JOURNAL ENTRY 009: I woke up the next day to better assess myself on how bad it was. My breathing wasn't the greatest but was stable enough. My throat hurts like crazy from drinking some of the ocean water. I think my worst was my vision it was blurry like hazy vision. It's blurry and foggy, am hoping this isn't permanent. So had to assess myself blindly to figure out how bad it was. Checking arms and legs wasn't difficult to do. Like nothing was broken or sprained, checking joint movements and they were all good. Nothing hurt pre-say as my whole body muscles just ached. I checked my ribs, nothing felt cracked or bruised, just a lot of sore muscles. I wasn't sure how I was going to check my shell I needed to see what I was doing. I decide to walk around to figure out this whole situation. My body still felt cold to the touch, I didn't feel pain in my shell. So I figured it was okay. So I decided to take a decontamination shower to be safe. Enjoying a hot shower and got dressed in some warm clothes. My throat hurt like crazy, so I decided to make a warm hot chocolate to pain the aches. Making hot chocolate was a challenge because I had to move slower for my surroundings. I spaced out while walking to the kitchen and crashed face-first into the cavern wall. I put my hand on the wall to guide myself to the kitchen just to be safe. Since I can kinda see so making hot chocolate was all good. At the moment am worried about my eyesight because how am going to protect the planet all by myself? If a blind or at least have foggy vision. I sat on the couch in the living room wrapped up in blankets drinking my hot chocolate. I fall asleep on the couch with a warm fire. Am not sure why started to feel ill at 4 in the morning when I felt an intense hot flash plus nausea. Thank goodness I didn't vomit but it still didn't feel good. I had to remove my shirt to help cool myself down. I also took a rescue inhaler to help stabilize my breathing which somehow helped with the nausea. I did spit in the toilet to help with the pressure. I was able to go back to sleep with some discomfort on the left side when laying on my right side. Even now am unable to eat with a lingering feeling in my body that threatens to flare up the possibility of vomiting. Am guess the toxic ocean water might have something to do with this. During the rest of my day, am aware of how much this TMI is. But like I never had diarrhea before plus a surface film on it was oily too. From what can see, so it kinda scared me. After taking care of business, am not exactly sure how to handle this as am, not a doctor so what know is pretty limited. I guess the only thing is to keep an eye on my symptoms and hope it doesn't get worse. Read as much as can for possible treatment is difficult with my eyesight. Since don't plan on drinking any more contaminated water in theory I should be okay. But not exactly sure what's going on with my throat as it continues to hurt. I underestimate the damage that had happened to me. Slowly my vision return which I was greatful for, I seem physically drained but unharmed. I have this constant pain in my throat. At first I thought it was some kind of throat illness but turn out to be much worse. I used this throat device that not takes pictures of the throat but diagnose a proper treatment plan. According to scans my voice box is permanently damaged. So I can no longer speak ever again.. I was desivasted, I weeped for months over losing my voice. My eyes had become swollen for how much I was crying. I was so anrgy at the situation, I throw all my gear at the walls of the base. Also destroyed the kitchken breaking plates and cups. My outraged I somehow manged to contain to my room. Turning it upset down, I never in my life have ever done that. I didn't know I had the much anrger inside of me. During this time I wasn't sleeping or eating much so I was hot mess. It doesn't excuse my actions but I let managed to fix everything I broke. Even though I could no longer talk doesn't mean I couldn't still do my assignment.










