風 靉

あめりふう~

[amerifuu]

『日が沈みまた昇るように　花が散りまた咲くみたいに

全てはめぐりめぐって　全てがほら元通り

もし生まれ変わったらなんて　二度と言わないで

今君は日陰の中にいるだけ　ただそれだけ』

❤️😊🙇

[amerifuu]

Food so good I can't stand it😢

1. Thai iced tea with tapioca bubbles

2. Passion fruit juice💕

3. Blueberry scone

4. Tortilla chips

5.

6. Warabi mochi and 31 💗

7.

👍👍👍✨✨✨😁

[amerifuu]

Oh my gosh ZZS, what is going on?? 😂😂

Oh-ho! And then there’s CWN! (Next chapter)

Well, this sugar is no joke! This was a good decision 😂

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CWN is such a precious baby oh my gosh 💕

But for real, this writing is shit 😅😅😅

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Well, they really managed to pull out a good story from the original novel when making the drama 😂

But it seems really funny that they chose THIS story to make into a tv show😂 like, huh??

The drama did such a good job and created a much stronger, rich, deep story, but to be honest now having read the novel I wish they had done an even better job when writing a new story for the drama 😅😅

Wow 😅

Whatever though I’m staying stuck up in this mountain😅

[amerifuu]

ありがとう😢🙇

ありがとうございます🙇🙇🙇

今日は海に来ました。

色々考え事があるけど、悩みが多くて、不安が多くて、答えを見つけないといけないことが多いけど、仕事が欲しい。

But then just like that, after a few minutes of searching, I found a job I would very much like to do back in my home area.

I will do more searching in Japan, because I know there are opportunities I have yet to discover, but I very quickly just went through a lot of different things I need to consider about working here in the couple of seconds I took to consider that job.

I think the bottom line is that I will never be satisfied with this system. And if I want to have a life here, yes of course I can put up with it (well), but the logical, rational, problem-solving thinking part of me will forever be frustrated and dissatisfied. Because my values and my approach to life a just different. And if I want to enjoy the work everyday I do for the rest of my life, I need to work for (or at least experience) a different system.

どうなるか分かりませんが、thank you for showing me opportunities 🙇🙇🙇

[amerifuu]

『(ここで)私が愛した全てのもの(ここにいる・いたみんな)に、どうか不幸が訪れませんように!!!』

今朝の祈り🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😭

[amerifuu]

2:06:34~🐶😊❤️

(Did he say it?? Did he say it? He said it??? 😃)

Can’t sleep at 3:30 in the morning, so I thought it would make me feel better to finally go and find siruko-san saying my name.

He didn’t pronounce it too clearly, but he read my name right after being really cute 🤣

ありがとうございます！！🙏😆

(Earlier on in the same video he read the name of someone called “amechan” and oh boy did that give me a shock the first time I heard it. 😳❤️ also someone who’s name starts with my yt name so that also shocked me 😅 my heart 😅😅)

[amerifuu]

『今日も生きてて偉い、みんな!』

ありがとおおおじらいちゃああああん😊❤️

[amerifuu]

Oh my god. So when the dvds were being released here in Japan they marketed the series as a 「ブローマンス時代劇」(OДO)

Oh my god 😂😂😂😂😂

[amerifuu]

「アメリーさんはやさしいから」

「アメリーさんはやさしいから」

「アメリーさんはオールマイティ」

「今まで職場(ここ)でアメリーさんみたいに誰かに信頼したことがなかった」

「アメリーさんはずっとここにいて欲しい存在です」

And also:

『人をあんまり期待していない』

『人といい関係でいたい(私が優しくでいた方が楽)』

『自分でやった方が早い』

When I started working here, I found out very quickly that this person is very similar to me. Which is probably why still, after all this time, I have never once blamed him for anything that happened. I've honestly never even been been frustrated at him because of the work I had to do for him. (Although sometimes the timing of what he wanted me to do wasn't the best...) But I really could understand this person. He is truly sincere and kind-hearted in everything he does. We are very different in many ways though. The way that I place my family/personal life in higher priority than work is very different. I was even surprised to learn today that we view people in general very differently (my problem is that I expect WAYYYY too much of people. Complete opposite apparently 😂) We also have had very different life experiences. I also in some ways really want to become like him (no. matter. what. never gets mad, never speaks harshly to others.) But at the same time, he has served as a very good example of what I DON'T want to become (and I also recognized very quickly that I simply won't become like him - although one could say that I did somewhat become like him over these past few years, it was never willingly.) I am incredibly grateful to this person for everything he has done, both for me and for the sake of others. I have learned so much from working with him and seeing how he works, and so despite everything, everything, everything, having had the opportunity to work with this person might have been the greatest gift to come out of these past 4 years. While I have always been incredibly grateful to this person, I might not have realized just how much lucky I was to have worked with him until right now.

This might have actually been the reason why I was sent to this place. Because everything else I was able to learn over these past four years was related to things he had started. I needed to see, through him and many others, what life and living as a human being can be like.

So, so, so many things have happened since I came here. But above else, I am a sincere person. And it is sincerity that has lead me to this workplace, and it is my sincerity that has lead me to the situation I am in.

「あなたはいつも真っ直ぐに見て、真っ直ぐに進んでいて、それはSのようでとてもいいことですが、some people will look at you and think it strange/bad. Sometimes it is good to try to see things from other people's perspective.」

I now know what this kind of situation looks like, I now know what other people see, I now know what other people don't see, and I now know more about how other people think about and live their lives.

I truly believe that I am on the correct path. This is who I am. This is who I want to be. And even if everyone else I meet in this world from now on isn't like this, this is who I will be.

I might get tired, I might need to take a break, but I will keep going.

[amerifuu]

Ooooh my god, the joy of coming home from work late at night knowing that you have a new episode of Ah Xu and Lao Wen waiting for you ❤️😭😭😭

[amerifuu]

[yunmew]

-_-

Made the mistake of starting Word of Honor.

I had read that it had finished airing so I started watching, but I didn't realize that it hasn't finished releasing on YouTube???

I have to wait until May 5th!?!?

😭😭😭

[amerifuu]

Well, it's Tuesday night and I've just finished watching the latest episode released this week for the second day in a row. 🤦

This show is soooooo good though omgggg👀

[amerifuu]

さくらさくら今でも

さくらさく消えない

さくらさくら僕等の

さくらさく物語

2021.03.29 & 2021.03.27

[amerifuu]

I'm going to be honest - infinite thank yous to Siruko-san 🙏🙇

[amerifuu]

If there is anything that came out of this (3 day) week, I finally have been able to pray again, and when trying to help work out the difficulties of my working situation my Japanese colleague made an Eva reference 🙏🏽

[amerifuu]

❤️😢

[amerifuu]

あと2ヶ月もたないかも😞