perform will only cause problems. Additionally, maybe prolong the recovery of my throat if I am using it all day when I don’t yet have that capacity.” And, “I will be healthy, but I need to give my body the time it needs to heal in the proper way. Also, my body is like no one else’s. Therefore there are not any expectations or rules to govern a timeline. I am getting better, and it is sweet that I care for myself and want to see my body healthy and strong again. It will happen.”
It is interesting that I have been able to change my perspective so quickly. I wonder what other areas in my life I will find that the pressure I feel is something I have conceived as an external pressure, when in fact it comes from with in. What has your mind developed to be an internalized pressure that stems from the external?
Zen Easter - Jesus
Jesus’s journey from suffering on the cross to death to resurrection provides a good example for how to transform suffering into awakening. Crucifixion, death by torture, is an extreme example of suffering. Death is an extreme example of acceptance, of giving in to the inevitability of circumstances. Physical resurrection from the grave is an extreme example of awakening. Sometimes it is helpful to have extreme examples to point out a more moderate path.
In Zen we are fortunate to have to opportunity to resurrect ourselves constantly. We begin by noticing that we are suffering, that we are on the cross. We recognize our inherent divinity or basic goodness. We understand that we don’t want to be on the cross and we don’t deserve to be on the cross. As we learn to accept our circumstances, which include our experience of suffering, we can see into the nature of our suffering. We can see into the nature of suffering. At that point we give up our resistance and experience a peaceful, living death. As we continue to live our life with this realization, we experience resurrection.
Once we learn to transform our suffering and practice resurrection in every moment, we can help others learn to work with their suffering and their minds to experience their own transformation. When we remember our basic goodness, we naturally feel compassion for everybody as they bear their crosses. Happy Easter.
May all beings be peaceful. May all beings be happy. May all beings be safe. May all beings awaken to the light of their true nature. May all beings be free.
The Journey by Mary Oliver One day you finally knew what you had to do, and began, though the voices around you kept shouting their bad advice— though the whole house began to tremble and you felt the old tug at your ankles. “Mend my life!” each voice cried. But you didn’t stop. You knew what you had to do, though the wind pried with its stiff fingers at the very foundations, though their melancholy was terrible. It was already late enough, and a wild night, and the road full of fallen branches and stones. But little by little, as you left their voices behind, the stars began to burn through the sheets of clouds, and there was a new voice which you slowly recognized as your own, that kept you company as you strode deeper and deeper into the world, determined to do the only thing you could do— determined to save the only life you could save
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