Allie's Profanities

The point of this website is not to organize my mind, or to make any grand statement. The point is to slow down my thoughts.

[alliesonoh]

THIS IS HORRIFYING!!!

[alliesonoh]

Watching Hannah Montana the series and Something just "clicked"

Recently started watching the Hannah Montana series and I am enjoying it TREMENDOULY.

You see, when this show was airing my family and I moved to a new house (the one where we all live in now, and unfortunately didn't have cable. I do remember how big it was back then since I keep seeing ads for it in the magazines I read.)

So, what clicked?

It's important to mention that this is astrologically related.

So in my natal chart I have an Aries 10H South Node and a Libra 4H North Node.

So to my astro girlies, see how that relates to Hannah Montana?

🤯

The premise of Hannah Montana is that she's living a double life.

10H SN, being naturally made for the stage, and WANTING to live a normal life and enoying her privacy, 4H NN.

If you listen to the song "You'll Always Find Your Way Back Home", read the lyrics, come back to me and tell me that I clocked it.

Listen, it's not even a big deal.

It just clicked to me and I found it nice to think about. It would've been nice to see this show when I was younger.

Having a natal 10H SN/4H NN can be no joke. They're angular, and additionally confusing to me personally because I have a stellium of planets in my 10H Aries along with the South Node.

For some context, I have personal experiences of always being put in leadership positions even when I explicitly say I do NAWT want to. This is both in school and work. Getting handed promotions into leaderhip jobs even if I didn't apply for them. That's fucking crazy. Being a kid and always being pushed to be on stage when I don't even want to.

NTM being masculine as HELL in vibes even if I pesonally don't feel like it inside.

Growing up was just me tending to the different ends of this humongous dragon. Having a 10H SN can be a gift, and it's such a responsibility for me, but I don't see how that can't be lived with joy.

So, back to Hannah Montana.

She's such a joy to watch, and it's healing even.

Watching her enjoy being under public eyes, fostering her talent and doing what she loves is so cool, and to see her do normal kid things with Lilly, Oken and her family.

She's living the dream.

[last-son-of-mars]

This hasn't left my mind for months

[alliesonoh]

Seeing this live healed me. Sasha Colby, the mother that you are!

[alliesonoh]

I Recently Developed A Fear of Sleeping

I'm not sure where this fear is rooted.

This past five years has been an unhealthy streak of bad sleeping habits, and I stay awake most of the time, and I'm asleep most of the time as well.

Now when I get tired and sleepy, I feel grateful that I'm about to delve into slumber, but fearful if I'll even wake up.

Most of my issues are rooted from bad habits all throughout.

Right now I'm supposed to working but I'm writing this, instead.

[userarmyhope]

JUNGKOOK "Seven" Campaign Short Film

[namchyoon]

so proud of him <3 

[alliesonoh]

June 4,2023 | Makati, Ph

Uwak 2.0

[alliesonoh]

Very right about Capricorn, a lot of crises for me.

It gets better :) Especially after the Saturn return

[alliesonoh]

never met a/an...who/who's/whose

Aries - not passionate

Taurus - doesn't like the finest things

Gemini - head is not buzzing with so many thoughts

Cancer - not inherently caring

Leo - doesn't advocate for themselves and the people they love very hard

Virgo - does not hustle for a goal

Libra - doesn't people-please

Scorpio - isn't obsessive and secretive

Sagittarius - not a dreamer with their head always seeking to learn or travel/preach

Capricorn - doesn't have a tricky relationship with their mom or hasn't suffered at least one major crisis before their 20's

Aquarius - doesn't think about the collective

Pisces - doesn't feel too much

[kimtaegis]

HAEGEUM DANCE PRACTICE

[alliesonoh]

Finally landed where my soul belongs

[alliesonoh]

Met someone on Tinder with the same sun and rising sign and it’s crazy how insanely alike we are.

[alliesonoh]

Missing this place. The surfing, the coffee, the party, the vibes, drinking beer and watching the sunset, and the people of course.

[alliesonoh]

Everything is blue 💙

[alliesonoh]

I feel kinda petty that I wanna seek revenge to the people who look down on my parents. They don’t have as much of the luck that everyone else has, but they gave birth to me. I’m putting them on top of the mountain and make sure they are untouchable by y’all’s foolishness.

[alliesonoh]

I wish I was like the other kids who went to nice schools, that got every opportunity, that had the best lessons. I wish my family could afford university when I was younger. I think I would flourish, even if it would be hard. When I went to Ateneo tour a visit in hs, not once did it cross my mind that I would be able to go to that amazing school. It was never in the book.

[alliesonoh]

Dating is signing up for grief, and I'm not sure if I'm up for it right now. But GOD, I do miss date nights. Dressing up, getting my nails done, sending selfies to my s/o, getting compliments, going somewhere nice. I miss that.