revamped introduction post since it's no longer mainly a diary.
My name's Lovely or Tez, or Theo. Call me whatever honestly. I'm 19, Polish and use all and any pronouns! I speak polish, English and a bit of German. I'd love to be mutuals if you find my posts interesting!!!
I mainly post about whatever I'm obsessing over atm, which right now is qsmp 2! I also post about my life and vents sometimes, which might be a little triggering but I try to avoid strong descriptive language. I love making moodboards and headcanons and analysis are my favourite parts of being in any fandom!!
besides being chronically online lately, I'm a high school graduate, a tailoring school student and a tutor. I'm generally interested in fashion, subcultures and everything to do with the 80s!!
be warned, it used to be a personal, borderline pro ana blog, scroll too far down at your own risk!!
Don't be afraid to send me asks or dm's! Love y'all, stay safe and sound!!! . ପ(๑ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ଓ
I'm watching graf's vod from literally an hour ago cuz I didn't get the notification he streamed so under the cut is all my "live" reactions. enjoy or something
why is his skin red. what is this new skin.
Q!Graf, looking at the Polski Cave teleport: "maybe not" WHAT DO YOU MEAN. GRAF. WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THIS.
Juan: we'll talk later, I have something to tell you Graf: I cannot do that" OH MY GOOOOD IS IT THE CHIP GETTING STRONGER?? okay he's acting very weird and he's acting confused as hell but also like he's in slow motion like is this the chip getting stronger because of the radar or is it just the guilt hitting him in the face?
"kiedy wchodzisz między wrony musisz krakac jak one" CO. O JA PIERDOLE CO.
okej ludzie w czacie twierdzili że chip całkiem przestał działać przez bycie w netherze cały tydzień (lorowy ig) może to prawda?? ale w takim razie czemu mu tak źle? czy nie jest przyzwyczajony "myśleć sam" już więc jest tym przytłoczony? boże jakie to kurwa skomplikowane ja chcę żebyście wiedzieli że ja to przeżywam jakby moje własne życie od tego zależało
ewrona wyzywa jak dawniej to się zgadza. pieski kocha nadal to się zgadza okej okej. patrzy podejrzliwie na portret multiego???????????????
oho z panem chemia nowej ery się nie lubimy okej CZEMU ZNISZCZYŁ TELEPORT DO POLSKIEGO CAVEA
czemu znowu idziemy do piekła. co się dzieje. chłopaki boję się.
qGraf: *nonszalancko wchodzi w lawę* nadal czuję. jest okej.
OOOOOOOOHHHHH MY CUBITO IS DISSOCIATING HARD!!!!!
"już wiedzą" okej ZAKŁADAM że chodzi o to że i Graf i Haiper podzielili się informacja o chipie z zaufanymi im ludźmi i teraz całe CNE wie o tym i mają przejebane? i dlatego też zniszczył teleport z cave'a do karczmy żeby cne nie mogło go tak łatwo i szybko znaleźć maybe?
"jeśli zamknie mnie w tej jebanej wiosce to wysadzę mu cały jebany reaktor" słuchaj jest taki fioletowy typ z którym musisz pomagać imo. on też miał taki plan. ale to jest ekscytujące mój strimer gotuje!!!!
mam nadzieję że ten kutasiarz q!Juan się nam na coś przyda tutaj chociaż cię wydał kurwa multiemu
"mam nadzieję że na mnie czeka" Orszeusz i Eurydyka kto? "ja bym na niego czekał" kurwa realnie ryczę Jezu. jebane Minecraft cubitos. zabije się.
someone animate this błagam.
"it burns" zakładam że ma być jedynie kryptyczną wiadomością podpowiedziom o tym że jest w netherze ALE ja biorę to jako potwierdzenie mojej teorii że chip się nagrzewa i wypala mu skórę od środka
"on nie przyjdzie" od CNE worker. ej a co jak dred zacznie się interesować juanem tylko z racji tego że grzebie w jego interesach i może pomóc grafowi? czego dred by raczej nie chciał?
graf kolegujacy się w piglinami #biglore
graf kurwa na wakacjach zrobił giga bigos w lorze większości serwera. MÓJ STRIMER!!!
