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internally scolding myself for slacking off the whole fucking day.

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wrote another substack kasi why not? Relying Happiness on Others

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shs 🥰

Senior High School Jitters

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sadly, you know nothing

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if only my eyes could take photos, i could've took thousands just to capture that monent.

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it suddenly hits me that i'm not ready for this

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bawat araw mo nalang dinadagdagan yung sakit na nararamdaman ko para sayo, gaano katagal pa ba? ganto nalang ba ko lagi? papanoorin ka sa malayo habang ako nandito parin ni hindi ko kayang gumalaw? anong ginawa kong mali para maging ganto?

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ah so they're both fine with who i am rn kasi they're sure na mag babago pako, well i don't think i will

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oh paraluman, bat ka lumisan?

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can't find the post of me saying how cool it would be to die bc of drinking strong coffee. literal muntik na two days ago lang.

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pagod nako putangina gusto ko lang matulog please lang tama na

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had somewhat an amazing two days but it suddenly doesn't matter because i can't tell you all about it.

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grabe disappointment ko nung nagising ako kaninang umaga

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never was, never will be

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realized na i'm actually back to skipping meals and sleeping late bc of thinking. and these two don't even notice or bother.

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F2F NA NEXT YEAR ASDFGHJKL

Masaya aq kasi makakalabas nako sa haus pero rip sa social anxiety kong lumalala rip future perez i am scared