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Isn't it odd to smile at a sad song?

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This one is for you. To the dude who has no clue of the existence of me. 

I see you from a distance; I pause for a second getting all self-conscious just because of your existence. Stealing glances of you, every time I get a chance, because I have no idea when and where is your next appearance.

And while I stare at that back of yours, I haven’t realized that you, I have unconsciously memorized, the built of your back, your fuzzy curly hair your milky white skin, that made you look like an heir And with your skinny but tall body, you looked like Moose  from that dancing-themed movie, where in the end they never lose. And hey, don’t you worry I don’t stalk you on “fb” I’m just happy seeing you, and that, for me, is enough already.

But now we’re about to part, and I’d be lying of I say I don’t want you in my life to stay So I’ll just keep this stolen moments that I believe, you have forgotten. Because this could be the last of us, that actually never happen. 

And now I’ll end this amateur poem,  with a waving goodbye, a bit of heartache but we’ll be alright. So for now it’s a goodbye and just like they say goodbyes are hellos that are just waiting to happen someday

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Happily Never After

Funny how my heartbeats faster when we’re in a closer space. Funny how my heartbreaks when there was never an us in the first place. Friendship that grew to be more than it was, but in reality there can never be an us. The other could felt something more while the other half could only felt, friendship was it all. And so both loved another, and they just kept on supporting each other until the day one no longer could keep up and so they decided to give up. The friendship that was supposed to be love, has now vanished and have gone up above. Reality kicking in, fantasy it has never been. This isn’t like a movie thing, with a great happy ending.

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Piece for Peace

Life is taken No one is forgiven War cannot be beaten Unless love has been given Sad to see reality We keep repeating history Tragedy after tragedy We are each others enemy  Time ticks away Forgiving, is it on it’s way? Peace for a day well, forever can you stay?

Hoping you can see All we want is unity Life is lived shortly So can’t we all just live happily?

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Philophobia

“Why don’t you want to be in my life?” he asked, looking deep into my eyes. I see hurt in those hazelnut eyes. Hurt and confuse. I’ve been asking myself the same question, and now that he asked me, I guess I know now why I don;t want to have the answer for that. Maybe because it will just reveal everything I’ve been trying so hard to conceal. But now, he deserves the truth. Because maybe, just maybe he’ll stop bothering me, but just the thought of that already haunts me. So maybe I’ll just say it all out loud and let the feelings flow, and accept what may come.  “I fought my own feeling because you’re complicated, wait- actually it’s not you but your pasts that can’t let go of you. And your past is already complicated enough and if I get involved, that would just fuck up both of us.” there I said it.. but I wasn’t expecting his reply

“But if it means having you in my life, I’ll still be damned happy with that fucked up life”  And in that moment on, I’ve realized one thing. I suck at this Love-shit people go crazy for. 

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Missing Cupids’ Arrow

Her goodbye’s, are his hello’s. Her tears are for his to wipe away. His wandering mind is for her to find. His chaotic life is for her to calm. They were each others common denominator. If they only knew , the happiness each one of them can bring to each other. Their lives would’ve been a whole lot different. But they can’t move. They’re stoked. And the thought that they couldn’t be the same forever. They took one last look of their world, her holding an old photo of her paramour, him holding a memoir of his only and last lover. “ I do “ she stated coldly and emotionless. “ Be happy “ as he took his one last sip of air and a long beeping sound that was deafening to the ears, bringing waterfall-like tears to the eyes and breaking beating hearts, was all that’s left. For two hearts just died. One stop beating and the other just stop living

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The Biplane Who Didn’t Fly

There she was standing by the edge of the cliff, staring at the beautiful sunset with her eyes full of  exhilaration and admiration. She wanted to fly, fly so high that no one could catch her. She knows she can do it but she was afraid, afraid not of the heights but of the crash. She doubted herself for a second, and so she went back home, where comfort and support lies.. right? She thought to herself. Little did she know that she was alone, and no one was home. She found strangers in her house and saw no signs of her family. She told the strangers she would jump off the cliff and fly but they questioned her ability to do so. She said to herself, of course they would doubt me, they’re strangers they do not know me at all. And so she passes by the cliff everyday of her life, not knowing what would’ve happen if she did jump off the cliff, could she have flown or fallen? Would there still be this black hole in her heart? If only she was brave enough to pursue her dream and if only those strangers of her own blood have believed in her when she couldn’t believed in herself. 

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By the end of the day, I just want to appreciate people and not to hate

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People who makes you want to be a better person for good are called an inspiration

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Train-wreck

Just when you thought everything is intact, when you thought everything is going on the right track. A train comes by, collision and chaos destroys your peace of mind. 

Nothing seems going your way, and it all felt like the universe is going against you. You now only see a cold cruel world, a world you once thought was a world of love and mercy. 

And so you decided, decided to see the world you once thought it was. And you try to fight back, but not fighting chaos with chaos. Instead, you try fighting chaos with mercy and love. Just to see or even have a glimpse of that light at the end of the tunnel.