Head-Empty. Just Vibes

Who gave me access to the internet. I over-share.

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On the Brian Moser of it all;

I think the reason it’s so hard for me to move on from this plot line is the fact that the show moves on so fast.

Like, yeah, he’s hot and charismatic and creating an interesting dynamic with Dexter and is the focus point of the entire first season. But unlike any of the other characters that come later, he had a bond with Dexter. It was there.

And then… Nothing.

It’s not like I was thrilled that he was kind of a pervert, in being a devotee if that’s what he was. It’s just that they never gave his storyline with Dexter any finality. We got one episode in season two and then one later on where he road trips to Kansas, where he even thinks about Brian.

And then it’s not until resurrection that we see him again. And when we do, Dexter brings it up to no one.

Dexter’s best friend, Angel, someone who literally calls him brother (hermano) is strapped to the same table thing that he killed his own brother on. And he doesn’t talk about jt. He doesn’t mention it as a stalling tactic, he doesn’t tell his son that hey he could’ve ended up worse. He just moves on.

And I guess that’s kind of on point since Dexter internalizes a lot of his worries and compulsions which Brian now seems to be a part of, but I think it just continues the theme of Brian insignificance and Dexter’s attempts to forget his past.

That was why I really liked the Dexter original sin plotline incorporating Brian. Brian was always there. He always wanted to be reunited with Dexter- it wasn’t just a random thought that came to him in his 30s. It was the first thing he tried to do. And I need to have something happen in the next season of Dexter Resurrection, where maybe the NHI killings are solved through new DNA evidence or something like that. Something something something that comes up and those dots are connected.

Because I understand why Dexter had to kill Brian- he was a threat that needed to be neutralized and could not be reasoned with. For Debra’s safety. But I was hoping it would provoke an emotional response in Dexter more often. Like how his dad’s does.

Anyway, I just need more to happen in the Dexter universe about Brian Moser. I need some of those blanks filled in about the relationship, I need some of the blanks filled in about Brian Moser in between original sin and the OG series. And I need Dexter and Henry to actually talk about him.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

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One of the most horrifying things coming with the popularization of AI is using AI to make little movies for the crappy, fanfiction, Ao3 type stories.

And, yeah, I just never needed to hear an AI voice talking about werewolves and mates and for forced bonding and all that crap. I especially didn’t need to see the AI generated images creating a video to watch along with it. It was only an ad, but I am scarred for life.

Furthermore, it’s almost, dare, I say it, Y/N of the AI when it makes stories like this.

Whatever happened to reading Wattpad at way too early of an age in the privacy and anonymity that can only belong to reading? 😭😭

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Guys. Marshal? From In Plain Sight?

Perfect.

The way he’s so totally in love with Mary?

Amazing.

The way he’s an awesome friend to her?

Fantastic.

The fact he’s just a little nerd with a gun? And the way he talks?

10/10.

My favorite little agent guy.

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Okay so I’m reading Crime and Punishment and besides the inconvenience of trying to squeeze reading an actual book into an adult life, I’m obsessed. It had been on my reading list for a while but I always put it off- worried a classic book like that would be boring, and I’d have to struggle my way through. I was wrong.

And now I don’t want it to end, and I’m in part 6, so if someone has another recommendation based off of this please pass it along.

Thanks.

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OK, so I just finished re-watching Haven for the first time since I think it first came out. And I did not remember the ending at all beyond the fact that Duke died. I knew that Audrey and Nathan lived, that they had their happily ever after, and that Duke died. That one fact, stuck with me so deeply. And the fact that the big bad at the end is her father.

Upon rewatch, I am still horrified with how they conducted this plotline.

Firstly, that was not a situation where Duke had to die. There are so many times in the series where Audrey tapped into powers that she didn’t know she had in order to save Nathan. It’s literally the whole plot line of her controlling the aether. They could’ve done some weird maneuvering, plot armor thing to make it work out.

Secondly even if it was a situation where Duke had to die, they do so many things where they bring people back to life, and they fight against the circumstances that are against them then it makes no sense for this death to be permanent. Hell, the very next episode, Nathan dies and is then brought back to life. It makes no sense that there was no way at all for Duke Crocker to be alive again.

Thirdly, even if they were going to kill Duke for the situation, even if they were going to make it so his death was permanent, to then have Audrey come back as Paige without her memories of him is a slap in the face. Especially because, from the little conversation we have at the end, it appears this was a choice that she made. It wasn’t that this was the only way for her to be back, which would have made it somewhat acceptable. It was that she chose to be a whole new person, “ so she could fall in love with Nathan again” even though it meant, forgetting all the people she cared for who risked their lives for her- including Duke.

And, yeah, that’s a long list of people to remember. But from the beginning, it’s been Nathan, Duke, and Audrey. The three of them against the world. Against everything that goes bump in the night. So forgetting him? Way bigger deal than what they made it out to be.

