All Feel. All Together.

[allfeelalltogether]

Memory (Date - Unknown)

I can’t remember much But I’ll never forget Your face When your eyes lit up And your smile smirked As crookedly As my heart feels When I recalled More memories with you Than with anyone else

[allfeelalltogether]

(Date: Unknown)

A simple kiss Is never simply a kiss It’s a seal of approval Of love Of lies And if you cannot tell the difference You will never survive A simple kiss Is never simply a kiss It’s a parting message A greeting A sign It’s a cure for all the distance Forgiveness for lost time

[allfeelalltogether]

2012

He kissed my lips,

But I didn’t swoone,

We smoked outside,

And gazed at the moon;

But I was mistake

“Full’s what I see,”

But the moon wasn’t full,

And neither were we

Everyone called me

To see in the door

To just test the water

To use me for more

And I thought I could bare

The lips that kissed me

But he wasn’t the one

With the lips that missed me

You know you’ll remember

And I hope I forget

The loss of your smile

One I’ll always regret

[the-cosmic-pulse]

2/14/2012

I feel like the laws of physics are going to give out, my chair will fall through the floor and I’ll leave this behind me.

[allfeelalltogether]

2012

To make your way

To find a place

To keep your own

What do they even mean?

What are you even?

A bag of bones

Enlaced with veins

And blood and soul

[allfeelalltogether]

6/2/12

Each breath is counting down

On every organ, every bone

Not another moment now

Until you’re sinking like a stone

Yellow daisies part the day

Through the nerve stricken noise

[allfeelalltogether]

I feel so wronged in life

I feel so left behind

Cause nothing’s ever made it right

Nothing’s ever made it right

Not lust or fame

Money, false claims

Capitalist ventures

Wanderlust adventures

Holy matrimony

Eyes of acrimony

Nothing in this life is free

Even costs a lot to scream

Wanted to cut myself and drink

Wanted to drown my sinking ships

No searchlight’s on for me

Left in darkness

Left to fade off slowly

I won’t be remembered

None of us will

The ground will consume our peace of mind

And lies we erected to survive

Why do we exist?

Tears are drowning all my ships

Where were you when I died?

I see no life left in any eyes

I’d like to leave you with hope

But all the love is lost

I’d like to leave with dignity

But all I’ve got is a cry out at sea

[allfeelalltogether]

No one loves me

No one will fight for me

Seems I will always be alone

Seems I will never have a home

Everyone has someone

And I am left to stir

In the ruin of abandon

In the emptiness of death

[allfeelalltogether]

Am I️ simply a passing thought

Another name upon the screen

A body

A voice

Muted and blurred

A temporary fix

When the drugs are gone

And your glass runs dry

Am I️

Just a passing thrill

To feel?

To own?

To deny?

[allfeelalltogether]

Wish I were as free as a man,

Free to roam,

Ramble,

Run,

Never held,

No course,

Nothing a gender couldn’t grasp,

Never blamed,

Or framed,

As a nasty rebel.

[the-cosmic-pulse]

I am strewn with laden thoughts and tales of heart shattering time the life and death the lustful grab leaning into the fall My flesh is waiting to be ripped into torn apart eaten alive

[allfeelalltogether]

No matter how many times I touch myself to feel your hands in mine, your eyes locked and relinquishment of all your fear and pride, I am always reminded that my hands cannot fulfill the space where yours should be and more importantly the love in your eyes when you come to me.

[the-cosmic-pulse]

I want to emulate how backpacking makes me feel - only carry the essentials with a little bit of luxury. Only enough to safely weigh you down and make you stronger; But light enough to keep you going, Moving, Flowing. No unnecessary material possessions. Free to wander and explore. Hopeful and empty- Ready to be filled with the natural world and all of it’s holy beauty. But yeah throw in a lemon verbena candle

[allfeelalltogether]

83

A number of pages I may read in one sitting. A number telling me that my order is ready. A number, a symbol, a desired length. Once a weight; One lusted after. Like a tart behind a pane of glass. Or the barren leg of a slitted skirt. Darker than food or sex; Not indulgence But pure absence Both within and without. I thought that a void Would have left more room to grow, To fill. But now, I am filled. I am satiated.

[allfeelalltogether]

It is not simple-minded to appreciate simple things.

[the-cosmic-pulse]

You’re something I hold onto Cause it costs too much to lose The secret I keep hidden A dream almost come true

[allfeelalltogether]

Not having that solid foundation of support is terrifying but it is also one of the freest feelings to know that I can choose, create, and destroy various aspects of my life to create the entire future that I desire. No judgements or boundaries to keep me weighted to a single physical or mental place.