Oraz chuj kanoniczny powód czemu nie ma Grafa, brat się chowa w netherze mhm mhm makes sense.
oraz chce tylko powiedzieć że jeśli był w netherze kilka dni = nie spał kilka dni = paranoja halucynacje inne gówno. wow teraz potrzebuje hurt/comfort po tym.
sigh thinking about multilingual........ full post ver! :D
okay I need to put this into sections to make it make sense in case someone who doesn't possess my brain reads this bullshit of a text post
So right before the chip if I remember correctly multilingual had very good toxic yaoi potential. I remember telling my platonic husband they're literally B.A.S. - "He's lying to me I'm lying to him, fuck it, guess we both ain't shit". I fucked with and loved this dynamic a whole lot, the messiness of constant betrayal and half-truths they were feeding each other. it was great!
At the beginning of the chip lore I mainly thought of them in a "master and puppet" kind of way, but also sort of "Frankenstein and his monster" way without the part where Frankenstein becomes scared of his own creation and decides to kill it or something (depending on the retelling I haven't read the book I'm sorry), but purely as qMulti loving qGraf mostly as his creation and less as a person, if at all. Generally I think qMulti maybe isn't incapable but is unwilling to love people, because he sees them as too complicated probably. This sort of dynamic is what I not so beautifully call "my brain says no but my dick says yes" sort of thing. It's of course extremely cruel to love someone only for the idealised version you have created in your head and tried to create using lobotomy, however, it's kinda hot. don't judge me we're both on Tumblr.com okay. (I'm proof reading this post and now I'm realising actually the part of Victor Frankenstein getting scared of his creation could also work out beautifully and very hotly with multilingual. You know fear leads people to many places)
Right as they stand they're just so, so angsty. My mutual on tiktok, Biscuit, said it greatly themselves - Q!Multi is looking for trust while Q!Graf is looking for love, not knowing the answer for both is right next to them. (Biscuit's post was about the whole polish cave but that's besides the point here). I truly think that Graf is one of the best people to give Multi the trust and comfort he's searching for, which is precisely why he felt like he needed to chip Graf. I really, really think communication could save them and it's fucking killing meeeeee!!!!! Multi craves stability and trust and fears change, while Graf craves freedom and love and the one thing he fears is people's perception of himself. Also in my head he didn't tell Multi about his eyes changing colours (leading Multi to believe it was a symptom of radiation sickness) is also connected to Graf's fear of being vulnerable and being judged by others, especially for things that are "abnormal". The first person Graf told the truth about his eyes was Juan, who was also the first person Graf came out to. Yes it is that deep to me. I think that their whole thing is miscommunication, seriously. Graf doesn't trust Multi so he doesn't tell him even about his own stuff, which hurts Multi and makes him scared Graf is gonna betray and leave him. But Multi also doesn't provide many reasons for Graf to trust him, probably due to his paranoia, but that just makes things even more complicated for them.
If they were to work out, which I know they won't unfortunately because even if they work out their issues Multi has a whole thing going on with qQuackity and now Katie too so I don't feel like there's a chance at a canonical relationship, I would see them as the sort of relationship where they could balance eachother out very nicely actually. Multi's disdain for much of the population could be eased by Graf's love for getting to know people and their culture and experiences. Graf's need for love would very easily be sustained by the most obsessive guy on the server, like, cmon. They could make such a wacky and insanely smart couple. Their brains together would be so powerful too. To me qGraf is well versed in humanistic sciences like linguistics and anthropology, while qMulti is very much a scientific STEM guy, and their combined knowledge and hunger for more would work amazingly together. They're also to me the calm in each other's storms. I feel like qGraf could be very comforting during whatever paranoia episode Multi could have, providing regulation and emotional stability, while Multi would be the kind of guy to give Graf very logical explanations often backed by science to whatever trouble he could be facing, treating them like an equation he has to solve.
