I think I’ve told this story at least a million times already but whenever it comes to talking about meeting you, it just feels right that I start from the beginning. 7 years ago I was watching Icarly on Nickelodeon, wondering who you were when you appeared on the screen during the adverts. I remember hearing the advertisement for Love Story and it was the first time I had ever heard that song and the first time that I had ever saw your face. I remember thinking “OH MY GOD, she’s so pretty, she looks like a princess!!!” and immediately reaching for the TV remote so that I could turn up the volume cause “I REALLY LOVE THIS SONG!”. I remember my mum shouting down the stairs for me to turn the tv down but I was just so happy I had heard it. Back then, I would force my friends to stand on the school playground every lunchtime and make them sing my favourite songs at the time to the rest of the school and so I was always looking for a NEW song to make them sing. LOL. This song was the perfect song. So I went online and I printed off 4 copies of the lyrics to Love Story and took them into school the next day….making them sing it every lunchtime for the next two weeks. I would go home every night and say to my parents “I sang Love Story in the playground today!!!!” and I think they just expected me to find another song to rave about in a couple days and that my love for you was just a phase. WELL IT’S BEEN 7 YEARS, OKAY MUM AND DAD, IT’S NOT A PHASE. At the time, I don’t think I had a ‘favourite singer’, or if I ever said I did, I’d give a different answer if someone asked me the next day. Then you came along. You were my first favourite singer (and will definitely be my last)…Is this all quite cringey? Trust me, it’s going to get WORSE. You weren’t just my first favourite singer and I mean like actual favourite singer, the one that I wouldn’t change daily if I heard a new song, like dude I was so obsessed, i stopped changing my answer after you, but you were also my first real concert. The first time I got to experience seeing AN ACTUAL REAL FAMOUS PERSON IN REAL LIFE. The first time I got to ACTUALLY HEAR MY FAVOURITE SINGER SINGING MY FAVOURITE SONGS LIVE. AND OH MY GOD I GET TO DO IT WITH MY BEST FRIEND BETH. God that was the best night of my life. I was captivated by you. Truly captivated. I was hyperventilating. HYPERVENTILATING. I couldn’t breathe. “Is this real? Is it actually happening? No, it can’t be happening. OH MY GOD ITS HAPPENING” mine and Beth’s words that night. (March 22nd 2011 at the LG Arena, Birmingham)…you know, if you’re wondering the date ;) I think at the time, I accepted that I would never be any closer to you than I was that night. That yes, as much as meeting you would make my whole entire life, I was getting to see you live and I had accepted that, that was enough. I didn’t know if I would get to see you again, I didn’t know if you’d even come here again, but OH MY GOD YOU DID. FOR 5 DATES AT THE O2. THAT SOLD OUT. BABE SLAYS. This night was a night that was pretty similar to the one 3 years prior. I was a hyperventilating mess once again. I was accompanied by Beth, another hyperventilating mess and I felt that feeling again. The feeling that you get when you feel like something so magical is happening that there’s no reason for you to be sad. Hearing Love Story for the SECOND TIME in my life, it brought back the excitement that I felt when I first heard it on my tv, before I had any idea that you’d impact my life this much. This time that I heard love story…yikes this time was pretty fucking different. Because I wasn’t dancing in my living room, I was crying into your mum’s arms at the O2 Arena because she saw us dancing like idiots and completely embarrassing ourselves and she thought we were good enough to meet you. Up until that point, I never used to believe in fate but the fact that I got told that my dream was going to come true whilst you were performing the first song I had ever heard from you…there had to be something magical going on, right? It was the kind of feeling that you must get when you win an award or when you find out that your album hit #1. I mean, I don’t know if they even compare honestly, but trust me, it was the best feeling in the world. Because in that moment, me and my best friend, the best friend who stood by me on the playground to sing your songs, who stood by me at the Speak Now Show and who got to stand by me during the Red one, me and that best friend got to cry into each other’s arms and whisper “it’s happening”…just like we did at the Speak Now Tour…but this time, it wasn’t because we were getting to see you live, it was because we were getting hug you. It’s been 2 years since those feelings ran through my body, 2 years since you let me collapse into your arms and cry onto your burgundy jumper. It’s been 2 years since you asked me where I lived and you did that cute little smile thinking you knew where that was, saying “ohhhh is that up north?” And we were all “nooo….south west….” And you had NO CLUE but I still loved you for trying and I loved you for thanking me for being by your side since the beginning. I remember the way your nose scrunched up when you laughed at how badly you drew the heart when you wrote “I <3 Megan!” on my tour book and how you had your hand on my shoulder the whole time. You made me feel wanted. The kind of wanted that made me feel like I could mess up a billion times but you’d still love me the same. I know that you hear this a lot and I know that there’s like a 150% chance you won’t see this but taylor, you have changed my life. that moment changed my life. I still go to bed most nights and smile into my pillow about that night I got to hang with you and I got to finally say that I believe in magic. I believe in magic cause I got you. And not many people get that lucky. So Taylor, my love, this is a post to mark the 2 year anniversary of all of those things, the 2 year anniversary of my biggest and longest dream coming true, the 2 year anniversary of getting to meet the one person that has entered my world, and helped me create a brand new one. One filled with laughter, magic, sparkles and everything beautiful. I love you. I’ll see you again soon, okay? I can’t promise when and neither can you and that’s okay. I might not ever get to hear you laugh at the way I talk or see your pretty little smile in person again, but Taylor, that night produced the kind of happiness that I will spend the rest of my life daydreaming about. I’ll love you, forever and ever. @taylorswift
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