Alters Anonymous

A place for anyone in a system to vent, confess, or call out to anyone willing to listen. Submissions will not be tagged unless it is an open call. Thank you for visiting!

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obligatory promo post. we’re a new system informational blog run by an osdd system and a did system. reblogs would be wonderful and feel free to send asks

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my mother: *breathes* the system, all at once: that wasnt very cash money of you

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I’m the protector of the system but I wish I would be taken more seriously. I act and dress flamboyantly and my interests are also considered silly and no one takes me seriously!! It makes me real peeved.

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Also I dunno if my message sent through but if it did and there was multiple (idk if there were or not) I’m sorry!! It’s because tumblr app messed up and kept saying that the connection was bad :(

it’s fine!

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I’m a protector and the host is going to go talk to someone about maybe having OSDD or DID. We don’t know which one yet. But I’m scared the psych will reject us. Last time the (former) host had a bad experience with a psych it took a full year for them to go back to therapy. I feel like if we miss this opportunity to get diagnosed we’ll never feel safe admitting to people the problems and alters in the system. I don’t want to hide any more.

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I don't have DID but my SO does. If this isn't okay to share here that's fine I just don't know where else to do it. He's been disaccosiating a lot &trying to leave to kill himself &he's started getting sorta violent. Choking me for a few seconds is usually what he does but last night he smacked me across the face. I love him so much (&all of his alters) &I don't want to upset him by telling him I'm scared but Idk what to do. I can't just let him hurt himself.. Honestly, I'd rather he hurt me :/

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im worried that someone at the hosts school is going to start faking DID. we know someone else with it (and they never talk about it unless asked, so thats a big indicator theyre not faking). but if he (aforementioned kid who could start faking) does start, im gonna call him the fuck out, and i have backup. watch your fucking back. its only a matter of time until faking what you "have" right now gets boring. -b

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Tfw half the system hates you because you're the former persecutor and you also struggle to control your in-headspace powers since you're an introject of a being that some asshole made the hosts first ex-bf believe he(the bf) was, which only lead to more trauma for the host. It also doesn't help when you're in love with the host and don't get me wrong, they're nice to me and care about me, but I'm horrified of what/who and what I'm capable of in-world. I'm scared I'll hurt them like /he/ did

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I'm experiencing "alter's fatigue". The instant I thought "I don't seem to have anything to do" I started to become extremely tired and confused. The longer I stay at the front, the more a small headache begins to grow. I only recently experienced it and i'm already extremely frustrated with it. It's becoming harder to think by the second. I want to stay at the front. I was given this opportunity and I'm upset it's already being taken away from me.

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i wish my partner was the host of their system. or their own separate person. i know its selfish. but im our host and im out so much but they rarely ever get to front in their system and the alters who do are emotionally abusive towards me. i know my partner loves me and is a genuine sweetheart but i dont like how i cant even ask about them or leave messages for when they do front without being guilted by the rest of their system and berated... and my system wants me to end it and escape this.

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I'm a protector with bipolar disorder, which sucks because I want to scout out who we should hang out with (make sure they are no toxic people in our shared life) and such, but I can't because I waste a lot of time too depressed to do anything. It also sucks because I love to be social but I can't keep up with my friends outside because I spend too much time inside. My disorder makes it hard to keep up and do my job in the system and it sucks. I hate how my energetic ass can't function so often

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Always see "alters don't die" but ours have. Fighting and consuming each other. Breaking each other apart. Death of personality if not of the parts of the sum. But more than that, one was killed by outside betrayal. He screamed and died. Took us over a year to manifest again but that one is gone. Trauma. Trauma can kill us. So why the taboo on death? Why the denial? Because it's dangerous? Might give others the wrong ideas? Or simply because humans are afraid of death? I'm honestly just curious

Sorry, but they don’t die. That’s a delusion. Go to therapy.

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i wish i could give all the littles and middles their own bodies fitting of their ages so they could play and interact with others their own age instead of feeling upset that our body is 27 years old and therefore cant just run into the park to play like any normal child can. i wish it even more because we dont have anyone in our life who we can trust to watch the kids and take them to play when theyre out so we cant let them out as much as they want to be.

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knowing i cannot die unless the body dies makes me scared, I'm not gonna lie

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its really fucking me up that im not the person who was born. ive selfishly tried to kill the body over it many times but. ive been here the longest, since we were maybe 4 or 5, how was i supposed to know i wasnt the original? but instead it turns out after years of thinking im... me.. i was just a created personality this whole time.

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The host has made friends with literally everyone but me (well, except this other one, but she has someone to recognize and talk to her all the time, if i remember right). i mean, i get how they're doubtful because i did a lot of destructive things in the past, but I deserve to be noticed and recognized too. i've waited for so long to be recognized, i'm lucky to be "given permission" to front right now. I want to be better. I want to prove that I'm worthy now.