so this is how it’s like, huh?

perpetually tired

[andiebau]

Oh what type of sin it must have been to have it this hard in this lifetime.

[andiebau]

If this ends, everything ends for me too.

[andiebau]

And if I ever run away from all of this, please don’t look for me anymore.

[andiebau]

I, unfortunately was cursed.

Cursed with a mind that remembers clearly;

A heart that forgives deeply;

and a soul that tends to grieve earnestly.

[andiebau]

I will forever mourn the years that flew by so fast, the fading memories of when the morning air was still crisp and innocence meant not knowing what sarcasm is, just yet.

[andiebau]

Maybe it’s not affection, probably attachment.. an unhealthy one. The kind that yearns, the type that persists, even if—-even when.

Took me more than a year to reach out again, took me 2 weeks before I could send that message but on most days, it’s you who I still want to run to.

[andiebau]

I wish pain wasn’t too powerful it could be passed on during pregnancy; affecting the unborn and directing the course of its life.

Imagine fearing abandonment without even understanding what it is.

Forcing connection because you are incapable of forming one.

Struggling to find your place in every room because each door you step in feels like a space you’re not fully welcomed to.

“Maybe if I become more like them and less like who I really am..”

“If I smile more often and talk like them, will they like me more?”

“Maybe if I bend a little..”

“If I turn out to be that person will that satisfy them finally?”

I have learned things the hard way too early in life; to bow my head and not include myself in conversations I can’t be a part of, to look detached and disinterested because wanting more means asking for more, and it’s draining—-exhausting, demeaning.

Losing your spark each time that feeling creeps back again, not seeing your worth despite knowing you are worthy, never fully experiencing happiness as it has always made you feel like you can’t be part of it will always be that hard pill to swallow.

[andiebau]

Exact moment my aunt snapped a photo of me while I was having a meltdown.. she tried to lighten the mood by asking if I think we’d grow old like the grandmas seated next to us; still traveling the world and taking pics at our old age. And I almost cried again cos I honestly don’t know if I could live that long. If I do, I hope to live happily, my heart lighter, my pockets fuller, my family healthier.

[andiebau]

While I may not know how this feeling will actually turn out to be, something’s telling that I’m about to enter a new chapter. Something better, one that I earned and worked for.. will go back to this once it happens for reals ❤️

[filmtribv]

'I heard something,'

THE DIPLOMAT 2.02

[andiebau]

I would always miss you

[tantawans]

Dimple & Harsh in Mismatched S2

I just got lucky, I guess. I got lucky.

[offarawaysnfuturedays-inmydreams]

ALEXIS KONG + fashion

HIGHDEE KUAN in The Brothers Sun (2024)

[nathanielzalexandria]

Imma need all the fanfiction people to write some Brother's sun fanfics. Charles is too malewife not to have hundreds of stories with him and Drowsy/Jun/Alexis and i need one of them to write the fic that determines which would be my primary ship

[andiebau]

it’s been 5 months where are fanfics 😭

[kojiandrew]

JUSTIN CHIEN as CHARLES SUN The Brothers Sun | 1.01 "Pilot"

[andiebau]

Me the entire time: i can fix him mum

[sugarpenchant]

Looking for a new show to watch? Do you like:

✅ whump

✅ men cooking while wearing aprons with cats on the front

✅ daddy issues

✅ well choreographed violence

✅ mommy issues

✅ family drama (crime related)

✅ sibling issues

✅ very incredibly talented actors including Michelle Yeoh

✅ daddy issues x infinity

✅ uncovering what it means to choose one’s own path after a lifetime of never having a choice (see also: so many daddy issues)

then I have the perfect show for you:

The Brothers Sun on Netflix

You’re welcome

[eexpensive]