2002

she/her 19, reader

[limitlessgoddess]

a relationship goes two ways:

i exist.

my s/o worships the ground i walk on.

simple.

[pol-ar-ity]

It’s kind of dumb, but I want to talk to you all the time. Like, all the time. Which is annoying and needy and very unrealistic, because you have a life outside of our audio messages and sporadic phone calls. But I wanna talk to you. I want you to talk to me. I want your mouth to run a mile a minute and make me laugh until I’m crying. You’re always so good at that. You’re my best friend, my confidant, possibly my world. So we won’t make out in the back of taxis. As long as you hold my hand through crowds and send me another voice memo the next morning, I’ll be okay. Because I wanna talk to you. And I want you to talk to me. And you’re my best friend. And I love you. (In case that wasn’t obvious.)

“and maybe you’re my soulmate or something”

[alw-22]

daddy stuck around but he wasn’t present,

cheated on your mom but she never left him,

first i didn’t get it, now i understand

he broke her heart, left money in her hands

so everything got paid for.

she made sure you and your brother had way more

than she ever had growing up.

but when you told me the whole story,

i felt like throwing up.

i can see it on your face it was rough,

left a bad taste on your tongue.

and she didn’t even take any drugs

she would rain all day,

couldn’t wait for her sun to shine

and you made it shine.

there she cried, you saved her life.

-nbhd || daddy issues (remix/unreleased)

[rottingdaisies]

Lolita, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. Lo-lee-ta: the tip of the tongue taking a trip of three steps down the palate to tap, at three, on the teeth. Lo. Lee. Ta.

- Lolita (1955), Vladimir Nabakov

[iamquietlydrowning]

I hope that someday when I am gone, someone, somewhere, picks my soul up off of these pages and thinks:

“I would have loved her”

[alw-22]

“if i ever saw a flaw of yours, I’d say my eyes are the flawed ones”

-the best ever compliment i recently got from a guy I’ve known for years and now we’ve planned on getting married after 5 years because we speak each other’s love language

[alw-22]

Parai aas aave na raas

expectations lead to disappointment

[alw-22]

Din adhure lagde ne jado da mera yaar turr gaya ae

my days feel incomplete since my lover left

[alw-22]

Hassdeya naina nu oh rohna de gaya, vekho ki dil da praunha de gaya

-waris shah

pain to my eyes to full of life, look at what the guest in my heart gave me

[alw-22]

Karam tere si,

jhel mai rahi ha

your actions and i’m the once facing the consequences

-k.

[alw-22]

“Hum ek dusre ki pareshaanio se anjaan he theek hai. Kareeb aaye toh door bhi jana padhega.”

It’s better to stay as a stranger. If we come close, one of us will have to leave.

-k.s.

[alw-22]

Akhaan vich hajhu, zubaan utte jhuth

even with tears in his eyes, he always lied

-k.s.

[alw-22]

“Je vaar vaar yaad dilaun pave, tah oh pyaar ni awaragardi hai”

If you have to keep on reminding them, it’s just fun, not love.

-k.s

[alw-22]

Tere bahane bhi ab meethe lagte hai

even your excuses are sweet to me now

[alw-22]

Dujjeya de dilla karke tu mainu kitte vaadeya nu todh dita, dass mainu etho tu ki khateya?

You broke my heart trying to please other people, to gain what?

-k.s.

[alw-22]

“Bharosa mera tu todeya, te uth duniya toh gaya”

You were the one who betrayed me and i don’t trust the world

-k.s.

[alw-22]

Khuda bhi unhe banao jinhe tumhara khyaal aaye

dont worship someone who doesn’t care for you. dont devote yourseld to someone who doesn’t think of you.

-k.s.