one thing i rlly want to see more of in spuffy fics (and it’s why i included it in come love me) is acknowledgment that just like angel fucked up buffy’s love map a bit, drusilla absolutely did the same to spike.
buffy starts a bdsm scene by tying spike up but then hears a scream outside, so she hurries off to investigate. she comes back riled up and ready to continue their fun from before, only to see spike’s spike’s whole body tense, his jaw clenched.
bc he genuinely thought she might forget about him and not come back.
a man approaches buffy in a bar and she absent-mindlessly starts talking to him while she waits for spike to come back, only to catch spike watching her from across the room, hands tight around their drinks, like he’s readying himself to fight for the right to take her home.
spike and buffy get sick/injured at the same time, and even though he’s arguably worse off, he’s running himself ragged trying to take care of her. buffy tries to tell him that he can rest, he can just let her exist and get better on her own, but how can he prove himself a worthy knight if she doesn’t let him take care of her??
just… spike took care of a woman who was pretty unwell, transitioned into a pseudo-caretaker when she was weakened by a mob, nursed her back to health, disabled himself in the process, got cheated on almost immediately afterwards, saved her life, got cheated on again, and then got dumped.
i feel like the trauma from that is wayyyyy understated while angel is like. the devil from the bible in spuffy fics.