I need more chainedlynx fanfics :((( please guys :((((
Ok so. This post is sooooooooooooo yummy I love it so much oh my god. I really like to think about multi having the least barriers put up around graf out of all of the polish people. And because of that I really can’t get over the emotional stability graf could provide to multi that you mentioned here aaghshdjdbdj I really really love their twisted dynamic.
AND ALSO ABOUT MULTI AND GRAF SCIENCE THINGIES. OK SO. Consider this: I might be incredibly biased bc of my uni experiences but here we go. I see multi more as a science/biology/chemistry guy specifically, not STEM. Because. In my mind I feel like he dislikes math. And as much as he looooves experimenting and conducting research, he fucking hates doing the statistics and methodology and math needed for it. AND SO. Graf helps him with that since he’s great at stuff like that. And multi does all of the actual research while graf helps him with the technical side of stuff :]
they could make such a cute nerdy couple who helps each other out with each other's research and stuff :(
very random addition but now I'm thinking of interactions like. qGraf asking a hypothetical question that leads to qMulti conducting a semi (or very) unethical research project to be able to give Graf the answer. and also I'M SO HAPPY YOU LIKED IT MOOTIEEEEE <333
I'm watching graf's vod from literally an hour ago cuz I didn't get the notification he streamed so under the cut is all my "live" reactions. enjoy or something
why is his skin red. what is this new skin.
Q!Graf, looking at the Polski Cave teleport: "maybe not" WHAT DO YOU MEAN. GRAF. WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THIS.
Juan: we'll talk later, I have something to tell you Graf: I cannot do that" OH MY GOOOOD IS IT THE CHIP GETTING STRONGER?? okay he's acting very weird and he's acting confused as hell but also like he's in slow motion like is this the chip getting stronger because of the radar or is it just the guilt hitting him in the face?
"kiedy wchodzisz między wrony musisz krakac jak one" CO. O JA PIERDOLE CO.
okej ludzie w czacie twierdzili że chip całkiem przestał działać przez bycie w netherze cały tydzień (lorowy ig) może to prawda?? ale w takim razie czemu mu tak źle? czy nie jest przyzwyczajony "myśleć sam" już więc jest tym przytłoczony? boże jakie to kurwa skomplikowane ja chcę żebyście wiedzieli że ja to przeżywam jakby moje własne życie od tego zależało
ewrona wyzywa jak dawniej to się zgadza. pieski kocha nadal to się zgadza okej okej. patrzy podejrzliwie na portret multiego???????????????
oho z panem chemia nowej ery się nie lubimy okej CZEMU ZNISZCZYŁ TELEPORT DO POLSKIEGO CAVEA
czemu znowu idziemy do piekła. co się dzieje. chłopaki boję się.
qGraf: *nonszalancko wchodzi w lawę* nadal czuję. jest okej.
OOOOOOOOHHHHH MY CUBITO IS DISSOCIATING HARD!!!!!
"już wiedzą" okej ZAKŁADAM że chodzi o to że i Graf i Haiper podzielili się informacja o chipie z zaufanymi im ludźmi i teraz całe CNE wie o tym i mają przejebane? i dlatego też zniszczył teleport z cave'a do karczmy żeby cne nie mogło go tak łatwo i szybko znaleźć maybe?
"jeśli zamknie mnie w tej jebanej wiosce to wysadzę mu cały jebany reaktor" słuchaj jest taki fioletowy typ z którym musisz pomagać imo. on też miał taki plan. ale to jest ekscytujące mój strimer gotuje!!!!
mam nadzieję że ten kutasiarz q!Juan się nam na coś przyda tutaj chociaż cię wydał kurwa multiemu
"mam nadzieję że na mnie czeka" Orszeusz i Eurydyka kto? "ja bym na niego czekał" kurwa realnie ryczę Jezu. jebane Minecraft cubitos. zabije się.
someone animate this błagam.
