Fingers’ wrath, the very HATRED for themselves would inflict such force upon the pressure of pressed nails into palms’ sweaty creases. Flesh layered with the callouses that have yet to heal from previous ventures, the tough skin built to press, grip & slash, all of which he fails so often. Admittance comes with lack of natural flow as words are FORCED, for one cannot bear the reality of memory’s realization, instead, a life lived through lies of HOPES, dreams, future, would would be shoved into nothingness in which it had developed. USELESS, UNNECESSARY, IT WAS ALL FOR NAUGHT. Such several years spent in questioning, the thread of hope in which he’d created now SLICED by the twin blades of Earth’s rage internalized. ( FOOLISH CHILD WHO WILL BLAME ALL BUT HIMSELF, HAVE YOU FINALLY REALIZED THAT YOU HAVE RUN OUT OF OPTIONS? It was you ! All this time, since the very beginning! You, you, you! YOU CAN RUN AWAY NO LONGER, YOU MUST ACCEPT YOUR GUILT & WEAR IT AS YOUR ARMOR. Yet even then, are you so weak that you may fail, yet again ? )
Sorrow is STRIPPED from his appearance as he mimics the display of apathy, EMPTINESS & any emotion is drained so entirely from his being. Sorrow, RAGE, they have attempted & yet failed as if such were only the emotions in which he’d assumed appropriate. ( Again & again, you will not fail to be deceived by even YOURSELF. How are you gain if your only accomplishments prove MISERABLE ? )
Fingers lose adrenaline in which they so previously pumped & he is defeated by the inner torture of harrowing thoughts. ( GO FORTH & ADMIT YOUR WRONGS, DISPOSE OF YOUR BLOOD-STAINED HANDS & LET IT BE KNOWN ! ) Boy is the murderer in which he’d always despised– bringing about use of such petty ideals, disposing of another’s humanity if only to bring about justice in his own name – he has never been one to admit defeat until all had burned within & left nothing but miserable ASHES in its dwindled light. So, what is it worth? Another name at the stake of salvation’s cross? The harshness of such answer should not hold him back, & so he would speak dead & merciless.
Armin expects anything. He has always known Eren to be unpredictable. Being the person that he is, Armin has stayed by his side throughout many situations which would challenge Armin’s loyalty. Considering the past so many years spent fighting alongside each other to protect humanity, it is quite scary indeed to think that one can become so nervous and anxious from a simple conversation. Armin has learned to stand on his own two feet, to face whatever danger may come, and to as well sacrifice whatever hesitance may arise, and plunge forward, despite such decisions going against morality. He stands true to his position, and knows now that he has potential, just as Armin knows that Eren has. To have witnessed Eren being able to turn into the enemy and back, Armin is sure that he’s prepared for even the worst. Death has become such a common thing now, though, to hear someone that has died from a titan is one thing, and to hear that your best friend has gone and done something completely immoral is another. Still, Armin listens, and it’s no doubt that he’ll step back, eyes widening in complete shock.
“You... what...?”
...Killed him?
It’d be more worrying if such information wasn’t going to shock Armin. Of course, Armin knows of what deeds have been done in the past. He’s come to accept the side of oneself that contradicts humanity. He knows fully well that everyone has that side, everyone has the capability to turn completely heartless, and devour whomever may step in their way. Armin has come to the decision that some day, he may have to do the same as well. It’s only a matter of time before Armin could be put in similar situations, where there is no time to think, only kill. He looks to Eren with a complicated expression. He tries to at least decipher such words spoken, replaying them in his head until he comes to somewhat accept the possibility.
For it would be foolish to doubt such a thing in this messed up world.
“But how...? Eren -----
...How did that happen?”