2 years ago a simple act like finding and buying this for my father in laws front gate was too difficult for me. You tgougt I always asked you to accompany me to the store due to relying on you too much or out of laziness. Actually I had separation anxiety. I did rely on you too much, yes. Now I've gotten here on my own. Relied on myself. Found and got this myself. I want to care for myself but I'm still not. You underestimated how sick I got since 2015. It wasn't just you. I thought I could be happier with another. I was simply going thru depression and no one and nothing gives me lasting happiness. You don't know how I still LOVE you and endure feelings of hurt & betrayal to stay loving you. You don't know what's in my heart. I really want our marriage intact. I really want YOU!