"it burns" zakładam że ma być jedynie kryptyczną wiadomością podpowiedziom o tym że jest w netherze ALE ja biorę to jako potwierdzenie mojej teorii że chip się nagrzewa i wypala mu skórę od środka
"on nie przyjdzie" od CNE worker. ej a co jak dred zacznie się interesować juanem tylko z racji tego że grzebie w jego interesach i może pomóc grafowi? czego dred by raczej nie chciał?
graf kolegujacy się w piglinami #biglore
graf kurwa na wakacjach zrobił giga bigos w lorze większości serwera. MÓJ STRIMER!!!
Oraz chuj kanoniczny powód czemu nie ma Grafa, brat się chowa w netherze mhm mhm makes sense.
oraz chce tylko powiedzieć że jeśli był w netherze kilka dni = nie spał kilka dni = paranoja halucynacje inne gówno. wow teraz potrzebuje hurt/comfort po tym.
sigh thinking about multilingual........ full post ver! :D
okay I need to put this into sections to make it make sense in case someone who doesn't possess my brain reads this bullshit of a text post
So right before the chip if I remember correctly multilingual had very good toxic yaoi potential. I remember telling my platonic husband they're literally B.A.S. - "He's lying to me I'm lying to him, fuck it, guess we both ain't shit". I fucked with and loved this dynamic a whole lot, the messiness of constant betrayal and half-truths they were feeding each other. it was great!
At the beginning of the chip lore I mainly thought of them in a "master and puppet" kind of way, but also sort of "Frankenstein and his monster" way without the part where Frankenstein becomes scared of his own creation and decides to kill it or something (depending on the retelling I haven't read the book I'm sorry), but purely as qMulti loving qGraf mostly as his creation and less as a person, if at all. Generally I think qMulti maybe isn't incapable but is unwilling to love people, because he sees them as too complicated probably. This sort of dynamic is what I not so beautifully call "my brain says no but my dick says yes" sort of thing. It's of course extremely cruel to love someone only for the idealised version you have created in your head and tried to create using lobotomy, however, it's kinda hot. don't judge me we're both on Tumblr.com okay. (I'm proof reading this post and now I'm realising actually the part of Victor Frankenstein getting scared of his creation could also work out beautifully and very hotly with multilingual. You know fear leads people to many places)
Right as they stand they're just so, so angsty. My mutual on tiktok, Biscuit, said it greatly themselves - Q!Multi is looking for trust while Q!Graf is looking for love, not knowing the answer for both is right next to them. (Biscuit's post was about the whole polish cave but that's besides the point here). I truly think that Graf is one of the best people to give Multi the trust and comfort he's searching for, which is precisely why he felt like he needed to chip Graf. I really, really think communication could save them and it's fucking killing meeeeee!!!!! Multi craves stability and trust and fears change, while Graf craves freedom and love and the one thing he fears is people's perception of himself. Also in my head he didn't tell Multi about his eyes changing colours (leading Multi to believe it was a symptom of radiation sickness) is also connected to Graf's fear of being vulnerable and being judged by others, especially for things that are "abnormal". The first person Graf told the truth about his eyes was Juan, who was also the first person Graf came out to. Yes it is that deep to me. I think that their whole thing is miscommunication, seriously. Graf doesn't trust Multi so he doesn't tell him even about his own stuff, which hurts Multi and makes him scared Graf is gonna betray and leave him. But Multi also doesn't provide many reasons for Graf to trust him, probably due to his paranoia, but that just makes things even more complicated for them.
If they were to work out, which I know they won't unfortunately because even if they work out their issues Multi has a whole thing going on with qQuackity and now Katie too so I don't feel like there's a chance at a canonical relationship, I would see them as the sort of relationship where they could balance eachother out very nicely actually. Multi's disdain for much of the population could be eased by Graf's love for getting to know people and their culture and experiences. Graf's need for love would very easily be sustained by the most obsessive guy on the server, like, cmon. They could make such a wacky and insanely smart couple. Their brains together would be so powerful too. To me qGraf is well versed in humanistic sciences like linguistics and anthropology, while qMulti is very much a scientific STEM guy, and their combined knowledge and hunger for more would work amazingly together. They're also to me the calm in each other's storms. I feel like qGraf could be very comforting during whatever paranoia episode Multi could have, providing regulation and emotional stability, while Multi would be the kind of guy to give Graf very logical explanations often backed by science to whatever trouble he could be facing, treating them like an equation he has to solve.