Lastly, even if they had to kill off Duke, make it permanent, and do the thing where Audrey becomes Paige and doesn’t remember anyone, they couldn’t have done something for Duke. Hell, I would have taken another little ghost vision of Duke, like the ones Dwight had took him to him to Nathan and helped him keep his daughter. Or even a slight mention of him from the two of them- maybe James’s middle name is Duke. Maybe Paige also has a dog named Duke. Maybe, she’s there to buy a boat from a man named Duke. Who the hell knows. But the fact that the only person who brought him up is Gloria? Blasphemy.

My issue isn’t even really that Duke was a favorite character of mine- I think my main issue is that they never would have done this to Nathan. If Nathan, for some reason, was the one who had problems with himself that was gonna hurt people and needed to be stopped and they decided one of them had to kill him? Duke would’ve said hell no. Or the very least, if they did go through with it, they would’ve done something to show that they mourned him.

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The way Audrey brings out the good in Nathan and encourages him not to kill, to calm down, to help people, yet with Duke she encourages him to do the worst things he’s ever done.

I used to really like Audrey and Duke together more than her and Nathan, but at some point it just became, like, Duke deserves better. Season 5 really cements the whole “using people with troubles as tools” thing that Audrey and Nathan did most of the series.

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Lol

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I cannot stop laughing at the idea that socialism ignores humanity’s highest spiritual ideal: owning yachts.

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They’re burying a time capsule in Philadelphia outside the liberty bell and my first thought was “this would make a great plot for the Sunny gang to mess up.” 💀

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I hate the whole concept of performative reading because maybe I’m just so consumed by my book that I need to take it with me everywhere? Maybe I just gotta read in public. I don’t need to worry about being judged for that.

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Yall, the Supreme Court upheld birthright citizenship, but it was by a 5-4 vote.

1 vote- just 1 ☝️- was the only thing tipping the decision to be one that actually recognized that something in the constitution was in the constitution.

That’s whack, and people should definitely be celebrating this win since things still suck.

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Guys I LOVE a love triangle where it’s a true triangle. I’m talking a friendship between the two guys that has you yelling KISS ALREADY. I’m talking tension you can cut with a knife. I’m talking people calling the other one their “husband” or “boyfriend.” I’m talking Jem Carstairs and Will Herondale. I’m talking Duke Crocker and Nathan Wuornos.

I’m talking give me something beyond friendship. I’m talking Corey and Raven with Kayli.

Give me a love trianglleeeeeeeeee.

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Okay, so I love those little posts that describe how weird humans are by having aliens come to earth and be like “bro these creatures are insane get me out of here” or are just fascinated by the weirdness.

So, I want to point out that humans get addicted to literal poison. Caffeine. Alcohol. Drugs.

And I’m not talking about the whole “all other creatures can’t eat chocolate or they die but we process it better” type stuff either. I’m talking actual destruction of our bodies that is merely slowed down, actual knowledge of such destruction, and actual addiction of such substances regardless.

Like, how do you explain to a foreign creature that some people are so addicted to poison they can go through withdrawal? That some people get headaches without their caffeine? That alcohol and drug withdrawal can actually be dangerous, more dangerous than taking the poison?

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Buffy season 3 episode 12- Helpless

Okay so this is the episode where Buffy is put through a sort of graduation test for slayers because she’s turning 18 and therefore becoming an adult. The test is that she supposed to lose her powers and figure out what she’s able to do without them.

Without going into how much I hate this plot point, my issue with this episode is that she was a cheerleader before she was the slayer. She had coordination. She had athletic abilities superior to that of an average girl. And yeah, being the slayer, gave her super strength and put these abilities into overdrive, but they weren’t the sole reason for their existence.

And the way they show her losing her abilities is that she’s becoming a normal girl, and the first thing she’s supposed to lose is her coordination? The former cheerleader who still exercises daily?

I don’t like that they take away the things about her that made her special, sure that she was capable of things, before she was the slayer.

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I can’t help but wonder if my doom- scroll on social media is because I’m actually being entertained by the content I’m consuming, or if I’m so bored by the content that I keep on scrolling, hoping that the next piece of content will actually be entertaining.

Or maybe the truth is a middle ground- I’m entertained by one video in a way too long scroll, the video is so short that the entertainment I briefly feel is fleeting, and so I continue the search to find the next video for the next brief brief bit of entertainment.

All is to say, I don’t feel particularly lost having deleted Instagram and TikTok.

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Also on Buffy- Anya is on the show for Xander.

Like, I’m sure someone will tell me that the plot for season 3 and Charisma Carpenter’s move to a potential Angel spinoff were already decided and the writers needed a reason why her character, who was incorporated into the gang and dating Xander, would completely leave.

And I’m sure someone will tell me Anya was only supposed to be the one episode about “the world without Buffy in Sunnydale.” (Which makes sense why she disappeared for a bit after.)

But she’s there for Xander.

Let me explain:

Xander cheats on Cordy with Willow. Making Willow and Xander be together was never the plan- drama for the plot was. So, Willow stays with Oz. Cordy would never stay with Xander after this. So, Xander is by himself, okay. But Xander has also been whiny and morally righteous at the expense of antagonizing Buffy for basically the whole show, with a harsh peak at season 3.

Being with Cordy was one of the things that humanized Xander so that he wasn’t just “a bad friend of Buffy’s” but “the boy Cordy loves.” The fact that the other characters care for Xander is his BEST redeeming quality. It does the most work.

