AmberMarieKarev

17. Alex Karev's younger sister. Victoria's aunt. Surving high school.  Most likely going to be a doctor as well.  Come from a hectic life.

[ambermariekarev]

Call to Alex

Hello, is this Alex? You were listed as the emergency contact for Ms. Amber Karev. She fainted during class.  She’s being taken to the hospital right now.  Would you meet us there? 

[ambermariekarev]

Text: Amblyn }¡{

Dylan: Sooo...

Dylan: How'd it go?

Amber: Okay I guess. I talked to both Alex and Morgan. They're disappointed, but I'm grounded or anything, so that's a plus

Dylan: That is a plus. I know it sucks right now but they'll always love and support you. So it's good that you opened up to them. How do you feel? Any better?

Amber: Eh, baby steps, you know. I'll get there. You?

Dylan: I'm okay. I'm just worried about you.

Amber: Don't be. I'll get better. Final decision on college soon...

Dylan: I trust you. Have you finally decided your top three?

Amber: It's been hard! I'm looking at Washington State, Seattle U, and University of Washington. I need to do some visits now that class is out!

[ambermariekarev]

Text: Amblyn }¡{

Dylan: Sooo...

Dylan: How'd it go?

Amber: Okay I guess. I talked to both Alex and Morgan. They're disappointed, but I'm grounded or anything, so that's a plus

Dylan: That is a plus. I know it sucks right now but they'll always love and support you. So it's good that you opened up to them. How do you feel? Any better?

Amber: Eh, baby steps, you know. I'll get there. You?

Dylan: I'm okay. I'm just worried about you.

Amber: Don't be. I'll get better. Final decision on college soon...

[ambermariekarev]

Text: Amblyn }¡{

Dylan: Sooo...

Dylan: How'd it go?

Amber: Okay I guess. I talked to both Alex and Morgan. They're disappointed, but I'm grounded or anything, so that's a plus

Dylan: That is a plus. I know it sucks right now but they'll always love and support you. So it's good that you opened up to them. How do you feel? Any better?

Amber: Eh, baby steps, you know. I'll get there. You?

[ambermariekarev]

Morgan,

You didn’t really have a choice when I came to live with you guys, but you’ve been great to me.  You and Alex have felt more like my parents than my parents ever did.  You’ve put up with so many of my teenage hormones, meltdowns, and catastrophes, and you’re probably not done yet.  At least you’ll be plenty prepared when Tori reaches her teenage years.  I guess what I’m trying to say is thank you, for everything.  Thank you for showing me the love I feel I missed as a child.  Thank you for loving me so much that you get frustrated when I do things that harm myself or others.  Thank you for being here for me, and my brother, and for giving me an amazing little sister. 

Thank you for being my mother, Morgan.

Love,

Amber

[drmorganpeterson]

Oh sweetheart…..thank you so much.  Everything is so beautiful, but your words are the kindest.  I love you too.  

[ambermariekarev]

I really mean it Morgan. You’ve been amazing.  I’m going to get better and help out more. 

[ambermariekarev]

Morgan,

You didn’t really have a choice when I came to live with you guys, but you’ve been great to me.  You and Alex have felt more like my parents than my parents ever did.  You’ve put up with so many of my teenage hormones, meltdowns, and catastrophes, and you’re probably not done yet.  At least you’ll be plenty prepared when Tori reaches her teenage years.  I guess what I’m trying to say is thank you, for everything.  Thank you for showing me the love I feel I missed as a child.  Thank you for loving me so much that you get frustrated when I do things that harm myself or others.  Thank you for being here for me, and my brother, and for giving me an amazing little sister. 

Thank you for being my mother, Morgan.

Love,

Amber

[ambermariekarev]

Here’s my trying (Alex and Amber)

When the buzzer on the stove goes off, Morgan is on the floor with Tori, working on her speech after her breakfast.  “I’ll take it to him” I yell to her, refer to Alex’s breakfast which has just finished cooking.  I’m forcing myself to be more genuinely committed to this family, and to my own well being. 

I take the dish upstairs and knock on the bedroom door.  “Wakey wakey you lazy butt” I joke as I open it.  “Morgan made pancakes and eggs” I add as I plop down in the bed next to him and hand him the plate.  “Really good” I say, offering a smile. “And she’s already got little miss working on her speech this morning, but I’m sure they’ll be up soon” I add, grabbing the tv remote, changing the channel and giving him a smirk. 

[ambermariekarev]

Text: Amblyn }¡{

Dylan: Sooo...

Dylan: How'd it go?

Amber: Okay I guess. I talked to both Alex and Morgan. They're disappointed, but I'm grounded or anything, so that's a plus

[ambermariekarev]

Can we talk? (Amber and Alex)

[alexmichaelkarevpeds]

“I certainly don’t get near death on purpose. None of us do.” I shake my head. “You’ve got to get a handle on this, how do you expect us to send you off to college, and be able to trust…” I lean back against my pillow, “keep it up. Keep going to therapy. Go more often if you need to.”

[ambermariekarev]

“I know.  I really am trying Alex.  I want you and Morgan to be able to trust me.  I want to go off and make you proud.”

[ambermariekarev]

Can we talk? (Amber and Alex)

[alexmichaelkarevpeds]

I sigh and shake my head. “You can’t do that Amber. You can’t just shut down.” I reach out and grab her hand. “I’m here… and I’m fine. You’ve got to get a handle on this. What is the plan? To get you better?”

