[an-angels-hell]

my love is intense

but for that it's fragile

[kalt-blut]

Ich will mich nicht wieder verlieben

Kalt-blut

[an-angels-hell]

I don't wanna be your friend I wanna be your bitch

And I wanna touch you but not like this

[an-angels-hell]

and suddendly the cigarettes begin to taste sweet

they fill the emptiness in your lungs

the emptiness caused by the darkness in your soul

[an-angels-hell]

You make me feel so alive that

That the thought of losing you is

It's killing me

It's killing me knowing that I'm so fragile

Everything can break

You made me feel so alive that

That now I'm drowning

Drowning in my mind

[an-angels-hell]

It's like causing myself problems right now.

Like beeing aware of the consequences, the bad feelings.

But at the same time it's something I need.

The sadness, the feelings of beeing worthless.

Feeling bad things, otherwise I feel nothing.

[an-angels-hell]

I never knew that normal things can make me feel this weird.

I never knew that relationships can make me feel so fucked up.

It's like catching a butterfly. But it feels like it's a knive.

Like catching a feeling of love. But the thought stucks in your head like the knive in your hand.

So you start messing up with the pain the knive caused you.

Messing up withbthe feeling of love.

You start to make thing worse, just because you can't handle the pain, even though the pain is so beautiful.

And it makes me feel so depressed.

How is love supposed to do that?

[an-angels-hell]

something in my soul is pushing you away. maybe I'm in love. maybe I'm afraid

[an-angels-hell]

you don't need to wait for the sun in your soul to make you bloom again when flowers need rain to grow too.

[an-angels-hell]

filling the emptyness in my chest with smoke in my lungs

[an-angels-hell]

you fucked me so good that I almost said "I love you"

- Lana Del Rey/ Norman fucking Rockwell

[babcherub]

:(

[an-angels-hell]

my mental illness is back, and it is worse than ever.

[an-angels-hell]

"Sometimes I have a bad desire to provoke persons who show me love. If a person truely loves you, they wouln't leave you easily"

-an old friend of mine