I need more chainedlynx fanfics :((( please guys :((((
for multi and graf i feel like at beginning they both were in the wrong. sure what multi did to foolish at beginning was bad but at the same time imagine trusting someone just for them to turn around and share your secrets with others. it's the misunderstanding that led them to the chipping (well also multi's paranoia and finally getting the final push to do it from the federation). Multi is such a tragic character to me in a way bcs he is evil and messed up in many ways but at the same time he yearns to be close with people and when he doesn't gets the trust he wants he becomes even more paranoid. on one hand what multi did was messed up but on the other i also kinda understand him.
to be absolutely honest I agree, I wouldn't say Multi's feelings of betrayal are at all unprompted or wrong. Graf was trying to play at two fronts and we all know how it ends. I honestly wish they would have an honest conversation more than once when graf was getting chipped (I still can't get over this scene it was so cold) because I don't want them to despise each other. Obviously maybe chipping your friend isn't the best idea but Graf was playing with fire since week one so.
also ngl I completely forgot the federation asked to chip Graf, somehow that slipped my mind. Multi's and Graf's separate views on the feds will also probably cause a big misunderstanding once the chip is over but I'm so excited to see what happens.
I have my notifications turned off for every app besides messenger and Tumblr so I didn't get the notification that graf streamed today (ig yesterday) and I wanted to watch the VOD since I'm waiting for my mum to fall asleep so I can have a smoke. AND THIS DUMBASS CHOOSES TODAY OF ALL DAYS TO START THE STREAM WITH "guys, I wanted to apologize" I'M GONNA RIP HIS HEAD OFF I THOUGHT HE ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING FUCKING TERRIBLE AND I WASN'T AWARE. OH MY GOD. anyways I'm calm now.
sigh thinking about multilingual........ full post ver! :D
okay I need to put this into sections to make it make sense in case someone who doesn't possess my brain reads this bullshit of a text post
So right before the chip if I remember correctly multilingual had very good toxic yaoi potential. I remember telling my platonic husband they're literally B.A.S. - "He's lying to me I'm lying to him, fuck it, guess we both ain't shit". I fucked with and loved this dynamic a whole lot, the messiness of constant betrayal and half-truths they were feeding each other. it was great!
At the beginning of the chip lore I mainly thought of them in a "master and puppet" kind of way, but also sort of "Frankenstein and his monster" way without the part where Frankenstein becomes scared of his own creation and decides to kill it or something (depending on the retelling I haven't read the book I'm sorry), but purely as qMulti loving qGraf mostly as his creation and less as a person, if at all. Generally I think qMulti maybe isn't incapable but is unwilling to love people, because he sees them as too complicated probably. This sort of dynamic is what I not so beautifully call "my brain says no but my dick says yes" sort of thing. It's of course extremely cruel to love someone only for the idealised version you have created in your head and tried to create using lobotomy, however, it's kinda hot. don't judge me we're both on Tumblr.com okay. (I'm proof reading this post and now I'm realising actually the part of Victor Frankenstein getting scared of his creation could also work out beautifully and very hotly with multilingual. You know fear leads people to many places)
Right as they stand they're just so, so angsty. My mutual on tiktok, Biscuit, said it greatly themselves - Q!Multi is looking for trust while Q!Graf is looking for love, not knowing the answer for both is right next to them. (Biscuit's post was about the whole polish cave but that's besides the point here). I truly think that Graf is one of the best people to give Multi the trust and comfort he's searching for, which is precisely why he felt like he needed to chip Graf. I really, really think communication could save them and it's fucking killing meeeeee!!!!! Multi craves stability and trust and fears change, while Graf craves freedom and love and the one thing he fears is people's perception of himself. Also in my head he didn't tell Multi about his eyes changing colours (leading Multi to believe it was a symptom of radiation sickness) is also connected to Graf's fear of being vulnerable and being judged by others, especially for things that are "abnormal". The first person Graf told the truth about his eyes was Juan, who was also the first person Graf came out to. Yes it is that deep to me. I think that their whole thing is miscommunication, seriously. Graf doesn't trust Multi so he doesn't tell him even about his own stuff, which hurts Multi and makes him scared Graf is gonna betray and leave him. But Multi also doesn't provide many reasons for Graf to trust him, probably due to his paranoia, but that just makes things even more complicated for them.
