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él/he, 26, white latino

[anacromaticx]

guys i’m gonna be honest……i haven’t watched iwtv s3/tvl yet….ive been deliberately avoiding twt bc of spoilers but i saw that ppl don’t like it very much….i will get to it eventually but im not prepared mentally for it yet. im so fucking scared what are they going to put my gay vampires through

also i prob won’t be active on social media very much until i watch it so i can keep avoiding spoilers >.<

[bigbossterone]

I am no better than a cis man because I, too, entirely missed the point of Fight Club. I think forming a boot camp for trans men to beat the snot out of each other in an abandoned basement to build brotherhood while me and the hallucination of my idealized self run a gray market t-gel homebrewing operation sounds fucking awesome.

[anacromaticx]

happy shirtless trans guy summer

[anacromaticx]

giggling and kicking my feet listening to jacob anderson on npr, im so proud of my gay vampire show 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

[anacromaticx]

just finished listening, what an amazing interview!!!! we’ve been fed so well today lol. if only we had this kind of press coverage for previous seasons…….

[anacromaticx]

what a blessing it is to experience my favorite shows as they are airing. what a blessing it is to discover my gender and sexuality alongside my favorite characters. what a blessing it is to be a fan of queer media! i love being a trans iwtv and hr fan!!!!!

[gaygoatshane]

and i said thank you GQ Hype

[anacromaticx]

giggling and kicking my feet listening to jacob anderson on npr, im so proud of my gay vampire show 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

[steadynightruins]

[steadynightruins]

The Brat Prince lives

[handsywoman]

welcome to Pound Town population: Shane Hollander

[anacromaticx]

i wish i had a dick

[anacromaticx]

i just want a guy to beat me up. is that so much to ask for. this is how i flirt.

[anacromaticx]

“hmmm idk if im actually trans” i went as napstablook for halloween one year

[anacromaticx]

the more time i spend in the heated rivalry fandom the more i realize i might be autistic

[anacromaticx]

it’s international trans day of visibility. i kind of feel hopeless and uncertain if i will ever transition, if my family will ever accept me and how ill ever cope with that.

i still doubt whether or not i am trans. i feel like im doing this for attention or that im not “trans enough.” when i think of my future i see myself as a queer guy, confident and self-assured, in a committed relationship with another man. at least that is the happiest version of myself i can think of. does that make me trans? am i making shit up? is this just a fantasy or an illusion like my mom says? is WANTING to be trans different from actually BEING trans?

regardless. if you are trans know you are very much loved and appreciated. you are valid no matter what anyone else says! i’m happy you’re here with us!

[anacromaticx]

heated rivalry has made me feel so much joy and happiness but at the same time grief and envy and depression because i’m not in a relationship and i’m not a cis man and i never had a boyhood. i’ve seen tiktoks of trans men and transmascs say how the show is bringing up all these complicated emotions and i relate so hard. im not there yet and it sucks so fucking much.

if i could turn into a cis man i would. i look at hudson williams and i wish that were me. if i could press a button that would permanently change me into a different gender i think i would. i have less doubts about that now than i did a few months ago. i’d do it.

[anacromaticx]

a very pivotal music video for me. i was 16 and desperately wanted to look and dress like alex turner. i didn’t think it was deeper than appearance at the time. i was also still christian and had only learned what nonbinary meant like a year ago so. 10 years later and nothing has changed really. i still want to look like this and have a homoerotic relationship with another dude. i still want alex turner’s confidence. i still want him and i want to be him.