The questionable thoughts of a 24 year old boy
A check-in
MOD NOTE: This is longer than what I usually make. Sorry!
(Note: Weird formatting is because it's thoughts instead of description)
I don't really know what to do right now honestly
We've left the basement but now we're just lurking near the stairs
Those two keep talking to eachother, forgot their names not gonna lie to myself
I would have tried to watch through footage but that'd be rude with them standing there wouldn't it? And I can't just ask them
Maybe one of them forgot my name and will be blunt about it
I dunno. But they're talking about some kind of mall
Guess we aren't going there for now
I question why I said yes to letting them tag along, I'm surrendering any type of bravery I once had
Now they're just gonna take the lead
And I don't think the guy in that cloak likes me. Like at all
He keeps looking at me weird
I fear that I'm gonna be trailing in the back again
Goddamn it I miss Sammy, he wouldn't let me trail in the back
I miss him so much but any time I even try and think of him it's all explosions and almost dying and despair and all of this nonsense truama and I
I don't know how to handle it honestly, never did never will
I have enough of a reaction when my wrist is grabbed oh god. What will it be like once I find him and he has to defend himself? The explosion of the gun may set me off
Oh lord oh no oh shit I'm so fucked wait
This is stupid dude why must I undergo all of this shit and they other people go through nothing until the moment everyone gets attacked arises
Fed with a silver fucking spoon huh
wait no. wait no I'm being mean no I cant be rude that's mean
Why am I thinking that?? I'm sorry
...who am I apologizing to
oh my GOD I'm probably going to go insane before all of this ends, yalk to myself like I did in my teen years
I'm gonna be like a dog and have to be put in the bathroom with headphones on during the fourth of july or when all of this is over and they shoot off fireworks in celebration
I don't want it like that though. I wanna enjoy everything normally but NOPE my best friend got shot by a rocket and I can't enjoy anything now!
Nah nope Wasabi's gotta be difficult just like he was when he was like eight years old and had to get his wrist tugged and shirt collar grabbed in order to listen to proper direction
I'm gonna get up and start walking and think "I hate myself" and do nothing about it
Nah nope nothing at all, just gotta stroll about and act like I'm not extremely traumatized and paranoid and probably have another anxiety disorder on my hands
Oh shit they're looking at me uh
Yeah no he hates me. He hates me with his guts oh my god HE HATES MEEE
What did I even do??? Talk to his friend??? Goddamn he's like... genuinely so mad at me
Unless he just has a mean looking resting face but I doubt that heavily
He totally hates me and I don't know what I did other than exist. FUN stuff man fun stuff
Damn it dude I'm so pathetic Haha
I'll just sit here until they need meOh my god they need me. FUCK
Get up and pretend like you weren't thinking you dumbass. Your hands are NOT shaking do not let yourself down buddy
Ok ok rational thoughts rational thoughts
Inhale exhale, what are they saying?