If they were to work out, which I know they won't unfortunately because even if they work out their issues Multi has a whole thing going on with qQuackity and now Katie too so I don't feel like there's a chance at a canonical relationship, I would see them as the sort of relationship where they could balance eachother out very nicely actually. Multi's disdain for much of the population could be eased by Graf's love for getting to know people and their culture and experiences. Graf's need for love would very easily be sustained by the most obsessive guy on the server, like, cmon. They could make such a wacky and insanely smart couple. Their brains together would be so powerful too. To me qGraf is well versed in humanistic sciences like linguistics and anthropology, while qMulti is very much a scientific STEM guy, and their combined knowledge and hunger for more would work amazingly together. They're also to me the calm in each other's storms. I feel like qGraf could be very comforting during whatever paranoia episode Multi could have, providing regulation and emotional stability, while Multi would be the kind of guy to give Graf very logical explanations often backed by science to whatever trouble he could be facing, treating them like an equation he has to solve.
I need more chainedlynx fanfics :((( please guys :((((
in honour of pride month and me not wanting to do anything actually useful with my time, here's my Queer SMP 2 headcanons (not all characters as I don't know them all this well) I hope you enjoy!! And also please bear in mind those are my headcanons and we don't gotta agree, big love!
In Polska Husaria:
- Ewroon, evil gay man. I won't call him an evil twink because I don't see him as a twink. Does nothing for the community but use his sexuality as a shield against insults towards him and for an occasional joke. evil!!!! kinda jk tho cuz I feel like he wouldn't do anything to intentionally hurt the community but also wouldn't make it better in any way yk. anyways. I'd say he's mostly a man, not fully cis tho? he/she pronouns, I feel like he's not quite woke enough for any pronouns. To me Ewronka was more cross dressing than drag but it's not set in stone for me
(him and his Ewronka situation remind me of the song "you think you're a man" by Divine a little bit)
- Nexe333, I see him as a genuinely homophobic gay man. like he genuinely doesn't like gay men and is pissed off he's one of them. "raz w dupę to nie gej", so he tried it once and stuck to topping. I'd say he has a lot of toxic masculinity in himself, which is why he has the stance he has, mainly based on the stereotype of flamboyant gay men. Not into the community at all, calls many things and identities weird and doesn't care to do research or educate himself. Like he doesn't go out of his way to be disrespectful and homophobic either but also wouldn't feel bothered to make change for the better. cis, he/him. it/it's for dog reasons tho
- Multi, hm. I'd say q!multi is gay too, actually. Probably gay and demiromantic. I think he's very casual about his identity and probably a bit inexperienced?? in my head he's still figuring himself out, but isn't actually doing anything towards it cuz he's busy being a scientist. "I'm probably non-binary but I have work so that's not my problem rn" kinda mentality. Agender, apagender, he/him because he's used to those but feels indifferent towards other pronouns imo.
- Graf. I had to throw out my whole previous headcanons cuz of his recent lore. I think he's a gay man who went through the "I'm straight obviously" -> "wait maybe I'm bi" -> "oh no I'm gay" pipeline. Obviously struggles with accepting his identity. In my head q!Graf is also ftm trans, having transitioned at an early age, like went stealth in highschool or even mid middle school kinda early age. His identity crisis is even worse since he grew up to accept himself as a straight trans man, and now his new found lack of attraction for girls is making him question literally everything. He's very informed in the community though, like he's supportive towards everyone but himself type shit. He/him, would feel a bit confused if called anything else.
