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[anexiledprincess]

I like that you like me

I like that you love me

I like that you’re thinking

Of building a life

That surrounds me

I like it so much

It shows up in my dreams

I love you so much

That i just wanna scream

I like you

I love you

I want to just

Own you

To have you forever

My lover

My friend

For us to be together forever

And ever Amen

[thoughtkick]

“It was all she ever wanted: to dwell in peace, without the shadow of her past hunting her.”

— Sarah J. Maas, Kingdom of Ash

[anexiledprincess]

Sometimes I just want to wallow. I dont want to be fixed. I dont want to grow. I just want to be sad in peace.

[anexiledprincess]

I woke up and it's already a problem

I've done something with no solving

I think I've broken our relation

Im a mess, a wreck, an alien

I can't do the normal things he wants

Can't speak of my needs

Like a human being

My heart

is behind a wall

My brain

is loud and screaming

I long to speak of my troubles

But they dont make sense outside of my brain

The English I'm proud of departs me

The words to describe disappear

Im left struggling

Panting for breath

Rolling,drowning in fear

Ten thousand what if's surround me

Im trying but I just can't swim

It's my fault

It's his fault

It's both of our fault

But mostly mine cause I am a nightmare

How much am I trying

I dont even know

But still I'm just a nightmare

I wanna quit

But I like him too much

Give up

And roll and drown in the muck

Go back to my scheduled existence

Where im alone

All alone

Just us

But I like him

I really like him

I wanna be what'll keep him with me

But internally

Its too much for me

But still I wanna just be

Anything

Everything

What keeps him with me

[anexiledprincess]

The Abyss of Pain Oh lonely one over yonder Listen to my words and ponder Let not your struggles be in vain Sink not into the abyss of p

[anexiledprincess]

Love Lust Loyalty Betrayal Burning Brutality Arson Anger Agony Strain Struggle Slovenly Trials come in an endless Symphony

[anexiledprincess]

The Colour Of a Nightmare

The color of a nightmare is black

Bold and insane

Flooding your brain

Throbbing and pulsing

Filling you with pain

And then blank,

You're awake

The color of a nightmare is red

Surrounding and devouring

Eating and swallowing

Taking and dripping

Tugging and ripping

Leaving you scattered

And then shock

You're awake

The color of a nightmare is blue

Sadness and fear

Everyone's unaware

Of you being there

But you're there

And no one cares

And then a rush

You can't breathe

You're awake

The color of a nightmare is white

So bright

Endless light

No pain

No glory

No strife

Oh life

And then

You're awake