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Hello! I'm anem0ialumilubs, a digital artist! You can call me Lumi or Starz, whatever you prefer ^-^
This was originally going to be a summer/high school blog, but I sort of lost motivation for it, so this is mostly just an art/reblog blog. I also post other stuff here if I feel like it
Uhh this is multifandom but I repost whatever I'm fixed on atm
Please don't DM me if you can! I have anxiety so I hate checking them, your DM will go unread for months. Telling me stuff in my ask box is a lot better :3 but I am also scared to look in my ask box so my responses will not be speedy
DON'T GIVE ME DONATION ASKS I DON'T CAREEEE!!!!
I'm trying to look for a good tumblr layout rn sorry it's kinda simple
I'm a multishipper + yumeshipper (Ragatha and Coral Glasses are my wifes trust/hj) and I post whatever fanart I want, don't follow me just for one fandom
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All tags:
#my art: My art!
#not art related: Stuff I made that's not art related
#reblogs: All of my reblogs
#blogging: Blogging (inactive, I blog on my Neocites now)
#appreciation post: Full of appreciation posts for my favorite characters! (mostly inactive)
#rants: I'm so hastag relatable right guys (blogging but short) (I use this when I'm at school most of the time, I will soon use this tag on my jirai acc more)
#saving for later: random stuff I have saved for later
#asks: once in a blue moon when I have the courage to open my inbox and respond to stuff
#absolute cinema: animation reblogs that I think are cool (and also posts with absolute cinema in it)
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Extra tags but are mostly empty:
#purple propaganda: I reblog purple posts to convince people to like the color purple
#looey my beloved: sometimes Looey gets his own tag
#gangle my beloved: sometimes Gangle gets her own tag
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Current thing hyperfixation: TADC, Animal Hospital
Current ship fixation: berryfunny (almost for a year π)
Current character fixation: Ron from Accounting and Ratthew
The creator of Dandy's World (Qwelver), is a bad person (or problematic but I hate that word).
I'll still be drawing DW stuff cause I'm still hyper fixated on it somewhat, but I won't be playing the game anymore + buying merch because that still gives her money.
Qwel hasn't responded and I doubt that she will. The BlushCrunch server has been locked down for 2 weeks too, and there still hasn't been any notice.
Docs for you guys to read:
General Disclaimer. General trigger warning and content warnings for mentions of grooming, manipulation and overall generally talking about
Disclaimer. Trigger warning & content warnings for mentions of cancer/chemo, suicidal ideation, grooming, manipulation and overall generally
did you know that Friday 13th was meant to be a really good lucky day meant for fucking because it was dedicated to Freyja, the goddess of love and fertility and the patron goddess of Fridays
but then Christianity found out about it and were likeΒ βFucking???? outside of marriage????? NO NO NO!!!β and decided it was a horrible terrible bad unlucky day and you need to be super careful of everything you do in case you die or some shit.
so thanks Christians for ruining everyoneβs fucking fun
Jax wasn't trying to "start shit for no reason". His world was breaking down, he was scared and wanted a taste of normality.
I have some issues with the way people are seeing this scene here. At face value, it does look like Jax just wants to start fighting for no reason and Zooble and Pomni are ignoring him for that.
That isn't what's happening here.
See, Jax's coping mechanism is to keep things predictable, and keep himself in control. All he's ever known in his life was negativity, being yelled at and condemned and shamed for everything he does, and everything he does wrong. He acts out and bullies and abuses because that's what's normal to him.
It's shown right here in this scene,
Jax thought Zooble was going to yell at him. He turned to them, scared, anticipating a scolding or something to the nature of "Get out, nobody wants you here."
But no, Zooble offers him forgiveness and community. He's hit with that reality, the reality that people love him. Zooble is a kind person, not "the grumpy one", and they truly do want nothing but the best for him.
Here he was, antagonizing everyone, thinking they all want him to die. Assigning them roles because he believes they're as fake as Caine is.
Thinking Pomni would laugh at him.
Thinking Ragatha would try to downplay his feelings with her positivity.
Thinking Gangle would agree with Zooble and pin everyone against him.
But no. Jax realizes that the people around him are forgiving and kind and they actually want him around. He realizes that these people... they're actually his friends. That's pretty shocking for someone like him.
He jokes about it, saying "Hah, you guys worry too much!" when they tell him they're worried about him abstracting.
But he opens his eye, and looks at Pomni. The person in the group he trusts the most. Almost as if to ask...
You'd still be worried though, right? You still care about me, right? Even after everything I did...?
"Y'know things were just fine before you and Zooble came along."
But why? Why those words specifically?
Because Zooble and Pomni antagonize Caine. They call him out. And look what happens when that happens! Jax wants to avoid that!
Let's pause for a second, and go over to Ragatha. We're all familiar with her coping mechanism, and she even demonstrates it to Caine!
She's happy, positive, kind, always ready to help, and always ready to give you a little encouragement when you need it!
She's a people pleaser because her mother was a controlling matriarch. She learned that being a little doll, the perfect little daughter, the perfect little friend who never says anything you don't want to hear, will help her survive.
