All Of The Thoughts You Don’t Say

Basically what the title says. Thought you’d like to say, thoughts you’re too scared to say, thoughts you’re too nervous to say, and everything in between. 21+

[its-where-the-wild-things-are]

[sovietnam]

[allofthethoughtsudontsay]

It’s hard getting older, especially being the oldest sibling and realizing that your siblings don’t really need you any more. Spending most of my childhood taking care of them has left me feeling a little empty now that’s their grown. Making their own lives and you’re left back. No goals in mind, no sense of worth. I don’t even know who I really am. It’s a strange feeling really. Sometimes I wanna shout at the top of my lungs but all I do is smile and say I’m happy. I am happy for them. But I can’t help feeling alone.

[butchbait28]

[allofthethoughtsudontsay]

I’ve been asked on why I’m not a fan of romance movies. I would simply shrug and say I’d much rather watch a horror movie. Little to they know I completely come undone in slightest flutter of love. I become a shattered piled of crystals wishing, hoping that this fantasy they call true love could reach me too one day.

[allofthethoughtsudontsay]

Them: “What’s wrong? You look like you’ve been crying?”

Me: Laughs sadly, “ Oh, I just yawed!” I say.

They believe me.

[allofthethoughtsudontsay]

It’s close to 2 AM, and I’m sitting here in the darkness of my living room with just the soft light of the tv glowing on my face. Tears stream down my cheeks as a shove another spoonful of ice cream, wondering if I would be anyones first. Wondering if anyone would love me as much as I would love them? Asking myself, do you even deserve it? It’s lonely. And I’m tired.

[spitblossoms]

[allofthethoughtsudontsay]

I lay in bed sometimes, wondering if someone out there thinks of me before they fall asleep. How nice would it be to be the last thing they think of before drifting off? Or just being thought of and them smiling? How nice would that be?

[des-vanecido]

"Hay algo mal en mi

pero no voy a tratar de curarlo".

[perfectfeelings]

“Sometimes I keep my feelings to myself because it’s hard to find someone who understands.”

—

[perfeqt]

“We may think that we fully control ourselves. However, a friend can easily reveal something about us that we have absolutely no idea about.”

— Carl Gustav Jung

[allofthethoughtsudontsay]

Me: just wanting to complain about the not so good day I had peacefully and with a lending ear

Them: “oh that’s because you manifest those negative outcomes in your life.”

Me:

[spitblossoms]

[notlikeyoudactuallymissme-deact]

[allofthethoughtsudontsay]

Being told your like the untouchable sun. It’s a bit suffocating. Especially if you don’t feel like it.

[goodboyaesthetic]