Ink-stained leaves

they/them, XXIX, ADHD

[cptsdwillgraham-deactivated2019]

beep beep sometimes when you have been in survival mode for a long time the parts of you dedicated to Wanting Things atrophy and you forget how to envision a future that feels rewarding because you are busy with the business of staying alive, and it can seem like your life must be pointless because you can’t imagine any long term goals. sometimes even when you leave survival mode you can’t remember how to Want Things. that doesn’t mean you need to give up on having a good and fulfilling life, it just means that Wanting Things is a muscle you need to gradually strengthen. the part of you that has dreams and aspirations is still there, it just fell asleep, but if you wiggle it enough it can and will regain feeling. it’s okay to start small

[louclaudia]

He didn't go into the details of his day. I would only hear of them later, after the concert, after the mayhem... Should've quit right then and there. I know. I know...

[lioncourtz]

Why did you take me to the Witches' Place?

THE VAMPIRE LESTAT 03.05 | "New York"

[reputayswift]

love the journey he goes on here

[viralfrog]

[pmamtraveller]

The life cycle of a cherry.

[herewegobebe]

TAEMIN | 'Frankenstein' - Coachella 2026 [vid cr. x]

[gaypeople]

A trailer park. Nevada, Utah, the desert. Couple folding chairs. Plant some flower boxes... Could be nice.

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

hello EDS people. calling all EDS people. especially if you live in Victoria, Australia like me.

what is the process of evaluation like? what kinds of tests do they do?

I have been informed that I should discuss this with my GP and get a referral to a rheumatologist(?). I have been ignoring this possibility for years but given that I had an actual nurse informally assess me and on the basis of that tell me that I should get it formally assessed, I'm actually thinking of getting the process started with the assumption that it will take a long time.

also, not to be flippant, but what's the point? what will I gain by getting my fun joints assessed? why should I care?

and yes, while I was told to ask specifically about EDS, I do not have enough information currently to know either whether I would genuinely meet criteria for any kind of hypermobility, or whether Ehlers-Danlos is even the kind of hypermobility that would be relevant.

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

@thebibliosphere i think from memory you have EDS? sorry for the ping but I just want to be faintly prepared before I go to my GP next week.

funny fact: it was actually a crisis assessment team psych nurse who was doing a holistic initial assessment and when I mentioned both ASD and potential POTS immediately asked whether I was bendy or not, then asked me to demonstrate specific joints. she seemed more interested in my bendiness than the "psychotic symptoms"... which were the actual reason I'd been referred to the CATT in the first place after coming out of the psych ward a few days earlier. I find this amusing. anyway.

[thebibliosphere]

I can’t tell you what the process of evaluation will be like for the area you’re asking about, but to address your “what’s the point?” point:

Ehlers Danlos Syndrome—and many other connective tissue disorders— affect Every facet of your health. From dental care to vascular health, to which antibiotics are safe for your tendon health, to straight up needing different types of sutures, anesthesia, and recovery care after surgery.

And that doesn’t even begin to cover comorbidities like POTS, MCAS, fibro, etc and general quality of life.

It’s also important to determine which type of EDS you might have because it can help with preventative care for your future based on the specific subtype. There are some very specific health complications that can occur and knowing if you have EDS can help you take preventative steps, but also hopefully ensure you get the care you need more quickly in the event something does go wrong.

I have hEDS and while my joints are garbage, it’s my immune system that’s more heavily impacted, as well as my internal organs which have tried more than once to become external of their own volition. I also had my Achilles tendon rupture spontaneously after being given an antibiotic (ciprofloxacin), which can affect connective tissue, even in people without Ehlers Danlos Syndrome.

To put it bluntly: it’s not just your joints, it’s all of you. And all of you deserves care ❤️

[dictee]

MIRANDA  X CLYTEMNESTRA 

[dronesofthedesert2023-deactivat]

[i.d.: a photoset with images from black sails, with words overlaying each one to form a longer quote. the images are: a younger miranda hamilton and james mcgraw on a boat, young miranda crying, a close up of alfred hamilton, a medium shot of alfred in a chair, miranda screaming in peter ashe’s dining room, colonel rhett holding up a gun, miranda lying on the floor with a bullet wound in her head, below the deck of a ship, flint looking out to a burning charles town, and peter ashe slumped over on the ground. the quote reads, “oh now you pull out your code of justice - call me accursed, demand my exile! what about them? what about him? this man who, without a second thought, as if it were a goat dying, sacrificed his own child. isn’t it this man you should have sent into exile, to pay for that polluted deed? instead you pass judgement on me! well i warn you, threaten me all you like and yes, if you crush me, you’ll be giving the orders. but if some god ordains the opposite, however late, old men, i’ll teach you your place.”]

[reticent-vampire]

Arun || Armand

[reticent-vampire]

[hsm2]

Toby Stephens as James Flint | Black Sails VII.

[delinquentbookworm]

one time I went over to a friend's house and their housemate was making paper in the living room, and we saw this big tub full of water they were using to dissolve old scrap paper into a slurry, and everyone was immediately like "oh, you need scrap paper?" and started turning out their jacket pockets and producing expired coupons and bus tickets and crumpled receipts and old shopping lists and whatever else they'd been carrying round with them for no good reason, and passing it all to the paper-making housemate to make sure it was suitable before it got torn up and dropped into the tub, while people took turns stirring the slurry with a big wooden stick. it was strangely ritualistic, like presenting an offering to some kind of temple elder for inspection before placing it in a watery shrine to be devoured and reformed. pulp for the pulp god.

[allsortsoffuckedup]

Hey hey, as a librarian, can I just say don’t pace yourself at the library. I get a lot of customers saying “oh I shouldn’t get too many books out at once” but like you should!!!! Max out your card, take everything we have on a subject you’re interested in, make a book fort in your home. We love that shit! It doesn’t matter if you read them or not; just take them for an adventure and bring them back whenever they’re due!

For public libraries, one of the ways we secure funding year to year is lending. Governments don’t want to fund more books if they’re not being used and the way we measure use is by issues. Regardless of whether you read it or not, whether you have it for a day or a month, if you issue it to your library card, we get the stats! It makes the library look good!

Help your local library; get books out even if you know you can’t read them all!

[missclarasoufflegirl]

Hey Mikey? You played Wembley 🥹

Tiktok

[franniesbridgerton]

And then we played out scenes as if she had lived... was alive. But now it's all blurred. I called her Claudia. But she's herself too now, I think. And I know it's not real. But is it? Is it her, come back to me? I can't tell. And whole nights go by where I don't wanna be able to tell. And I just, um-- Is it her?

episode 5 of THE VAMPIRE LESTAT

[endiness]