Life update for the sake of transparency
So I suppose it needs to be said for me to come clean about my actual situation rn irl. So recently I've been trying to come to terms with the fact I've been trapped in a codependent parentification relationship with my aunt for 10 years (the sick relative I've mentioned in my last post) caring for her and her daughter had been sorta my daily job since she is a single mother (whom the rest of the family shuns) who had used me as her primary moral support since I was 16. Last month she underwent surgery and had basically piled up all the existential, financial, and physical stresses on me and I felt like it really broke me enough to finally realize the relationship is unhealthy and firm boundaries needed to be put in place after all these years.
Basically since throughout this year my aunt had been stressing over my cousin moving schools with my financial help, I've been occupied too with other side jobs...while also neglecting my other needs and other priorities too in the process (basically since my aunt was my only 'friend' growing up...prioritizing her needs so she won't 'leave' had sorta been my instinct...a really toxic instinct that I need to start breaking the habit of)
This is still a lot for me to process and I'm currently basically in recovery. I put this up to clear things up that my slow progress is primarily due to the mounting stress I had since a few months ago among doing other jobs. That I was suffering abuse I refused to address for so long.
This is good news however, since I finally addressed the real life toxic situation that hindered me from doing my jobs properly. So yeah, basically hopefully with me addressing this problem I can be more efficient in delivering my commissions soon (this is not a delay announcement but more so just clarifications)
I hope people can understand and that I'm currently in the process of recovery from a heavy mental burden I didn't know I've been carrying all these years that barely anyone knows about and I basically hid since I was too afraid to address. And perhaps being more transparent about this can clarify things up on what I was up to these past months. But basically I was mentally and physically exhausted, especially the month leading up to the surgery. And it's only today that I finally address the root cause and hopefully can finally start recovering
