doll like

a mad little boy. leo baskerville.

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blah

mun is having some major depression 

medicine might not be working

ill be slow on replies then when im done i’ll be offline

contact if you want my msn or skype though

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i found out the quickest way to emotionally drain me and or get me super angry 

repeated jokes about strippers

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danity wrists {leo, elliot, closed to pazi and anoblesacrifice}

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TRIGGER WARNING FOR SELF HARM TRIGGER WARNING FOR SELF HARM TRIGGER WARNING FOR SELF HARM.

It’s been months now, and this strange behavior of Leo’s would not cease. No matter where they went, the noirette would always insist on wearing long sleeves. He would never change in front of Elliot, no matter the inconvenience. And the most noticeable; and suspicious, thing of them all is the amount of times Elliot has found various strips of cloth soiled with blood packed away in his servant’s things.

Quite understandably, Elliot was worried sick. He was supposed to be Leo’s master, no, Leo’s best friend. If that was true how come he would not open up to Elliot? If something was wrong shouldn't Elliot be the first to know? It seemed that lately Leo was distancing himself from his master also. Sometimes Elliot would go days without seeing the noirette.

What the hell has been wrong with him lately?!  

Sick of being kept in the dark, the heir decided to shadow his valet. At first everything seemed normal, a stop in the Nightray library, and another in the kitchen. Except…Leo didn't grab any food, he went for a knife.

No!

Following his servant for a good ten minutes, he watched as Leo snuck into one of the deserted rooms of the old (and rather creepy) manor.

For a moment Elliot was in denial that Leo could do something as terrible as hurting himself without his master noticing.

Am I really that self-absorbed? 

Wasting no more time, Elliot sprung to action. “Leo? Leo!?” The amount of worry in his voice almost dripped. He burst into the room to be met with the stench of blood, and the sight of crimson staining his beloved friends arms.

Elliot almost puked.

Almost.

“What the fuck is that!?” he screamed, pointing towards the poorly staunched wound. His pace was quick as he made his way to the clearly distraught valet. Grabbing the thin wrist, Elliot yanked Leo’s sleeves down.

“Shit. Shit, shit, shit shit, shit!”

How deep did he cut?! 

Pulling Leo by the arm (taking care not to touch the weeping slice in his wrist) Elliot dragged the servant towards the closest bathroom. “What in the fuck possessed you to do something as stupid as hurting yourself?! You could have talked to me, you should have talked to me! What was cutting yourself to shreds going to accomplish, you idiot? What if you lost too much blood and died?”

Elliot’s final words sent a shiver down his spine. A world without Leo by his side was terrifying to think about.

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Elliot's booming, loud voice is a terrible, almost emotionally unbearable mix of worry, fear, and absolute rage, causing it to be quite and insanely unsteady. Leo's normal poker face quickly face falls in some showing emotion of being completely distraught at this, and immediately his brain is racked for a reasonable excuse for the ridiculous amount of blood staining those usually white arms.

Oh, and the pretty little harmful knife in the corner covered and stained with Baskerville blood.

"I-- It was an accident, I swear, really--"

More excuses, all half-assed and quite unbelievable, pop and come pouring out of the startled raven's mouth. It's only when his master begins heavily cursing and wrapping the thin wrist does the valet realize the blonde is blind and deaf to the words he speaks. And it's not as if Elliot will think for even a split second Leo's words to be true.

The open, not at all healing wound is irrigated by his Master's earlier, reckless grap. Blood oozes from the injury and the ones that seep from the handkerchief pop and bubble before starting to spill onto the nice, half polished floor below them.

Mindlessly, the boy registers that Elliot is taking them to the nearest bathroom. Of course. Medicines would be provided there, and proper bandages. When Elliot promptly shoves the skinny servant into the room and slams the grand door shut, the bloodcurdling yelling comes back in full swing.

“What in the fuck possessed you to do something as stupid as hurting yourself?! You could have talked to me, you should have talked to me! What was cutting yourself to shreds going to accomplish, you idiot? What if you lost too much blood and died?”

For a few, terrifying and seemingly much too long seconds, there is no response.

There is none after the seconds turn into minutes.

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Mary Oliver, “Starlings in Winter”

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there is no one that will ever, ever, ever, ever, ever ever ever ever ever ever going to play a certain character completely ic

the players will make mistakes! so will the creator of said character, sometimes

there is no such thing as completely ic.

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Your Leo still doesn't seem ccompletely IC to me. When I read his posts, it feels more like you're trying too hard? You focus too much on what makes him psychotic. It plays a lot into his character, yes, but there's more to him than trauma, mental disorders, etc. I follow you because I'm hoping you improve.

As I told people before, there is no such thing as a completely IC RPer-- only the creator could play the character perfectly.

I'm well aware of that. Maybe, yes, I try too hard but I don't exactly make him too crazy and make him actually respond to it. In some RPs, to make the ending what me the other RPer want, I do twist it quite a bit (note the self-harm RP and vampire AU)... well, you get the point, right?

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all revis has to do for halloween is take off his bandages and go outside with a pillow case for candy

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carnivorous-rabbit replied to your post: guys guys imagine leo on his first halloween ...

tears on my face leo bb thats presh

omg imagine if he went through tons of costumes 

and eventually goes out in a werewolf costume

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guys

guys imagine leo on his first halloween 

'elliot why are there is a ton of kids outside in costumes what is happening'

'...leo have you never heard of halloween'

'hallowhat' 

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blaaah

bored