is anyone who actually follows me on here still active ...
anyway i'm so normal about the deltarune chapter 4 soundtrack i don't know what they put into it but something about third sanctuary and wise words does something to me. i just feel sad and i also feel like i wish i had that kind of mentor figure who i could rely on. i don't really feel like i have a lot of people (if any?) i can realistically rely on nowadays. spoilers and personal venting below cut because damn i should probably use my blog as a blog.?
i feel like that's why (on account of me not usually being too interested in old men existing) gerson being there makes me so happy? idk. i know he's like dead and the whole point of his character being like, gotta let the past rest for a bit and he won't be there for you to rely on forever, you gotta start relying on yourself, but even then i wish someone like that existed in my life lol.
anyway idk why i'm writing here, i think it's probably because i know no one i really care about will read it ?? none of my irls follow this account, i think twitter friends are mostly active on twitter and not here. i kinda miss having a diary or blog to talk about my own shit but i also feel like it being on paper makes it difficult to organise. if it's on the internet it's on the internet and accessible forever you know.
i made this deltarune playlist to study with but it's just making me sad about my inability to really connect with my friends, it always feels like they're so far away from me and i feel like i'm 14 with no friends again. it's so lonely.
areudirty
annaxmalina
snowghoul
blakekathryn
gummygunk