[ambermariekarev]

“I know” I say, sighing as well.  “It’s… I just found my way back to you and I was loosing you. I couldn’t take it Alex. By the time I got you back my mind was too deep in.  But I knew that I would hurt everyone. I knew I had to do something.  I am doing something.  I met back with my old therapist today.  I’m going to get help… She said I should tell you.”

[alexmichaelkarevpeds]

“You’re going to have to grow up, I’m not trying to be harsh, but it’s true. You can’t just give uo and retreat. You know what happens when you do that, Amber. Do you want to turn out like Mom?” I ask. “I’m glad you’re seeing your therapist. She helos, doesn’t she?”

[ambermariekarev]

“I try with all my might, every day Alex!” I sob.  “I’ve never had a lot of people in my corner.  Growing up with mom, it’s no wonder I struggle to express my emotions sometimes” I sigh.  “And you’re kinda all I have left. You, Tori and Morgan.  I can’t loose you, and no offense, but you seem to getting “near death” a lot these days” I add with a small chuckle.  “Yeah, she helps.”

[ambermariekarev]

Can we talk? (Amber and Alex)

[alexmichaelkarevpeds]

I sigh and shake my head. “You can’t do that Amber. You can’t just shut down.” I reach out and grab her hand. “I’m here… and I’m fine. You’ve got to get a handle on this. What is the plan? To get you better?”

[ambermariekarev]

“I know” I say, sighing as well.  “It’s... I just found my way back to you and I was loosing you. I couldn’t take it Alex. By the time I got you back my mind was too deep in.  But I knew that I would hurt everyone. I knew I had to do something.  I am doing something.  I met back with my old therapist today.  I’m going to get help... She said I should tell you.”

[ambermariekarev]

Can we talk? (Amber and Alex)

[alexmichaelkarevpeds]

I look at her confused. “What do you mean?” I ask, “a-are you hurting yourself?” I begin to got through all the things that “not taking care” could mean. I’ve seen that. I know what alot of those things look like. “Just talk to me,” i say.

[ambermariekarev]

I nod my head. “I... when I heard you where in that hospital bed... I couldn’t bring myself to eat, or leave the hospital, nothing seemed worth it if you weren’t here.” I look away momentarily before I continue.  “When you woke up, I was already so numb...” “Alex I just fell back apart and I couldn’t tell you...”

[ambermariekarev]

Can we talk? (Amber and Alex)

After school I head to my therapy session, just like I promised Morgan I would.  She says I need to talk to Alex, and of course my therapist tells me the same thing.  We talk about  triggers and why I kept my secret so long.  I leave with a promise that I’ll attempt to talk to him tonight. 

I use my key to unlock the door, and set my bookbag down gently, knowing that Tori is most likely in the living room taking a nap.  I take a deep breath before heading upstairs to the master bedroom.  Alex is doing better every day, but he’s still weak and stays in bed a lot.  I knock on the door before opening it.  “Alex, can I talk to you?” I ask, stilling down on the edge of the bed.

[alexmichaelkarevpeds]

I reach for the remote and shut off the TV when Amber sits down. “Sure… what’s going on?” I ask. She’s remained distant for sometime now. I keep my attention on her as I wait for her response.

[ambermariekarev]

I don’t know how to start.  I don’t want him to worry or be upset.  I open my mouth to speak but no words come out.  I take another deep breath.  “I haven’t bee well Alex” I say softly.  “I haven’t been, taking good care of myself…” I pause.  

[ambermariekarev]

Can we talk? (Amber and Alex)

After school I head to my therapy session, just like I promised Morgan I would.  She says I need to talk to Alex, and of course my therapist tells me the same thing.  We talk about  triggers and why I kept my secret so long.  I leave with a promise that I’ll attempt to talk to him tonight. 

I use my key to unlock the door, and set my bookbag down gently, knowing that Tori is most likely in the living room taking a nap.  I take a deep breath before heading upstairs to the master bedroom.  Alex is doing better every day, but he’s still weak and stays in bed a lot.  I knock on the door before opening it.  “Alex, can I talk to you?” I ask, stilling down on the edge of the bed.

[ambermariekarev]

Morgan

[drmorganpeterson]

Good. That’s good. -takes a deep breath- I just don’t understand trying to destroy your body and your health, but it’s a problem you face. I’ll do what I can to help, but amber, it’s all your choice now.

[ambermariekarev]

I don’t know Morgan... I just always felt so useless, so worthless... And when I thought I was loosing Alex again... I guess I’m still getting used to the fact that I have people who care about me.

[ambermariekarev]

Morgan

[drmorganpeterson]

I don’t know what to do amber. I’m out of my element here, but you need to call your therapist and telll your father.

[ambermariekarev]

I just, I want you to say that you won’t give up on me please Morgan. I called already, I have an appointment for tomorrow after school, just please.  I’ll tell Alex soon.

[ambermariekarev]

Morgan

[drmorganpeterson]

You want so badly to be an adult and make grown up decisions, make whatever calls you need. -gets her wallet- Here’s your insurance card and the card of the therapist you saw last time.

[ambermariekarev]

Morgan please... It hurt so much... By the time I could think reasonably, that I was hurting all of you too, I can't stop.... And I knew how upset you'd be and it just made me fell worse.  It’s like you think I like to disappoint you. I don’t! You’re... you’re one of the greatest things to ever happen to me Morgan! I just... I can’t