Dear Lucas, remember when my sister fell off her scooter in front of your house, and I told her to stop acting like a baby because I thought you would hear her screaming?
Dear John, remember when you were my first boyfriend and our only interaction was you giving me a rose on our one month anniversary?
Dear Tim, remember when we’d talk on the phone for hours and you’d play the guitar? Remember when you kissed me on the cheek?
Dear Eric, remember when we made out for the first time and I broke up with you because it was so terrible?
Dear Ryan, remember when we met in the sea, and you told me, “You are my world, and the one for me”?
Dear Chad, remember when I was afraid to get on the bus every day because you wouldn’t leave me alone?
Dear Matt, remember when you stuck your finger down the back of my pants in P.E.? Remember when I froze?
Dear Jordan, remember when we snuck out in the middle of the night and you kept asking me for a blow job? Remember when you asked me to be your girlfriend and you dumped me when I still wouldn’t give you a blow job?
Dear Dustin, remember when we were kissing and you “peaked” at my boob when I didn’t want you to?
Dear Caleb, remember when we held hands in the gazebo? Remember when we cuddled by the fountain? Remember when you moved to Washington?
Dear Alex, remember when you asked me to be your girlfriend at the beginning of the homecoming dance? Remember when I said yes because I didn’t want to make the rest of the dance awkward?
Dear Greg, remember when you’d write me poems about sadness and orchids? Remember when we fell in love? Remember when we lost our virginity and got to wake up next to each other for the first time? Remember when you cheated on me a week later and I didn’t found out for 3 years? Remember when we were high school sweethearts?
Dear Skyler, remember when you stayed up all night talking to me in our friend’s shitty limo after the perception of my entire relationship shattered? Remember when you told me that you liked me and I told you not to go there because you were best friends with my ex? Remember when I told you I wasn’t ready to have sex and you still convinced me to?
Dear Patrick, remember when our sex would make me shake? Remember when we were planning a camping trip and I ran off to meet my ex boyfriend in the woods instead? Remember when you warned me that he’d hurt me again?
Dear Greg, remember when you told me you fucked Allison the same night you told me you held Jenny’s hand while I was in Europe? Remember when I sobbed in the middle of your backyard and started ripping out the grass? Remember when the cops came? Remember when Jenny was my best friend? Remember when I spit on the back of her head? Remember when she told me to cry to my mommy about it? Remember when Amber called you in the middle of the night telling you how much of an asshole you were? Remember when she pushed herself between us when we were dancing at a festival? Remember when I punched her? Remember when you compared me to her and I threw my drink in your face? Remember when I watched my grandfather die and 3 days later you told me to get over it? Remember when I had panic attacks every night? Remember when I started experiencing depersonalization and you made no effort to understand? Remember when you abandoned me?
Dear James, remember when we wrote each other every day? Remember when you thought I was your soul mate? Remember when I thought you were mine? Remember when I ran into my ex, blacked out, and woke up the next morning at his house?
Dear Greg, remember when I got back together with you against my intuition? Remember when I was distant? Remember when you’d drink every night? Remember when I went abroad and finally realized you were an emotionally abusive, pathological liar?
Dear James, remember when you asked me how my heart was? Remember when I wanted to run away with you forever? Remember when you wanted to make peace with yourself first?
Dear Sebastian, remember when I fell in love with you and helped you make a music video about your ex girlfriend? Remember when you fucked her? Remember when you said that dating me was better than being alone? Remember when I spent weeks daydreaming about jumping off the bridge when I realized my love would never be requited?
Dear James, remember when I told you that I loved you while you still had a girlfriend? Remember when you stopped talking to me?
Dear Mario, remember when I was dancing? Remember when I got alcohol poisoning in the midst of a severe depression? Remember when I left without a word in the midst of you going down on me when I realized what was happening? Remember when I felt violated? Remember when I didn’t know your name the next morning? Remember when I wished I never figured it out?
Dear Sebastian, remember when you held me when I broke down? Remember when I realized you fell in love with the girl you met in Key West and I sought reassurance from my ex? Remember when my behavior regressed into the state I was in when I was dating him? Remember when I spent a year thinking of you and I wasn’t even in your diary except to say you hope you can keep your dick up with your ex like you had with me the night before? Remember when I read the correspondence between you and the girl you always dream of? Remember when she hardly gave you the time of day? Remember when I stayed up all night on a crisis hotline? Remember when you thought that I ended things with you at a synchronistic moment? Remember when it was merely cause and effect?
Remember when I realized I deserve better than all of this?
Remember when I realized I need to be better than all of this?
