All the random thoughts in my mind

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Jacaranda - Gaël Faye

- un soleil ambré s'apprêtait à plonger tout entier dans l'océan pour réveiller tout entier l'autre partie du monde

- elle m'aura enseigné que l'on ne peut pas comprendre qui on est si l'on ne sait d'où on vient. Elle est la racine de mon arbre de vie. Elle existe pour toujours sous l'écorce de ma peau.

- chez nous on ne raconte pas l'histoire de la famille. Résultat, on ne sait rien, et les vies s'éteignent avec ceux qui les portent. On dit que les paroles et les écrits, restent, mais que faire quand il n'y ni paroles ni écrits.

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It takes strength to forgive, but i don't feel strong.

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Remember when you wished things you have now?

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Bye 2022, you made me realize that everything is possible. Damaged little lady like me shed many layers to finally find myself. I took times to enjoy myself, share moments with people i love. I also stop worrying to much about things i can't change. Life goes on and oh so well!

2023, off we go!

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Word!

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Or ... how can you get close to someone who is far away from her/him-self?

#yungpueblo #inward

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Literally.

@ronwritings

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3 things i learned in June:

1- let it go, all the things who make you feel confuse

2- DEEP BREATHES

3- Cherish the moment and present time before it becomes a memory

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3 things i learned in may:

1- your closest relationship from years can become more distant and it's okay

2- ask for what you want instead of overthinking, don't be afraid

3- tell ppl you love that you love them, you'll never know when it would be too late

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Bad news: nothing lasts forever

Good news: nothing lasts forever

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#euphoria #rue #labrinth#heylord #imtired

Hey Lord, You know I'm tired

Hey Lord, You know I'm tryin'

It's all I got, is this enough?

Hey Lord, I wanna stay

Hey Lord, You know I'm fighting

Hey Lord, You know I'll find it

I don't know when or how today

Hey Lord, I'm on my way

Hey Lord

Hey Lord

I'm tryin'

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I fell down, down, down

To this dark and lonely hole

There was no one there to care about me anymore

And I needed a way to climb and grab a hold of the edge

You were sitting there holding a rope

And we'll go up, up, up

But I'll fly a little higher

Go up in the clouds because the view's a little nicer

Up here my dear

It won't be long now, it won't be long now

And when we get back on land

Well I'll never get my chance

Be ready to live and it'll be ripped right out of my hands and

Maybe someday we'll take a little ride

We'll go up, up, up and everything will be just fine

We'll go up, up, up

But I'll fly a little higher

Go up in the clouds because the view's a little nicer

Up here my dear

It won't be long now, it won't be long now

If only

I had a little bit more time

If only

I had a little bit more time with you

We could go up, up, up

And take that little ride

We'll sit there holding hands

And everything will be just right

And maybe someday I'll see you again

We'll float up in the clouds and we'll never see the end

We'll go up, up, up

But I'll fly a little higher

Go up in the clouds because the view's a little nicer

Up here my dear

It won't be long now, it won't be long now.

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I wonder so many things currently. How a huge lost can impact me in so many ways. How i was over this relationship for 1 year 1/2 but i dived deep in memories again that it made me sad and nostalgic.

Sure there's the ego. You suddenly erased me from your life after a decade together, that made me thought that you didn't want to do anything with me anymore. You didn't mention me that tragedy even you knew i care so much.

But i walk through the memories lane: i didn't want to forget anything about him, his voice, the appartment, the smell of it when i entered inside, the decoration and all the details.

Then i looked to our memories : we looked happy, were we?

I know this isn't about me but: are you thinking about me sometimes? Wondering what i became? If i am happy? Did you had a second guess at announcing your lost ?

This isn't about me, i know. But i'm craving to write you a mail to tell you how sad i was to learn he was gone. How happy am i to have knew him.

Sure it's the ego.

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I learned that you left 4 months ago... It feels unreal. I thought of you the whole weekend, when i watched the sky, the sunrays shining on the green landscaped while i came home by train. I will never forget you, how you used to listen old french music on the radio on mornings, how you were sitting in the kitchen while looking at your little garden, how you loved to gathering with your friends playing pétanque, how you awkwardly teasing your son to show your affection, how you were gifted with your creativity, how kind you were to me the whole time even after the breakup, but most of all your great sense of humor. I deeply regret not stopping by anymore but i hope you had a great life and surrounded by your loved ones until the end.

Rest in peace J-M.

I'll often visit you in my memories. 🤍