She. Fawns.
And so does Jax.
Jax, no matter how much he denies it, no matter how much he wants to pretend like he's in control, is doing the exact. Same. Thing.
Jax plays by Caine's rules. He gives the circus members their roles. He abides by his own, loyal to being the funny one. He's the perfect plaything, the perfect little cartoon character for Caine.
The perfect circus bunny, performing just for his ringmaster.
And what do Zooble and Pomni do?
They disrupt that. They disrupt that peace. They threaten Caine, they threaten HIM.
Now, let's get one thing absolutely clear here.
Jax HATES Caine. He hates him, he thinks he's a liar, he controls them, he abuses them, he's been stuck here with this controlling overlord that uses him like a fucking puppet for his own sick and twisted desire to stroke his own ego.
I'm sure Ragatha hated her mother as well and never actually cared about her, she only pretended to be positive and happy to appease her and avoid being punished.
Jax pretends to be a sadistic, funny, sarcastic, jerk to appease Caine. To avoid being punished.
"Caine's not gonna do anything malicious, it's not in his nature."
He's scared of what Caine might do to him. So he lies to himself thinking that if he's good enough for Caine, if he's artificial enough, cartoon enough, if he throws away enough of what makes him human, he can avoid punishment.
Now, back to what he said. "Y'know, things were just fine before you and Zooble came along."
Jax waits for an answer, because he wants Pomni to jump at his throat and scold him. He wants to be hurt, he literally uses them to self-harm. After all, his biggest fear is being laughed at by his closest friends.
And to his surprise, they ignore him. They don't engage.
And he's testing Zooble on what they said. Do you really care if I abstract? Even if I degrade you? Even if I'm an asshole to you?
That's the best way to deal with someone like Jax. Just don't engage, as Zooble said. Just ignore him. He wants to use you to harm himself, don't let him do that.
"Okay."
One last offer to give it to him. Let him have it.
But no. Nobody engages.
That is the confirmation in Jax's mind that Pomni and Zooble were telling the truth.
He...can trust them. He can trust Pomni.
So when Pomni starts her plan with Kinger, he jumps up to ask what's going on. Of course he TRUSTS her but he didn't think anything was ACTUALLY going to happen, right!?
Now he's finding out Kinger is actually capable of being sane! He's not a crazy old man!
What the fuck is happening right now!? Gangle is happy, Ragatha is being genuine, Zooble is forgiving, and now Kinger is sane and normal?
And look what Jax does about this information.
He doesn't double down. He doesn't take the bucket off Kinger's head, he doesn't throw a rude joke to catch everyone off guard, he doesn't try to sabotage what Pomni is trying to do.
When he says "Wait!" while Kinger is talking, it's not because he wanted to stop him. It's not because he wanted to distract him or make him crazy again so he'd stop talking.
It's because he remembered that Caine is always watching. He was trying to get Kinger to stop talking because he knew Caine could appear out of nowhere and throw this entire plan out of the window.
So he gets up, and he says,
"I gotta distract Caine so he doesn't listen in on this."
Jax gets up to help them. Jax chooses, on his own volition, under absolutely no pressure or request, to go and volunteer himself to be the distraction AGAIN, despite how much he hated it the first time. Despite how angry he knows Caine is, despite the fact he knows he could suffer greatly if he does.
Just so the others could have a chance.
"I'm never doing anything for you guys ever again."?
Yeah, right, Jax.
This progress is insane for someone like him. And he goes to have a mini panic attack about the fact it's all real, that these really are human beings and not Caine's playthings or his NPCs.
But he still goes to distract Caine. Because he trusts Pomni, he trusts that her plan is going to work.
Because what does Jax accuse Caine of doing?
"You lie to us constantly!"
Honesty is something Jax values so closely that he abandons his coping mechanism and OFFERS to get tortured by the AI overlord just so the others could have a chance.
It's not one of Caine's adventures or some random NPC he's never seen trying to tell him that there's a chance at escaping.
It's Pomni.
He trusts Pomni. Pomni is his friend.
And by extension, he trusts Kinger, and Zooble, and Ragatha, and Gangle, because they're all humans. They're not Caine, they're not AIs, they won't betray his trust like he does. Jax finally was able to break out of his delusion to see that.
"Squirm is a butterfly!" "Squirm is a book worm!" Squirm is a failed moth metamorphosis and you know it. (This can happen due to a horomone imbalance with moths/butterflies and squirm is stressed all the time!!) Look up hawk moth caterpillar they share a color scheme and it's so cool. Still going also screams moth poetry.
i HAAAATE the shipping culture in this fandom dude,,, personally i don't mind if others ship toons, it's harmless (mostly) and i even ship a few. But sometimes..omg.. i've seen someone showing off a ship and saying "let's see if the devs ruin it later" ??. What???? Huh????? Im sorry???
Some of the shipping in this fandom just baffles me a little sometimes. Also i love delilah and arthur and GUYS we can give them fanon focus aside from shipping........guys..............
Can someone invent a fandom term specifically for platonic relationships?
