My life has changed, and I’m changing with it.

Mom | Student | Sister There's a moment when you open your eyes and you just know that things are going to change. Not because you've been planning them, but you just know. I've had those moments more times than I can count. And that is okay with me. I'm Amy. My life right now is pretty amazing and I wouldn't trade a single bit of it for anything at all. I have amazing friends and family and amazing things in store around the corner.

[amycslade]

Fucking took you long enough

Please stop. I left, nonny. You won. You don’t have to do this. 

[amycslade]

Text || Silent Screamer

Aiden: most of them are really weird. Fun fact. It keeps things interesting. Of course I would or I'd figure it was best to be ignored.

Aiden: you never done that ever? In your whole life? Not even once? OH SO YOU HAVE DONE IT! See, it's not so weird. When I wanna prove myself right I usually really want to, like really badly.

Amy: Good to know. A lot of weird is right around the corner in all future conversations with the silent screamer. Looking forward to it. Don't do that. I mean don't assume it should be ignored, sometimes I'm just the worst and miss stuff.

Amy: You sound like you're stubborn, Aiden. But I am too, so I feel you.

[aidenfoster-deactivated20170307]

He’s still a baby in my book! That’s a cool name, kinda like the skateboards. Oh, is he yours now or? Really? How’d that come about? Dogs are great. 

[amycslade]

No! Like the superhero. I actually have no idea if that’s where it came from, but that’s what I’m going with because I have a theme to uphold. He is, yep. Well I mean he’s Sebastian and Ryan’s until I get home then he’s mine. It’s complicated. I feel like that’s my favorite word in our conversations lately.

[amycslade]

Text || Silent Screamer

Aiden: why'd I type the slash out? Idek I just went for it. It was a split second decision. Good, see you're getting it now just ignore some of the things I say, I'm a wildcard you never know what I'll say.

Aiden: or I just don't delete the text and scroll up as much as I have to until finding it and proving my point. Either one.

Amy: Your split second decision was weird, Aiden Foster. I hope you know that. What if I ignore something important? Would you tell me that I ignored an important thing??

Amy: That's just as strange as screenshotting it though. I only ever scroll up when I really REALLY want to prove a point.

[samirblogs-blog]

I wouldn’t know what to do with a dog.

[amycslade]

You love them, duh.

[amycslade]

Text || Silent Screamer

Aiden: I did, I did type the word slash instead of putting a slash. I'm weird, it's a thing. That's probably true, you probably don't realize how strong you are I know I'm not supposed to take her side but sue me. You're badass no matter what, it's also a thing. It counts.

Aiden: I have all the proof! The proof is in the texts slade!

Amy: Why though? Why'd you do it? Besides being that weird dude who does stuff like that? I'm going to ignore you agreeing with her because that's what I want to do so I'm doing it.

Amy: Are you that guy that screenshots texts to use them later to prove your point? Is that how you're proving it?

[aidenfoster-deactivated20170307]

Puppies are always coming first because they are fucking perfect. What’s your dogs name? Does it have one yet?

[amycslade]

I think he’s nearly a year old now, so not so much a puppy. He’s Quicksilver. He’s coming from and old friend the ex we were talking about. He’s kind of sweet.

[eleanor-tully]

No I didn’t. I’d be better if you tell me what happened. 

[amycslade]

Let’s see, I went camping with my dad and my daughter and we came back early becasue we weren’t having fun. I gained a new dog. I have no actual idea what’s going on in Brooklyn since it’s been weeks since I stepped foot there. Better?

[brookenelson-blog1]

Is he huge and fluffy? Is he as tall as Charlotte? I can’t wait to meet him, I mentioned I love animals right?

[amycslade]

Not as tall as Charlotte, but he’s fluffy so it makes him look like he HUGE! Nope, in the years we’ve know each other, you’ve never mentioned it ever. 

[basbeaumont-blog]

[private] Look, it sucks and I’m sorry. But you’re strong, you’ve always been the strongest person I know and you’re going to get through this. Ryan and I aren’t going anywhere. We don’t know how to take care of a freaking baby. You know we’re going to be calling you at midnight crying because the baby won’t stop crying. We want you in our life and the baby’s life. 

I’m gonna go, cause I don’t want you to get mad. Plus I have dogs to walk. Text me later?

[amycslade]

[PRIVATE]

I wasn’t getting mad.  I’ll see you Monday. I’ll pay you back for all the dog stuff. 

[amycslade]

Text || Silent Screamer

Aiden: i don't think you could be though, that's the thing. i mean, maybe you can be awful for like .4 seconds before you back out of it and i'm one of those people that'll think it's kinda funny slash cute because you can't really be awful to me. your therapist doesn't think you're badass? really? damn, they don't know what's up then. most people don't understand.

Aiden: sometimes it is worth it, for sure, no doubt in my mind that sometimes it really is. i think so, i think this is what's happening. you're mom'ing me right now.

Amy: WAIT! Did you just type the word slash instead of using a /? Why are you weird? She thinks I, and I quote, 'Don't realize how strong I am.' But I'm not sure that's the same as thinking I'm badass.

Amy: You have no proof of this alleged mom-ing. I'd like to see you prove it.

[brookenelson-blog1]

I’m moving from the ER to Peads, I’m sure I told you I wanted to go do that but I can’t remember if I told you I was offered to do the training to move perminantly.

[amycslade]

That definitely sounds like something you probably told me and I brain farted. I blame pregnancy. I’m sure excited for you!

[basbeaumont-blog]

That’s not fair. You can’t question me because of the actions of others. I’m here. We’re here. I plan on being in your life whether it’s here or France or California or Mars. Meredith and Cristina are still friends, Cristina is in Europe. If they can do it, we can do it.

[amycslade]

[PRIVATE]

They’re fictional characters, Sebastian, of course they can do it! I’m not, I’m not trying to question your actions based on his or Kai’s choices. This all just fucking sucks, okay? And I’ve been scared that you and Ry will disappear after the baby comes for a long time. This all that’s happened lately, even though it’s not with you two, it doesn’t reassure me. 

And yeah, I know my heads in a bad place right now, you don’t have to point that out, I know you would’ve. I have an appointment with my therapist for Tuesday. 

[brookenelson-blog1]

You got a new dob? I can’t wait to meet him/her!

[amycslade]

I did. A husky. He’s pretty great. I haven’t seen him myself since he became mine.

[brookenelson-blog1]

Monday is my first day of training for my new job, super excited!

[amycslade]

Oooh! Where are you working? Did you tell me and I brain farted? 

[basbeaumont-blog]

Damn. Hey. We’re here, we’re not leaving you ever.

[amycslade]

Please don’t make that promise. I’ve heard that this week and I can’t. 

[basbeaumont-blog]

Future wife implies I’m ever gonna sign divorce papers. He’s mine forever.

[amycslade]

Nah. Ryan and I decided He’ll tell you about it. Remember though that 2 men that I care a lot about left in like the same week.