- Haiper (yes I'm counting him in fuck y'all) I'm honestly not sure. I'm literally gnawing at the bars of my enclosure trying not to say he's a soft boy kinda gay but he lowk is, in my head he's like an oc from 2017 I'm so sorry. pastel blue, overalls, flower crowns and scraped knees type shit!!!!!! idk dude that's him in my head I'm sorry!!!!! really shy and blushy and stuff. he's gender funky to me, not sure what kind of genderqueer so I'll just leave it at that. any pronouns question mark? and a preference towards feminine descriptors and compliments but that may be my soft boy view of him, sorry 😔😔😔
- Quackity. an evil bisexual man. Not like genuinely harmful to the community but he's still an evil bisexual man in my eyes. Polyamorous too, obviously, but I feel like he couldn't make a throuple or anything work so being in the messiest polycule that is the Poli cave is great for him. Cis man but uses all pronouns imo.
- Roier. I think he's canonically gay?? and I don't really see him as anything else honestly. He's the sorta guy that everyone somehow forgets is in the community (based on him having to tell his father Vegetta that he's not gonna marry Pressea because he's freaking gay and not about to marry a hamster woman). I'd say he looks the most fun to go to a gay club with. Cis He/him I think.
In The North:
- Juan, HEAR ME OUT PLEASE!! and again this is only based on q2 since I haven't seen much of the first season, so if I'm spewing bullshit inform me. In my eyes he's aromantic, romance repulsed, and bisexual. I don't think he's pursued anyone romantically on the server, while having at least two very much sexual relationships (Cucurucho/actually Robleis and Ewronka) He seems very uncomfortable with the idea of romance but I think he tells himself it's just that he's not ready yet no matter how long it's been. Experienced and informed in queer business imo, forgets that people may still be afraid of coming out or homophobic because he's been living openly queer for some time now. Cis He/him me thinks, I don't see him as genderqueer in anyway.
- Tina, MY FAVOURITE DOOMED LESBIAN!! I think she accepted herself very easily tho in her later teens/adolescence. Like she never had a boyfriend cuz she thought boys are ew and realised one day that she actually likes girls and it all made sense. No comphet no nothing. She's also giving demigirl to me? and demi in general. Would call herself a man-eater lesbian and I support that with whole heart and other guts. Very woke very informed and active in the community. She/they, no he cuz men are terrible.
- Crystal Mollyyyyy, I'd say she's an unbothered queer queen. Besides being a trans woman, I'd say she has a "I love who I love" stance and I love that for her. Will not appreciate when someone tries to fit a label on her and will make it known imo. In my head she kinda takes on the role of the elder queer in the server, being the founder of the Gay Night Club and all, I think people come to her when they have troubles and she always offers them space to let out their frustrations and dance out their feelings! Her vibe is just so sweet and wholesome. Absolute safe space. She/her trans mtf :]
- Foolish I think isn't aware he's bisexual. Like he never really thought about it. He totally is but like his relationship with Vegetta just kinda happened to him I think and he never questioned it. He/him
- Vegetta is a gay man who only realised it after marrying his first wife and having multiple kids I think. Like in my head Roier and SenpaiSpider are both his biological children. He/him technically but he'd rather you call him the full title of King Vegetta 777 when you refer to him in conversation.
god how many people are in this house I need to get on the wiki.
S.I.A, I'm putting them together and away from the north cuz I love darklight/angeldemon duo. and also I felt the north list was getting too crowded:
- Senpai Spider, I think he's MLM. doesn't call himself gay specifically but would call himself a homo. that's the vibe I'm getting. Would he date a woman? Don't know, I don't think he ever has. I enjoy the thought of him being bigender 🤔 so he/she imo.
