(In every words i say to this is based on me)
I always keep asking everyone in my MyDay(facebook) a question to know want they think or say about it, I want to know their own opinion to those question,and most of that questioned is about me. Not all questioned are meant for me, there are questioned i want to asked because even myself don't know the answer.
In the sake of not making a mistake,i always keep asking. In the thought of not making mistakes i haven't realized to myself that i am always making mistakes,i know that i can't control those events of my life,before,i always said to myself that "i fix everything wrong to make it right" but in reality,That's not the case, Because in reality "you always making wrong until it make a little less wrong and a little less wrong".
Everyday i keep practising and practising myself to do a thing a little less, In short, I am REFLECTING.
That all this time, I did it a wrong way, by always asking everyone, I let them controlled my life without even my knowing,It is my mistakes, I know.
Now that i have this kind of thoughts, i understand more why, WHY DO I HARD ON MYSELF. the answer was, Im always depending on others that i forget that i have my own opinion,my own act and that i have my own voice.
I am not perfect, That's clearly true. That's why i am looking for the anwers always even though i have the answer already, i always taking advices to make everything clear to me but i wasn't even listening before because i always keep insisting my point of view, and in the thought of that, I AM BLOCKING NEW POSSIBILITY to know more,to know better,to expand my mind for everything.
So here's what i've learned in the past few days, in the help of someone i knew but not totally knew, That person made something very clear in my mind, about what's im going through here, In my MESS THOUGHTS.
She helped me fix my mind to change my way of thinking,in what we talked,she already know what is wrong with my head, she helped me to understand things,not in a way that she told me "to do this" or "to do that".
Everything i am doing now is in my own volition,i am not doing this because of other person told me to do this, its not like that.
I am trying to change my thinking,perspective and beliefs, It is not that simple to do, but i am determine to do this FOR MYSELF.
I am NOT doing this to pleased anyone, i am doing it for me. If i really want a change,that change is suppose to be start with ME.
