It’s funny how you can sit here, and sit here for as long as I have and watch the things I’ve watched. And just notice a little pattern that repeats. Over and over. With no end. One side pushes, the other side pushes back. A tug-of-war starts, and then stops, and both sides relax. Soon enough, one side pushes again. Sometimes a specific side pushes first. Sometimes the other side pushes first. But no matter which starts it, the other tries to finish it, and it never ends.
And honestly, all this time I’ve stayed out of it. And I will continue to stay out of it. Because I want no part of this tug-of-war. I’ve spent my life being caught in these kinds of things between friends, and between friends and acquaintances, et cetera. It’s just not worth getting involved with, you know? I’d rather spend my time doing what makes me happy. And spend time trying to make others happy. All this negativity helps nobody. And yet, it’s human nature to fight, to argue, to have differing opinions and viewpoints, whether they’re inherently wrong or just different.
I’ve always been rather inconsistent with staying active on Tumblr, and that’s because my real life obligations come first. And that’s how it will always be. I may not come back to Vanellope here, but I do have other blogs that I run from time to time. In the end, RP is for fun and making friends. And my time on Tumblr has helped shape a small part of my life - but it’s an important part of it. I wouldn’t be the same person today without my experiences here.
To be honest, I’m not entirely sure what drove me to write this, and I’m still not sure right now. Maybe I feel like I need to validate my own actions, and express my own neutral stance on negative situations. Maybe, in the end, I wanted to feel like I could make my own peace with things that are ongoing by distancing myself from it. No matter what, I will not allow myself to become involved. I will remain open to discussion from anyone, at any time, on any medium they have me on. Because, in the end, everyone deserves a chance to be happy.
This has been a bit disjointed, and I’m sorry to anyone who I’ve lost contact with over the last few months. Feel free to contact me via the IMs here if you wish to talk to me on other mediums.
