It's All A Bit Fuzzy

Looking forward, looking back, I tend to feel like I have less of a clue than I should. That is, everything's a bit fuzzy. That and it's all kinds of punny clever since fuzzy can accurately describe both me and the guys I find attractive. :-P Established 1987, I'm a gay engineer living in Pittsburgh, and this will be a combination of things that entertain or interest me. There will probably be some nerdy things and maybe some techy things. I would also expect an array of things I find beautiful, whether art or pictures of handsome men

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Having ourselves a cute little getaway weekend to Toronto

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Had a lil drag softball fundraiser moment over the weekend, which is always fun - AJ helped sort out the outfit and gave makeup pointers/supply

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Painted lady enjoying our coneflowers this morning

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Our little beeblet has been having a lovely time with the recent good weather and accompanying garden work

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POV you're my laundry pile in some good lighting and I'm in a biochemically-enforced good mood from running 6 miles this afternoon

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Planted a little friend this weekend 🌳❤️

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Robot Bar - 1969 - by Borghesani of Italy

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Love this - whimsy, nerd vibes, and appealing design

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Please, please, show some nudes!!!

Full nudes aren't super likely, but there'll almost inevitably be some skin 🤷🏼

The interest is always appreciated, though!

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Reflections on Aspiration

Doing the gym thing today, it strikes me that I kinda always workout solo in a nearly-always empty gym. I don't lift with specific targets or push for heavy weight, I just do it because I feel better when I exercise and stretch a bit.

I don't actually have any external sense of progress or whether I'm challenging myself sufficiently. There's really no accountability other than my own satisfaction, which I think sometimes I don't give myself credit for motivating myself in wholesome ways.

I frequently beat myself up for being unmotivated or undisciplined, while close friends look at me like I'm crazy cuz I'm generally high performing. In my head, that just means I'm very good at pulling the wool over their eyes, too, and I'm still not totally convinced this isn't the case.

The reconciliation of honesty and humility in self perception is always kinda hard to me. I never want to be overly generous when I feel like my tendency is to take what slack I give myself, but I find I don't really know how to own my strengths and successes the way I operate today.

One of the things I've always found remarkably gratifying in my relationship with AJ, but probably haven't fully understood how to articulate, is that he doesn't really humor me or meet me in my productivity-obsessed self-flagellation.

He accepts that I might view myself that way, but doesn't really buy it and takes a quiet, consistent position of "you are enough" that is very grounding.

I still don't think I understand how to intentionally aspire without living in slightly ruthless self-critique, but it's nice to have his perspective. ❤️

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Gym day yesterday, so we splurged with a little thirst trap for the locker room fans

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Little outing yesterday to our local single-screen theater to watch the oscar nominated short films in documentary and live action categories. I missed this tradition 😁 with @big-sip

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Sunrise run along the bay in San Diego! This conference feels worth it for this alone 😁

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Off to San Diego tomorrow for the week for a conference - a rare travel thing for a job that's about as hyper local as it gets. Feeling like this'll be an exhausting week, but hey I get to dodge negative temperatures, see family, and ride the Surfliner a couple times 🤷🏼

Fully haven't started packing yet, though

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A charming perspective on something I probably too often view as a chore/challenge rather than something celebratory and beautiful

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It's v cold out and I still went for a run

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"seminal" is a crazy ass word. bro your artwork was so influential and impactful on the culture that it was Cum

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Tumblr in a nut

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