[alouife]

[alouife]

I deleted the FB app and my insta account so now I have much less visual crap and mind control in my life. I turn 29 next month and I really want to have a high standard for my life and what and who I let into it. I took myself for a kayak and channeled lots of the anger, the last couple of weeks have been totally wack and I'm tired. Just waiting for my period so I can shed the past month and move the fuck on. I accidentally booked myself in for an iron infusion on my dad's death anniversary, which means I'll be extra sensitive but maybe it's actually kind of cool because I'm really hoping it will make a positive change to my life. Going to see my best friend today hell yeah

[alouife]

Terrible stressful week means texting S to please bring home kfc

[alouife]

[altcomics]

[alouife]

The most stressful week, trying my best to exit my job as cleanly as possible and ensuring all the animals are okay. My boss, never got on her plane back from overseas, claims to be experiencing a medical emergency, refuses to acknowledge her duty to pay me and continues to ask me to return to the property to do work?? Shes using chat gpt to send me email after email of threats and accusations. I feel the toxicity of stress in my body, my hands hurt, my throat hurts my head hurts. I got legal aid yesterday and as long as I call animal welfare to ensure that there has been a professional handover I'm okay. But it feels fucking horrible to be stitched up like this. As a fellow neighbour said, she's a fuckhead

[alouife]

Soo. I confronted my boss about not paying my invoices and now she's blowing up my phone accusing me of breaking non-existent confidentiality agreements and conspiring against her etc like full paragraph manic shit hahaha. I saw this coming a mile off. I don't want to say goodbye to the two grand she owes me but it's not looking good. fucking psycho

[alouife]

My life

[nobrashfestivity]

Iwao Akiyama Nude with an Owl

[alouife]

I need to learn the art of napping if I'm going to work and still have the energy to paint and look after my relationships. I have an idea from a dream I had to build or find a large poster bed and throw a mozzy net over it and put it in the paddock and then I can just drag my pillow and sleeping bag out there and nap listening to all the birds instead of sitting on my phone after work. I feel like a 20 minute nap must be the answer I'm looking for

[alouife]

[buckskinboots]

[alouife]

[alouife]

[alouife]

Everything happens for a reason but nothing of reason ever occurs

[nemophilies-deactivated20190428]

“But just as paying attention to another person fosters intimacy and makes us feel less alone, perhaps scientific observation allows us to enter into a similar relationship across species. By listening, by returning to the grove time and again, by tuning our ears to the sounds of beings unlike ourselves, we begin to reenter what Thomas Berry, the Catholic eco-theologian, calls “the great conversation” between humans and other forms of life. This too can have a grounding effect, can help stave off a different, larger, and more gaping loneliness. If anything is sacred, it is this, I think. And by this I mean all of it: the salmonberries beginning to ripen in the bramble; the scratchy, scolding caw of the Steller’s jay that will nibble there; the long, straight trunks of the Pacific red cedars that rise into the sky’s blue cathedral. The web of life that too often capitalism seems dead set on dismantling.”

— Elizabeth Rush, Rising: Dispatches from the New American Shore

[thomasmartinnutt]

R. Murray Schafer. The Chaldean Inscription, 1978