Nessa

36. Of thoughts, perhaps, maybes, definitelys and always.

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Got this stuck in my head while watching PoJ.

Aside from the drama, the beauty of the Chinese language, saying so much with so little... Never ceases to amaze me.

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A friend texted this morning to share that his mother has passed.

There is literally a war happening many kilometres away but people are dying because men are greedy and evil.

There are people with no access to food, clean water and housing in an environment that is actively trying to kill them.

But still, it hurts. I feel the disappointment burn in the back of my throat. Waiting is so painful. And I don't understand what I am doing wrong. I can't help but to ask, what am I being punished for?

I know, I know, it isn't my fault. Probability is a bitch. I get it. But all these can be true and I can still be devastated. I'm trying. I'm trying so hard. Why?

Please.

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"Love unknown then walked beside them"

I turned 36 recently. Life is good. My God has been so good and kind to me. I am so grateful.

May I remember, in my season of waiting, that God walks with me always.

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The Lord has promised good to me, his word my hope secures;

He will my shield and portion be, as long as life endures.

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2025 Highlights

In no particular order except the first few.

P. Always and forever. I'm so lucky. <3

GOT MARRIED. Best day ever. Have you met my HUSBAND? :)

Rambi. I get why people drop this kind of money for this kind of convenience.

Getting HSD certified. Truly, the world looks different to me now.

Road tripping in Korea. It is such a beautiful country. The company was also excllent

Emceeing for FLYING Summit in Sept. I had so much fun and it opened many doors for me. It also gave me insight to the presence that I can have if I pay attention.

Caught The Script Live. They're really so good live. My ears have been blessed.

Work has been a highlight. I feel like I've grown so much this year! In a good way. The promotion helped too definitely but I think more than that, the year has been such a good year of honing my craft.

Taiwan with Mom. I'm thankful she's still able to travel and I can share these experiences with her. To more!

Growing my Ferragamo shoe collection by 50%. I'm just a girl and I love pretty shoes. :)

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Argh. Is this PMS?

Why is it extra frustrating recently?

What is it that I'm trying to do? What is my point? Why do I need to talk about it.

Aiya very lame.

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HI EVERYONE THIS IS MY HUSBAND!

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HELLO GENTLE REMINDER THAT CHATGPT IS YOUR BITCH AND WILL TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR.

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One of my favourite things about P is how very kind he is. To me, to the people around him, and to the world.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

In times of shame, when I have not done or been my best, when I wish to hide, he has always been forgiving and kind to me.

To have someone treat you with such gentleness, but at the same time, respond to you with such admiration, is a blessing. And I am very, very blessed.

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Sometimes I see photos that people post and I get confused because I've seen them in real life and they look nothing like the photo then I realise it's because the photo posted has like 17 filters on it.

Then I wonder how the other people in the photo posted that I don't know and have never met in real life, look like in real life.

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I just wanna say, run. Run, sister, run.

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I believe you are the answer to every tear I've cried.

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Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe, all the hell you gave me?

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CULTURE IS GOING TO KILL ME

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WARNING - all kinds of disturbing

There Is No Safe Word

How the best-selling fantasy author Neil Gaiman hid the darkest parts of himself for decades.

a new big article about NG came out, it is well written, has some new distubing levels, be careful about your triggers

(chrome didn't let me read it without paying but I opened in firefox and it was okay, edit: or link)

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Fuck. Fuuuuuuuuuuck.

Well, this sucks.

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I'm curious... Why was everyone's 2024 difficult?

Been seeing so many "2024 was difficult but necessary, I learnt so much about myself, I'm so thankful for loved ones" posts it's so weird??

Guys, are you all okay? Am I the only one that actually had a pretty good 2024??

May 2025 be the best one yet!

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2024 Highlights

Once again, in some order, but not really.

P. <3. Still my biggest yearly highlight. My days are much brighter and lighter for having him in it.

Korea with P. in Oct. Days of endless eating and doing pretty much nothing else. Life is good when you've got a warm hand in yours. :)

Status change. I'm excited but also quite nervous. There's so much to do in 2025!

Growing pains. I'm not sure if it really is a highlight because it is so much suffering (still). But growth is always a good thing. I think. May 2025 bring more gains from my growing pains.

Cooking. I've been able to cook more this year and it has given me so much joy feeding the people I love. I tried quite a few new things this year and it's been so much fun! To even more feeding of people I love in 2025!

Snowboarding classes! It is a joy to learn new things, especially if it is learning purely for fun. I can't say I'm great at it, but it has been so much fun getting better and having my body build muscle memory. 10/10 will recommend.

Seeing Onew live for the first time. Truly, my ears have been blessed. And Lee Jinki is doing the Lord's work purely just by existing. And singing with that beautiful voice of his.

Seeing Shinee live for the first time. I was majorly bummed when I found out Onew wasn't joining the other 3 for their March Singapore concert but 75% of Shinee is still frickin amazing and I relish in being able to throw adult money at such a big part of my youth. Thank you for growing up with me.

Avacado Sago at Yat Ka Yan. YKY is possibly my favourite asian dessert place and their avacado sago is life changing. 100/10 will recommend

Banh Mi at Miss Saigon. Seriously, BEST BANH MI EVER. Tbh, everything I've tried from Ms Saigon has been amazing but I think their banh mi deserves a major shout out. Very, very good.

May 2025 bring even better things our way! :)