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Watching criminal minds season 18 and the way āmy fatherā is sending me rn š³š²
Radical reading tip:
If you want to read more but canāt afford to buy copies of books, you can go to a library or if you donāt have the time for that, lots of classic books become available for free on e-reading platforms. Iām talking crime and punishment, Shakespeare, Nietzsche, Kant, Spinoza, Descartes, etc. (yes I like philosophy).
Works that have outlived their authors by a long long time where spending money on a book will no longer be benefiting them.
If you can, always go to the library, because they need to be supported, and also because the amount of books that you can get for free there will be a much greater selection than the classics I discussed in this post.
Okay but I saw something about other people being unable to separate art from artist, book from author, and the ending of this post was basically that it was not just okay, but important to engage in these works. That doing so does push the bounds of your own morals, ethics, and perspectives, and that thatās exactly why you engage in them.
And I agree, but I think itās too vague.
The reason itās important is the way you respond to the work. When you see something thatās been written and can identify the part of it that is wrong, that is racist, or sexist, or whatever is wrong with it, that is the point. You are training your sense of judgment and morals.
When you read a fairy tale, everything is fine and dandy. Not really any intricacies. But my favorite example of why something subversive can help with this is by looking at Dexter. And yeah, itās fictional, which is definitely different from someone doing real-life harm with real-life issues. But there are a lot of moral complexities involved- why do we root for him? Is killing other serial killers enough to differentiate him from them? Is it because he loves his girlfriend, his sister, Cory and Astor? What is it?
And the reason itās my favorite example is because part of the whole fun of watching Dexter is this debate. People who watch the show watch it because itās fun to exercise their judgment in relation to their morals. But itās also important because people who watch Dexter donāt watch thinking itās creating a moral code that they will follow. That it is at all okay to be a serial killer.
And thatās the kind of attitude we need to have towards all books. Itās not a straightforward moral code- itās an opportunity to learn, to see something different and use it to know yourself and where you stand better.
Also, pause for a moment and take a second to think about it from the opposite side. If a reader is homophobic, and out of that homophobia refuses to read a work written by someone who is LGBTQIA+, they will never develop their understanding, they will never have a change for their morals to change.
Developing your judgment is very important, and I think books and tv are very powerful tools for engaging in such scenarios.
I wanna fall in love so bad.
So being asexual is hard for a couple reasons. The obvious is the romantic relationships, where different perceptions can clash and make things harder (for those who arenāt aromantic).
But nobody talks about friendships, and the casual nature of sexual disclosure in the modern friendship that almost excludes those who arenāt interested or open to sharing. Like, Iām down for a joke of āIād fuck them,ā but only when itās super clear to everyone in the vicinity that I AM ace and thatās why itās funny. But otherwise, thereās not much I can contribute to a conversation around sex in a way that becomes almost a buzzkill?
And while this particular issue is something Iāve experienced because Iām Ace, this would also apply to anyone who isnāt as open about talking about sex, or is maybe Christian and waiting for marriage.
Itās frustrating enough that this controls my romantic relationships, but to also then control my platonic ones with every new person I meet is frustrating.
My new favorite show is The Hunting Party and they better give us a season 3.
I mean- Melissa Roxburgh from Manifest? Amazing. Chefs kiss. Just enough psychological profiler for a team hunting down serial killers, but perfectly balanced with her teammates in a way that doesnāt make you think theyāre just copying Criminal Minds.
Nick Wechsler from Revenge and Roswell? No longer boy next door, but somehow still whipped for the girl.
The serial killers? All unique. Again, avoiding the Criminal Minds stereotype of white middle aged men who stab people because itās a form of penetration. Each of these killers is creepy in their own unique way, with an added touch of psychological horror from how therapy has changed their obsessions.
The background plot? Not overwhelming in any episode, but still consistent and compelling. Shows you hidden sides of the characters while also letting you know that they are not just 2-d ideasā that they also question the government, the Pit, and what the real motive in making a secret prison is.
I really enjoy this show. Iām on season 2. Give me a season 3 please and donāt sacrifice yet another tv show.
