I deserve better

Call me En. A Registered Cost Accountant👩‍💼Part time traveler 😉Full time Employee 😁Thai-Lakom ☺ Multi-Fandom😃😍 Blog may be detrimental but no harm is it ended to anyone.Follow at your own risk.Your problem with me is definitely not my concern.

[inkskinned]

i want to be someone else’s safety. even nonromantically. i want to be “hey can i tell you something?” i want to be - i tried something new and i’m a little scared but i wanted to show you. i want to be “i knew i could trust you”. i want to be okay to hold the hand of, always ready to listen, always trying. even if i don’t get it perfect, you know? i just want to be a place other people can relax and be themselves and not worry for a fraction of an instant. 

[criizz]

Me rn:

[latenights]

Get you a partner who wants to invest in you, listen to you, learn from you, see you win, support your visions & fall in love with you daily

[zahrasky]

Hinahanap kita

Hinahanap kita sa umaga, sa pagmulat ng mata

Lumingon sa paligid, baka ika'y nariyan, ako'y umaasa

Hinahanap kita habang ako'y naglalakad sa kalsada

Pati sa pagtawid ay lumilingon sa kanan at kaliwa

Hindi para maging ligtas sa pagtawid kundi para makita ka

Hinahanap kita sa bawat eskinita

Pati sa mga establisyementong nagsasara

Nagbabaka-sakaling imahe mo'y makikinita

Ngunit bumalik na muli ang mga tala

Buwan ay sumilay at nagbigay sigla

Aking hinahanap, hindi pa rin magunita

Sinta, nasaan ka na?

Ako rito'y nag-iisa

Walang kaagapay sa mga problema

Ikaw lamang ang makakakalma

Sa naghuhurmentado kong sistema.

Pakiusap, magpakita ka na.

Bago pa ako mawalan ng kakayahang makakita.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

Sapat na sapat ang pag-ibig mo. Hindi ako nagduda na kaya mong panindigan ang mga pangako mo. Kaya kapag sinasabi mong mahal mo ako, naniniwala ako ng buong puso. Kaya alam ko na kahit na ano pang mangyari sa hinaharap, hinding hindi tayo papatalo. Binigay mo sa'kin ang pag-ibig na wala na akong mahihiling pa. Binigyan mo ako ng pag-asa sa buhay na dati pinapangarap ko lang talaga. Mahal na mahal kita, hinding hindi yan magbabago kahit kailan mahal ko.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

We are so busy growing old.

We are so focus to other things, like love and attention from other people that we forgot the most important people in our lives, the people who gave us life; our parents. They are also growing old. We may not know it but sooner or later, God will take them away from us. We must know how to value them, how to treasure them, how to understand them, how to appreciate them, how to love them unconditionally. You are still lucky if you still have your parents with you. You are blessed if they are still alive and healthy. You wouldn’t like to feel not to have your mother around who will cook food for you and a father who will be there to hug you when his little girl and his young boy is hurt. It’s hard not to have your parents around to guide and to make you feel that you are home. It’s hard not to have them by your side when you are sad and hurt, it’s sad when they are not there when you are happy and you achieved something and you want to share it with them. You should take care of your parents and love them more than you love anybody else. They are a gift from God.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

I am a moon… That never leaves, i always stay especially during your darkest time, i give light, enough light in your little world. It stays wherever you go, whenever you are, it will always be your companion. Just look up at the night sky and just look at the moon, it will never fail you cause you will see it where you last saw it. The moon knows your light and dark moments, knows whenever you need someone to be there for you, knows when you need a presence. Everyday it has a different version of itself, but one thing is for sure, it will never leave you alone and it’s true.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

Nothing's perfect, but I swear everything seems so perfect when you're around.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

Other people might not understand our relationship, but we do. That's all that matters

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

#IJustWantYouToKnow that no matter how rough things get, I'll never give up. I'll always be here right by your side, every step of the way.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

I display a fraction of my true self. Everything is just a facade.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

I have seen him at his best, and his worst. I don’t know which i love more. I’ve seen all his cuts, wounded soul, broken heart, the story through his eyes, all his flaws and all those things made me see the meaning of true love. I love him, all of him. Every single side and bit. I love his moody side, even if he’s the most complicated man i’ve ever met, i’ll gladly be patient for him. I don’t mind if he’s unpredictable and impossible man i’ve ever known, i can also be the woman who will always be there to believe in him. I don’t mind him being so fragile and vulnerable. Loving someone like him makes me believe in love again, that there’s still true love. I love him in any and every way. There is not a part of him I can’t accept, there is not a part of him I can’t love. I fell in love with his soul, i fell in love in everything that he has.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

“You will fall in love with someone whose heart is cold and always seemingly pushing you away because they think they don’t deserve you. That person who will you do anything for and not gonna give up and still you can’t make them fall for you. They will be forever known as that person who can’t get to love you. Yes it will hurt you, a lot. And it will run through your veins, down to your spine, to your lungs that makes it hard for you to breathe. It makes you want to stop but there’s no other way and you’ll get lost. And the pain will always be visible to your eyes, the cracks of your heart will be visible to your eyes. They could see the pain you’re feeling just by looking at your face.” — You’ll always going to fall for that person who can’t love you back.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

“We’ll meet again someday and I’m sure of that. I’ll wait for that day. Maybe in some other time, when things are less complicated, when we’re both ready and when things are in favor for the two of us. I will wait for that day when i can finally say that it will be the right time for us. I can’t wait for that day where we’ll be better for each other. And by that time, i’ll be right for you and you’ll be right for me. We will be on the same road and same way. But right now, things are little complicated. We can’t be together and we’re both on the opposite ends of a pole. We’re two lost souls trying to find ourselves. We’re both confused on what route to follow. We’re on different side of the road trying to reach each others hand but we’re too far. We have poisons in each others hands that once we hold each others hands, it will be the caused of death of the other one. And even our love for each other couldn’t heal it. Loving someone doesn’t always mean that they need to be together. There are a lot of things that needs to consider. Sometimes the happiness of the person you love is all that matter and that would be enough.”

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

I am going to love you as if it’s the most important thing i need to do. As if someone might take you away from me anytime soon. As if you’re the most precious glass i have. As if you’re just a dream and you’ll be gone once i wake up. As if you’re just an illusion that can be gone once i’m back with my senses. I am going to love you as if the stars will no longer cast their light upon us. I am going to love you as if the sun will no longer shine during daytime, as if the clouds turn gray and the rain have stopped from falling. I will love you as if it’s my last breath and my eyes couldn’t see anymore. I will love you as if the ocean runs dry. I am going to love you as if the world have stopped from revolving and when universe collide. I will love you and i will never stop on loving you no matter what happens.

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

tears roll down my eyes every time I think about you

[alwaysbetterthanyourex]

If ever tomorrow I won’t be seeing the canoe of a brand new day, I want you to remember every moment I had with you- no matter how fast, and how it felt like smoke dwelled in its quickest transition. Paint a eulogy for me encarved with the happiest memories possible. I hate departing from a place full of sad people. I would never want you to be sad. Think of a happy moment you had with me- and remember how I was smiling. I promise you that in every good memory you are going to stroke in your future life, I am with you- I’m not going to leave.