021219

you always start somewhere stay safe🌹

[alway-s-ad]

everyone talk about suicide and youre like “i dont wanna die, I want to be heard by someone” but fuck it, i really want to die, i think it will be my last me, seeya somewhere else

[yourlocalmadlad]

my strength is still being alive, thats it

[emptyshadesofblue]

hey uh any tips to like… not be so fucking ugly

[imjustascaredlilgirl]

[s-e-c-r-e-t-t-s]

Always our own demons

[alway-s-ad]

[alway-s-ad]

Me: *not going to school for a week*

Friends: What have you got?

Me: wanting to die, depression, fasting

Friends: omg, always my mood

[alway-s-ad]

[raiindown]

Me: *talks about wanting to die and being done with life*

Friends: mood lol

Me: *commits suicide*

Friends: we never saw that coming

[alway-s-ad]

always the same

[alex-is-fragile-deactivated2019]

going back

back to obsessing.

back to late night thoughts.

back to self destruction.

back to compulsive behaviors.

back to wasting time.

back to procrastinating.

back to spending most of my time in bed.

back to self sabotage.

back to ruining everything i touch.

back to not getting shit done.

back to posting on all my accounts.

back to overthinking.

back to spending too much time on my phone.

back to feeling helpless.

back to oversharing.

back to feeling lonely.

back to feeling worthless.

back to spending too much time my socials.

back to feeling hopeless.

back to realizing i don’t have a purpose.

back to binging.

back to being fat.

back to having urges.

back to being stuck in a cycle.

back to going too far.

back to my bed.

i’m going backwards instead of forwards.

i can’t be who i was before.

what if i become worse than that?