So on the episode we see Anya come for the first time, Cordy is hurting the most. This episode sort of fast tracks her grieving process so the show can go forward, and Anya is HUGE in creating these circumstances.

However, now Xander is by himself a lot. How to humanize him now? Anya.

Xander is not emotionally mature and often has a low EQ. But next to Cordy, he’s downright Einstein. Similarly, Anya is somehow more blunt than Cordy, making Xander seem socially fluent and therefore appreciated.

And I don’t like Xander, but I think his character peaks when he’s with them. I think Anya was kept on the show for this too.

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More on Buffy the vampire Slayer:

So I’m rewatching (again) and I’ve noticed that the gang’s reaction in season 3 episode 2 towards Buffy’s return foreshadows their reaction in the final season to her failure— they really overreact.

Specifically, I think Buffy is morally superior most of the time— she’s the chosen one, spends her free time saving the world from the evil of the day, and makes huge personal sacrifices towards this end. Being her friend, and a part of the team fighting to save the world, putting themselves in harms way, makes them entitled to this moral superiority as well.

The issue is that, on the scale of things, they always have less moral superiority than Buffy, and specifically with Buffy’s chosen one title, they start to have expectations of Buffy. When she fails to meet these expectations or falters, all of a sudden they enjoy the high ground and take the opportunity to make sure she knows it.

Potentially a human moment where they can’t control their reactions in season 3? Sure. But when you look at season 7, them kicking her out of her own home that she worked minimum wage jobs to pay for on top of being the slayer, unwilling to give her sympathy for the big bad being more big and bad than they were prepared for, where the big bad was instead prepared for them… you see it’s entitlement.

When they fuck up it’s a fuck up, when Buffy fucks up it’s a moral failure.

(Also, compare Willow going dark side in season 6 after Tara to Buffy just taking 2-3 months to chill after Angel.)

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More on this-

When Angel comes back and Xander sees him and Buffy kissing and suddenly not only does the gang have an intervention for Buffy, accusing her of loosing her mind, but they once again attack her for this moral failing.

And the way Buffy apologizes is always the same- “you think I don’t know I screwed up? I know.” And every time she sounds like she’s about to cry. And every time they don’t care. Because she’s Buffy, and she’s supposed to be morally infallible.

And a lot of this does revolve around Angel as a contentious decision of Buffy’s, but the fact that NONE of them understand what she’s going through despite witnessing and some of them even encouraging their relationship is bizarre to me.

And what pisses me off more is that it’s not like Willow and Xander weren’t making bad kissing decisions at this point too- literally cheating on their partners- yet don’t understand why Buffy couldn’t help but succumb to her attraction to Angel as a SINGLE WOMAN who had past romantic history with him.🙄 They were still in love with each other, they didn’t chose to break up, they didn’t drift apart- something happened, and against all odds, they have another chance to see each other and know the other is okay.

Additionally, I leave you with this scene:

Summing up killing the man you loved to save the world as “boy troubles”…. Ugh.

And I think this is pretty closely tied to the reason so many fans dislike Xander- he can’t get off his moral high horse when it comes to criticizing Buffy, but for his own failures, such as cheating on his girlfriend, he expects the greatest sympathy. And it’s not like Xander can’t understand what was happening to Angel when Xander has been possessed by the spirit of a hyena and acting out of character? Almost are their principal? And Angel as a vampire without a soul is literally possessed by a demon with Angel’s memories? A similar situation?

That’s it on this. I just think Buffy had bad friends.

Not that they’re inherently bad people- I think they’ve don’t some pretty bad and selfish things, but they wouldn’t fight to save the world if they were truly bad. But Xander and Willow care most about Xander and Willow.

Cordelia was a better friend to Buffy, because while callous and blunt, she still understands that Buffy must’ve been heartbroken and leaving was her best choice in an overwhelming situation.

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More on Buffy the vampire Slayer:

So I’m rewatching (again) and I’ve noticed that the gang’s reaction in season 3 episode 2 towards Buffy’s return foreshadows their reaction in the final season to her failure— they really overreact.

Specifically, I think Buffy is morally superior most of the time— she’s the chosen one, spends her free time saving the world from the evil of the day, and makes huge personal sacrifices towards this end. Being her friend, and a part of the team fighting to save the world, putting themselves in harms way, makes them entitled to this moral superiority as well.

The issue is that, on the scale of things, they always have less moral superiority than Buffy, and specifically with Buffy’s chosen one title, they start to have expectations of Buffy. When she fails to meet these expectations or falters, all of a sudden they enjoy the high ground and take the opportunity to make sure she knows it.

Potentially a human moment where they can’t control their reactions in season 3? Sure. But when you look at season 7, them kicking her out of her own home that she worked minimum wage jobs to pay for on top of being the slayer, unwilling to give her sympathy for the big bad being more big and bad than they were prepared for, where the big bad was instead prepared for them… you see it’s entitlement.

When they fuck up it’s a fuck up, when Buffy fucks up it’s a moral failure.

(Also, compare Willow going dark side in season 6 after Tara to Buffy just taking 2-3 months to chill after Angel.)