WHY IS PRINCE CHARMING HERE???
My new favorite show is The Hunting Party and they better give us a season 3.
I mean- Melissa Roxburgh from Manifest? Amazing. Chefs kiss. Just enough psychological profiler for a team hunting down serial killers, but perfectly balanced with her teammates in a way that doesnāt make you think theyāre just copying Criminal Minds.
Nick Wechsler from Revenge and Roswell? No longer boy next door, but somehow still whipped for the girl.
The serial killers? All unique. Again, avoiding the Criminal Minds stereotype of white middle aged men who stab people because itās a form of penetration. Each of these killers is creepy in their own unique way, with an added touch of psychological horror from how therapy has changed their obsessions.
The background plot? Not overwhelming in any episode, but still consistent and compelling. Shows you hidden sides of the characters while also letting you know that they are not just 2-d ideasā that they also question the government, the Pit, and what the real motive in making a secret prison is.
I really enjoy this show. Iām on season 2. Give me a season 3 please and donāt sacrifice yet another tv show.
Watching The Hunting Party and the product placement for the Microsoft surface pro is EVERYWHERE but they did it so subtle, like theyāre actually trying to convince the audience that everyone uses it š
Watching season 22 of Law and order and figuring out where The Pitt got their cast. ļæ¼
OK, so Iām finally caught up on high potential. Donāt know how I fell behind, but I did and now Iām not.
I have one, I guess, plot hole? that I want to say somewhere.
And itās Morganās clothes. Like, Iām sorry, but it feels very unrealistic. And Iām not talking about her sense of fashion- the colors, the heels, the big jackets. I love that. Iām talking about budget.
Before she starts being a consultant, sheās a janitor. And before that, other menial jobs that presumably left little savings. With three kids. And while she does have an ex who is helping to support the kids, we see that this is not enough. Her car is constantly breaking down and she canāt afford to repair it. She doesnāt have money to do a lot of things for her kids. Thatās a huge reason why she takes the job as the consultant in the first place.
But through the course of the show, I donāt think Iāve seen her repeat one piece of clothing. Which Iām sure is possible, but it would be more realistic to me if we saw her repeat an article of clothing here there, maybe paired it up in a different way, maybe turning a dress into a skirt or something.? anything. Because her outfits tend to balance pretty quality pieces with things that I suppose couldāve been gotten from somewhere cheap like Shein, but the pieces that are quality are also very trendy and donāt really make sense for her to have had for a long time or gotten from a vintage store. So the fact that she doesnāt really re-wear them is complicated.
Also, her shoes. Her shoes are also very specific, and I donāt know where she buys her shoes that she can get them to be that affordable. I suppose this collection couldāve been built up over a long period of time, as it would make sense for someone who likes to dress in such bold colors to consistently be buying shoes like this. But Iām just not sure how you get to the point that you have so many pairs of shoes that are also bold and never have to repeat a pair.
Idk. Itās not a big thing. I guess itās just one of those moments that Iām like āitās because itās a tv show and they have a tv show budgetā and itās not explained well in-universe.
TVD: Elena
OK, Iām on my TVD rewatch and I have some thoughts about Elena.
So, I have been the first person to say that they kind of bring Elenaās character downhill after season one. She becomes kind of a figure head, a MacGuffin, a plot device akin to the holy Grail, only there to move the plot forward.
And this isnāt anything that sheās done. Like, sheās the key to breaking the centuries-old curse, one side is fighting to kill her, the other side is to save her. She just is the holy Grail here.
However, I think the real critique is the fact that sheās willing to be sacrificed. That all of her friends and family are asking her to fight, literal strangers are telling her to fight, and instead she chooses to self-sacrifice, impeding her own rescue. I myself have been very annoyed at this.
But upon my most recent rewatch, I see more of what the writers were trying to do. This was a very extreme contrast to Katherine and her selfishness which got her family killed just so she could try to live. Throughout the show, they love to contrast Katherine and Elena. I think a large part of that is to demonstrate the fact that Stefan and Damon are in love with Elena rather than a Katherine look-alike. I think itās also partially for the audienceās sake, so that they can distinguish the characters themselves.