- Ishan is aroace and bi (#mojziomtoja), specifically he finds everyone beautiful and experiences aesthetic, physical and emotional attraction, but not the romantic or sexual kind. I think he didn't really question himself and his identity when he was younger but when he found a label that fit him it all clicked. Biggest cutie, supportive of everyone no matter their label or lack of one. Idk I don't have much to say here. He/him but idk if he's cis, i don't think he knows either.
Ishan and Spider are a QPR, Spider is romantically interested in Ishan but respects his identity, which is why he always clarifies they kiss and say "I love you" only "As bros" when anyone questions it. They still use the label of boyfriend for each other because they're already business partners so it made no sense to use it as an endearing term. I also enjoy the idea of Ishan calling Spider boyfriend and girlfriend interchangeably with the pronouns, "she's my boyfriend/he's my girlfriend" type shiiiiii
The Regimeeeee (this is y'all's great fraction? it seems to be shrinking idkkkk hihihi)
- AshSwag is the most grey romantic person ever. Bro doesn't understand the appeal of romance at all!! also I feel like he misunderstands most big feelings for romantic ones, making him even more unsure of what the fuck romance should be about. He's as much a boy as a glitch can get. He/him, for a second I wanted to say he/it but actually no he'd hate that with his whole heart.
- Katie, and I repeat Q!Katie to me is like that one PE teacher who's always wearing a baseball cap and jorts with rainbow socks so you just assume she's a lesbian up until she drops the fact she has a husband randomly. Noone expected that but pop off. I still think she's bi or otherwise wlw tho (go saucekitten, go!!!) She's a cis woman in my head, she/her
I genuinely can't think of any headcanons for the Dutch guys. maybe I don't watch them enough but yeah. Shappo is the most bisexual guy I've ever seen but the rest of them?? I don't fucking know?? Also this draft got deleted twice so I'm leaving it at this. maybe I'll edit it one day 😭 happy pride, stay safe, love you my queers!
update because fuck transphobes, Q!Nexe is the wokest transmasc gay boy ever.
if anyone cares, some of my ramblings, opinions and feelings are under the cut
I'm gonna be completely honest, I'm used to the disappointment because I played these games before during the dsmp. However that does not change that noone, and especially not a content creator whose voice matters to a lot of young people, should be saying such bullshit as "trans people do it for attention", call being trans being not normal and have such a nasty attitude.
I had a bit of hope when he voiced his opinion about the Fariis situation, however I've had a distaste for Nexe for quite a bit. His continuous hypocrisy and inability to admit when he did something wrong is just disappointing and stupid for someone his age. He uses AI while also claiming to hate it (even recently feeding a sketch done by an actual artist to some generative AI), makes borderline distasteful jokes while claiming it's fine because "he doesn't care about anything", acts very disrespectful towards his fanartists in my opinion (here I mainly mean that he focuses purely on his transphobic/homophobic feelings a lot when commenting the fanart people worked hard on, complaining about how artists "make him look like a girl" and stuff like that. I rarely see him compliment fanarts but also I'm a graf viewer so maybe my perspective is too skewed). What personally hurt me the most was his dog shit opinion on suicide, claiming it's egotistical and the most selfish thing a person can do. He said suicide is the easy way out "when life isn't supposed to be easy". While Nexe claims his opinion is valid because he had self destructive thoughts before, to me as someone who has a history of suicide attempts and self harm - it's fucking bullshit.
I'm really sorry that people had to see/hear what his dumbass is saying. Nexe to me seems to think his actions and words have no consequences and forgets that he isn't just some random guy with five guy friends who can say whatever bigoted shit he feels like, but a public person whose words leave an impression on hundreds of people, most of them being teenagers.
Fuck transphobes, fuck homophobes, I love you all and I hope you know you're loved and amazing no matter what people, who lack basic respect for people just based on their identity, have to say about you. 🫶
There's wholesome ships and there's toxic ships, but I'd like to coin 'sodium chloride ships', where the individuals involved are both horrible and dangerous people, but somehow being together renders them surprisingly well-adjusted (if a little salty).
The opposite of this is a 'coke and mentos' dynamic, where the two people are generally chill and likeable but being around each other makes them both wild and chaotic.
