Ali

Starting: 150 // Current: Haven't weighed in since April // Goal: 115

[alyssa-and-ali]

I haven't weighted myself since April..

And it makes me love myself more.

BE STRICT WITH YOURSELF, BUT DON'T LET IT CONTROL YOU.

I have no idea how much I weigh, but I have so many before pictures from February. Every time I see progress, I take a picture.

My pictures are my progress.

I have no idea how much I weight.

I am losing weight. My belly is getting flatter.

HIDE. YOUR. SCALE.

STOP. EATING. WHEN. YOU'RE. FULL.

Only count your calories so that you're aware.

Don't let yourself binge, but let yourself enjoy the food you're eating.

Don't run for punishment. Run because you enjoy it.

We need lifestyle changes. Not quick fixes.

I'm thin because I take care of myself.

I'm thin because I take care of myself

(And a few subliminals, too 👀)

[alyssa-and-ali]

Goal Weight:

Belly Button Piercing

[alyssa-and-ali]

No matter how much weight I lose I still feel like my knees just look fat.

Dunno why.

They just do.

[alyssa-and-ali]

Hey.

HEY.

Shut the fuck up.

You ARE enough.

It's okay to want to lose weight.

It's okay to be a little sick in the head.

It's okay.

But it's NOT okay to decide you're not worth it.

And it's NOT okay to tell yourself you aren't

enough.

You're gorgeous and I love you.

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

Sometimes I see thinspo and I think

Woah wait she's too thin

And then other times I see thinspo and I think

Woah wait she's angelic

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

I went to the gym and I feel amazing.

And I did such a good job restricting today, too!

Food: 931 Calories

Exercise: 453 Calories

Net: 478

<3

[dylannslits]

absolutely DO NOT rb this. if you rb this you will waste away to nothing but skin and bones. it would be such a shame if you rb'ed this.

[alyssa-and-ali]

Uh oh

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

Going to the gym tomorrow.. does anyone have any tips about my crippling low self esteem? I'm scared everyone's gonna stare at me. I'm so scared everyones gonna stare at me and think about what a lazy fat bitch I am.

I'm so so scared.

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

I made myself two small pancakes, and watched the calories drizzle onto them in syrup form.

I sat down with my boyfriend and picked at the pancakes until my dog came over and I gave them to her. He and I laughed because shes so cute.

My would-have-been 450 calorie breakfast turned into a 130 calorie breakfast :)

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

I did good today! And my boyfriend signed us up for the gym!! We have a gym membership!!!

I'm so excited..

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

I find myself to be so judgmental. I notice things about people and judge them so quickly. I try to correct myself, but that doesn't change what I thought.

I think it's because I judge myself so harshly.

I'm so mean to myself and it bleeds through and I end up judging other people.

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

Well okay yeah I hear you but like

I feel healthier when I'm hungry.

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

I wish I could be proud of how I look.

I just feel heavy.

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

I was doing so good for months and then I felt sick and stopped exercising and ate a lot of food for a week straight.

I feel disgusting.

I feel like I've undone everything I've worked for.

I feel huge.

Is that possible?? To undo months worth of weight loss in a week??

Fuck.

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

I don't know how much I weigh. I haven't weighed myself since like.. April? I thought it would be a good thing because then when I lost all kinds of weight and I finally step on the scale I'll be so tiny or I'll realize that I don't have to be 90 lbs to be gorgeous.

But now I'm just scared of the scale altogether.

<3

[alyssa-and-ali]

My name is Alyssa. My name is also Ali. My name is also Lis. And Lissy. And he calls me Baby Girl and Sweetheart and Love.

But I call myself Fatass. And Stupid Bitch.

<3

I'm 18 years old, 5'1, and started at 150 lbs (68 kg) in Feburary. I started running and eating less. Then I got fucking lazy lmao. So now I eat less than before. I last looked at the scale 2 months ago back in April...? Maybe March. But the last I looked at it i was 143 lbs. So from Feburary to March I lost about 7 lbs.

I've been restricting more since then, but I have no idea how much I weigh. I count my calories in and burned. If its at all accurate then I SHOULD have lost another 8 lbs since May. I SHOULD be 135 lbs. But I haven't looked at the scale. I'm kind of scared to. I like not knowing. I'm afraid I'll binge.

As far as what I've noticed?

-my "love handles" are.. I mean they're almost gone! Its not good enough but I'm proud of myself.

-my hands!!! My hands used to be so fat. I had dimples at each knuckle. I still have those dimples but they're so much shallower and I sometimes see more than just fat on my hands. My hands are becoming thinner.

-my smile doesn't dissappear when I smile anymore. It doesn't sink into fat cheeks. I feel prettier. My face feels thinner.

-my belly isn't as round and fat. I still cry in the mirror but I also wake up and dance naked in front of it sometimes.

-my boobs!!! What?? I lost fat under my boobs and now they seem bigger! They seem perky and rounder. They used to fall over in different directions and now.. i actually feel happier with them.

I want to focus mostly on how the good. I don't want to talk about how bad I feel. I think it might discourage me. And while this is a weightloss blog.. I'm not nearly as impressive as the other girls on here. This is gonna be my little diary though. And I'm excited to see what all will happen and change in my body over the next few months.

<3