I think the main issue is that they took it too far of an extreme- Katherine, for example, has moments where she does the right thing. She brings Damon the cure for the werewolf bite. She shows up for ļæ¼her daughter. Etc. But Elena, as the so-called āgood doppelgƤnger,ā is stuck in place as āgood.ā If she let Bonnie sacrifice herself for her, she would be falling into the Katherine realm of selfish, which is no good for the harsh archetypes that they have been casted in.
I could also go into how hypocritical it is for her to be the good one, as someone who dates and falls in love with a murderous psychopath, but I wonāt.
TVD plothole
Upon rewatch, I am deeply concerned about the fact that Elena and Jeremy did not recognize the ring the their father had been wearing, presumably their entire lives.
Like, theyāre all flustered and whatever along with Stefan and Damon when Alaric is like wow this ring seems like magic and neither of them says you know that looks a lot like our dadās ring?
Sus.
TVD: Carolineās relationships
Caroline x Matt:
This is a lonely x lonely relationship. It starts when Caroline is feeling especially vulnerable- sheās been called shallow, her mom isnāt a huge part of her life, her dad is away to be in a relationship with someone else, and her best friends, who admittedly have their own supernatural problems starting up, treat her as a secondary concern. This is also the only of the listed relationships where Caroline isnāt forced to change- well, she kinda is, but itās gradual. Itās her spot for character development, explaining herself more, and itās a development she chooses rather than being forced upon her.
On the other hand, Matt is also by himself. His mom is off in her own new relationship, and we can presume wasnāt super present beforehand. Vicky is dead, presumed run-away, just like everyone always knew she would. And while Matt is generally popular, on the football team, friends with the mayorās son, and everyone calling him the golden boy, we know this is fragile- he soon has to pick up a job for work, Tylerās a shit friend, and Elena has moved on from their relationship.
This is 10/10, with Matt seeing the loneliness in her and saying he knows what it feels like.
Caroline x Tyler
This is Vamp x Wolf. Newly supernatural, getting used to things, Caroline had her previous problems x 1000, feeling like she has to hide so much of who she is now.
Tyler is similarly lonely- his Dad especially was an SOB, his mom only slightly better with how stuck up she was. He could never live up to expectations and constantly alienated the relationships he had when he inevitably lashed out (ex. Making out with Mattās mom Jesus Christ get a grip). Similarly, he has a ton of secrets now with him being a wolf and going through changes (allegory for puberty, anyone?). From its great start, this relationship goes downhill and continues long by past its expiry date- Tyler couldnāt help the sire bond, but his ambiguous relationship with Hayley, bringing Caroline into the mix of things, all spelled disaster. But then just running away? Bruh.
9.5/10, not my fav because of the way it ended and he dragged her around. But they understood each other and thatās why it still holds up on rewatch. Also not great that her next relationship is the guy who killed his mom.
Caroline x Klaus
I think this is so popular because Klaus makes Caroline the IT Girl instead of Elena. I mean, seasons and seasons of Elana-this and Elena-that as everybody and their motherās first priority. And here tall dark and dangerous is swooning after Caroline. And the insecurity that drove Caroline to Damon, to want Stefan, was that nobody ever picked her. It speaks to the core issues that she has and how out of place sheās always felt. He gave her confidence.
And here Klaus is picking her again and again and again. Plus he is also Lonely Boy TM- despised by his father while his mother just watched on, he is the oddity, the freak, the one immortal in his family who knows thereās something wrong with him for being a wolf. The thing that killed his own brother. The reason his father, not his real father, could never love him. I mean, even his mother starts trying to kill him, after sheād already locked up his wolf side in a spell because she despised it so much. He couldnāt even trust his siblings to love him.
I donāt know how to phrase what Caroline does for Klaus. He gives her confidence, I think, caring about her makes him a little softer, a little bit more charming, and allows us to relate to him. I think the reason he fell for her was because he could see how similar they were and how lonely.
9/10, #justiceforauntjenna prevents me from giving full marks. (considering this, itās kind of a weird thing for Elena to be understanding about this relationship, like, girl. Come on.)
Caroline x Stefan
I think this was very full circle. Caroline initially had a crush on Stefan, and ends in love with Stefan. This initial relationship prevented their latter friendship from ever getting quite to the point of Lexi and Stefanās friendship, but they get close. They were both supportive of each other at their lowest, and I think Stefan needed that. He felt⦠accomplished almost? Seeing her doing so well. It reminded him that he could make it through, that he could stay on a diet when it got rough.
Not to mention, also lonely. Damn this show for this trend, but his dad killed him, mom ādiedā and ran away to make a new family, his brother later decided to torment him and Elena doesnāt choose him. Carolineās friendship and support got him through.
Not sure what Caroline got though? Or if her support had to end romantic in nature. For either of them. Felt rushed, like they wanted a solid ending to make Stefanās death more dramatic.
8/10, canāt decide if they shouldāve stayed friends or if their relationship works so well because they started off as friends which gives it a needed stability not found in the other relationships here.
Okay, but a moment for the double standards in TVD.
Like, not even going into a lot of the other problems, but Vicky? Vicky, Matt Donovanās sister. The girl Jeremy loved.
1. Vicky is killed for feeding on Elena⦠like more dangerous things havenāt happened? Like temporarily snapping her neck wasnāt an option? ??
2. Vicky was a drug addict and uncontrollable- but Damon isnāt?
3. The way the Vicky plot comes back briefly only when her body is found (and then the finale) but nobody ever says āhuh, that didnāt need to happen.ā Matt Donovan never says to Elena āI can fix himā Gilbert that, hey, maybe he doesnāt approve of her dating the guy who fed on and killed his sister.
4. They literally knew this girl their whole lives. Grew up with her. And her death is treated with less importance than the random guy Caroline accidentally kills at the fair.
5. Also, the whole āVicky is bad, sheāll kill peopleā argument does not last past season one. People are dying left right and center. Give the girl a break.
6. And them instead using the plot to make Damon seem more human and less monstrous????? Bruh
7. Everyone gets past the fact that Tyler was pressuring her into sex. Like, yeah, he was drunk, and weāre not really privy to whether he ever apologized or anything, but just ignoring it and never addressing it again rubs me the wrong way.
8. Not Stefan telling Elena that he had to figure out controlling himself on his own when we KNOW Lexi was the one behind it.
Anyway, Iām into my TVD rewatch and #justiceforvicky
In TVD why does nobody talk about the fact that Vicky is Mattās older sister???
Like, I thought she was younger. It makes it so much sense why it was weird for her to be dating Jeremy. He was a 15 year old freshman and she was an 18 year old senior. š
Okay, so Iām rewatching TVD yet again from season one. And from the pilot episode, I have to say that they did a good job with Stelena. It just⦠works.
But how much of that is Elena recovering from grief and Stefan being inherently broody?
And how much of that is Elena being compelled by Damon to pursue a passionate romance? To the point that she doesnāt care heās a vampire? That people have died? That sheāll pick him again and again and again in the face of the big bad?
(Noting that she says she broke up with Matt because it wasnāt āpassionate,ā right after she was compelled.)
And I think itās a combination of these facts that made them seem so good together, and also why they donāt seem to have as much chemistry as Delena (noting, also, the contributing factor of the actors themselves dating). Damon came to shake things up, a fact much more obvious in season one with Elena doing things like slapping him. When Stefan and Bonnie and everyone else encourages her to try and do old Elana things again, Damon tells her to quit if she doesnāt like it, and she does.
I think thatās why it works. Elena humanizes Damon, yes, but Damon also makes Elena seem more⦠alive. Not just āthe girlā or āthe doppelgƤngerā or āthe victim.ā His personality makes Elena seem like she has more for being with him.
You canāt have two self-sacrificing characters together because then their whole personality becomes about loving the other, the way Stelena does. Damon is selfish, mischievous, and an anti-hero. Thatās why it works.
(Also a lot of the plot wouldnāt make sense if they had him fall out of love with her, as Iām sure would have to happen with her constantly being with Stefan.)